Work Text:
Sunny, subliminal seas;
all that the eye can espy
your hand in mine as the rays
set the fresh bay ablaze
i’d look at you, you’d look at me
a glint in your eyes i always hoped to see
Gold gone grey;
the sky’d be beautiful that day
hours of work, a reward in one place
warm interiors complement my face
a smile shone on fat skin,
keen to lovingly welcome you in
Lovely lullaby longing;
all but a teenagers dreaming,
robotics and toxins leering at me.
our future should be the former, but for me to be
these sins i must atone:
Shadow shaded shamefaces;
lined by flies in deceased places
walls i’d frequent and a beacon
illuminating, sick heartbeat quicken
Blades bring blunders;
string and sequence blurs
my guitar losing tune to the blues;
they were all i felt, those nightmare hues
blinding blood, regret, noise, malice —
what i opted for was a fallace
careless colourful carouse;
i was a selfish ruse
null but an animal, perusing for food
burning meat scraps from behind
lit by sparks from my hand
i am the culprit; i made this happen;
the mastermind for my own pain,
perverted wolf from the forest to maim
Pause painting pests;
i’ve seen the worsts and bests
standing here now, neurotic mess reminiscing,
Stimulating sorry senses;
You let me forget repentance
sketching on screens colours and scenes;
all things in this world bear meanings
from poses to eyes, clothes and rhymes
numbers can’t compare to you;
swear it this time, my love is true!
in such short time, you’ve captured my Mind
our Hearts are hurt, heaven would know
still, winter drops occasional snow
the road to that snug home is long,
but my Soul will hold strong
without you, I wouldn’t be Whole.
I’d still be vicious, stuck in that hole
You’ve changed the way I think
for that, I use this ink.
dearest, delighted delectation;
another year brings another celebration
you’re fully deserving, strong no matter what
perhaps you see that fraught, a misplaced blot
but i see what’s true; your thoughts, your fears, the paradox between self and form
i’m glad to be in the eye of this storm,
especially with you.