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Super Junior had just finished performing at their Super Show 10 concert in Seoul. They were going on tour to celebrate their 20th anniversary and the release of their 12th studio album. After saying goodbye to the members, Yesung went home. In the car, he was bored so he decided to search things up about him and the other members on his phone. He searched up Ryeowook’s name first. Nothing came up that he didn’t already know about. His birthday. His height. His songs. He already knew about those things. Feeling even more bored, he decided to go on Twitter. He knows how cruel people can be on there but he thinks even the hate comments will make him feel less bored at this point. He searches up Ryeowook’s name. A post about him and Ryeowook comes up.
“Ryeowook and Yesung interacting in the new suju vlog OMG I love yewook!” “Yewook are so cute together!”
“Yewook?” Yesung thinks to himself.
“What’s that”?
“Is it a combination of me and Ryeowook’s names?”
Feeling curious, he decides to search up ‘Yewook’ on Google. A bunch of Yewook fanfics pop up. Feeling even more curious, he decides to click on one of the fanfics. Little did he know that the one he clicked on was a smut fanfic. Him and Ryeowook made out in the fanfic and did a lot of explicit things too. His face was bright red when he finished the fanfic.
“Do people seriously like writing about these things?” Yesung thought to himself.
“What’s so interesting about male relationships anyway?”
“Can’t fans just write about female idols?”
Yesung thought back to when Super Junior were rookies. Yesung admittingly had a little crush on Ryeowook even though he was younger than him. He thought Ryeowook was really pretty. He liked the way his voice sounded when he sang. He stuffed those feelings way down though. The idea of a man and another man dating? No way. There’s no chance. Regardless of his crush he was good friends with Ryeowook and genuinely enjoyed spending time with him. Seeing people ship him and Ryeowook together brought back those unrequited feelings that he so badly wanted to forget about. The truth is even though he and Ryeowook are good friends, he thought of him as more than a friend. Ryeowook is someone who comforts him when he’s sad, anxious, and scared and someone who makes him happy. But he was sure Ryeowook didn’t feel the same way and he was scared of his feelings being rejected.
“We’re here.” His manager said. His manager had driven him home that day.
“What!” Yesung said, startled. He hadn’t noticed that they were already at his house since he was focused on his thoughts.
“Oh…we’re here.”
“Thank you for driving me home today manager-nim.”
“No problem.” The manager said.
“Goodnight and make sure to get some rest.”
“I will manager-nim.” Yesung replied.
He waved his manager goodbye and quickly went inside the house. He realized that he hadn’t eaten dinner yet so he decided to make some cup ramyeon. As he was eating, he began to think back on what he had seen earlier. Yesung felt embarrassed and ashamed. Why did he have to be paired with someone that he knows won’t have the same feelings towards him.
“Why does it have to be him?” Yesung thought, frustratedly.
“People ship us because they think we’re dating?”
“I wish.”