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It was days like this where Uki stayed awake for longer than he should, thinking about the what-ifs, eating him from the inside with grief, guilt, and something he couldn't really name. Washing over his body, torturing him with those dreadful dreams. 69 days. 69 days, 17 hours, and 40 minutes, since Fulgur was no longer with him, and yes, he did count all those hours. He couldn't and well, wouldn't forget the man who taught him everything about reopening himself to others. The man who knew him better than himself. The man he loved.
Life feels monotone as he watches the stars alone this time. Time seems to go slower as he realises the importance of every second. Flashes of the past caress this heart, times they were together, moments that he couldn't erase from his memory even if he tried. Not that he wanted to. He became acutely aware that the only thing left was the memory of him. His kind smile, words of support, and god, he loved him. Loved for every moment he was with him and will love him for every moment after.
Relief washed over this time instead of guilt, maybe even he isn't here physically, he would always be with him somewhere spiritually or emotionally. The summer air feels colder as he comes to terms with everything. It wasn't that he was never gonna miss him, but that he would. But, he realises that the man he loves will be with him no matter what, and that the love Uki has for him is enough for the both of them even across universes.