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The memories flooded in like a waterfall. No scratch that. They flew in like a million jet airplanes shooting rifles into my skull.
So many.
All at once.
Two kids playing in the park. Chasing the neighbours chickens, and annoying the popular people. Two kids just having fun together.
We were the best of friends.
I don’t have a single memory without you in it. You were always there for me, just like I was always there for you, it was us against the world. We were more than friends, we were family, we shared our lives. No details were left unspoken between us. This was what we were.
The us of another lifetime ago.
The us of before.
The me and you when the world made sense.
But now here we stand.
Or more accurately, you stand and I sit. I sit here while you point your bloodied gun at my head. A gun made to shoot back to me all of my precious secrets, the secrets I trusted you with not so long ago.
It was one mistake. One wrong choice that created the ripple effect that lead us to our current predicament. I should have been more careful. I should have payed more attention. I watched us fall two seperate ways and never did anything to stop it, I could have saved us.
But here we are.
Was I really that bad?
I don’t need your response to know the answer.
I know from the way you grip the gun, it’s head grinding against my temple. I know from the way your eyes light with a fire, so full of rage and hate. I know from the way you whole body seems to be screaming at me without even saying a word. I can’t help but wonder what it would have been like if nothing had happened. Would we still be happy and carefree, yapping to each other every night about anything and everything. Would we still share the secrets that burden our hearts so we might carry the weight together. But that doesn’t matter now, Not while your holding that damned gun to my head. And the thing is, even after everything, some part of me still carried the hope that you wouldn’t shoot.
That hope faded when the safety clicked off.
I did this…
Your finger moves to the trigger.
I’m sorry…
There’s one last moment of silence before a deafening ‘bang’ filled the room.
Here we lay once again, just us, the stars, and a million secrets. Staring into the galaxies beyond, with wonder in our eyes and hearts full of love.