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Ashley’s elimination wasn’t easy for Ally to handle.
As everyone returned to camp, she couldn’t help but think about how she really was alone now. Her only remaining friend was voted off, and the merge just began.
It felt like a losing streak. First it was James, then Hunter, followed by Tess, and now Ashley was gone, too. There wasn’t anything she could do, and there was no one she felt like she could talk to about this either. Jake was out of the question, and she’d barely talked to anyone else.
She couldn’t help but wish she actually got to say goodbye. She didn’t get a word in before Ashley was gone, and Ashley didn’t really say anything to her either.
Wanting more made her feel guilty. She’d been nothing but kind to her. She’d been a great friend in the short time they knew each other. The feeling made her want to-
No. She can’t cry now. Eliminations happen all the time, and someone would hear her. She had to get over it somehow. She’s done this before, and she’d do it again.
She had to ignore her feelings for now. Just while she was in the competition. She wanted that money so badly.
She needed a way out of the constant belittling. A way out of the disapproval.. of being told that nothing she did was ever good enough.
She’d make things better, even if she had to put her own emotions to the side for a while. It was like she was placing them in the back of her inventory. It wasn’t like it was her first time doing this. It probably wouldn’t be her last.
She just hoped it wouldn’t go wrong this time.