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Where a Red Camellia wilts a Black Rose Blooms

Summary:

There was always something that separates double black from being the same

Chuuya cared too much, and Dazai couldn't care less.
Chuuya loved the world, and Dazai would burn it
Chuuya would burn himself for the world, and Dazai would burn the world for him.
Chuuya was always too trusting, and Dazai trusts no one.
Chuuya is seeking life, and Dazai is seeking death.
Chuuya was second place, and Dazai was first place.
Chuuya is the moon, and Dazai is the sun.
Chuuya is the shadow, and Dazai is the light.
Chuuya is the angel that stayed in darkness, and Dazai is the demon that escaped to the light.
Chuuya Never gave up, And Dazai Already Gave up.

This was how it always was.

Or was it?..

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OR!

Chuuya Has enough and Makes A deal with arahabaki the day Dazai left without a word, Arahabaki Then occupies and controls Chuuya's Body For 4 years without anyone knowing.

But when Chuuya is too far gone, he starts losing his memories and he starts this endless search of finding them and rebuilding this false lie

will chuuya be saved? or will he fall?

Read and find out!

Notes:

NO PIRATING, STEALING, OR HATE! BUT I DO TAKE CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISIM AND ADVICE!

-AZRAETHE (AUTHOR)

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: The Wilted Camellia is Rebirth

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There was always something that separates double black from being the same

 

Chuuya Cared too much, and Dazai Couldn't care less.

 

Chuuya Loved the world, and Dazai would burn it.

 

Chuuya would burn himself for the world, and Dazai would burn the world for him.

 

Chuuya Was always too trusting, and Dazai trusts no one.

 

Chuuya Is seeking life, and Dazai Was Seeking death.

 

Chuuya was Second place, and Dazai Was first place.

 

Chuuya is the moon, and Dazai is the sun.

 

Chuuya is the shadow, and Dazai is the light.

 

Chuuya is the angel that stayed in darkness, and Dazai Is the demon that escaped to the light.

 

Chuuya Never gave up, And Dazai Already Gave up.

 

This was how it always was.

 

Or was it?..

 

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Flashback to when Dazai left...

 

Chuuya was in his apartment drinking his wine away, you could mistake him for a drunkard if you didn't see the Tears running down his face and the look of emptiness and exhaustion on his face, Chuuya closed his eyes hoping that he'll never wake up again.

 

Chuuya opened his eyes and he was standing on nothing, he looked around the unfamiliar place but there was no entrance or exit, it was all an empty abyss, a soft Whoosh passed by him as he thought.

 

How is there Wind... Here?..

When he blinked, someone who looked the exact same as him appeared in front of him, chuuya's eyes widened in surprise as her took a few steps back and looked at the person.

They (?) Had His exact same hair color but their hairstyle was a bit longer and there was a black gradient at the bottom of every strand. And their eyes..

 

Oh God their eyes...

 

It looks the exact same as him...

An endless abyss but this one was different... They had Ruby Red eyes but there was no light in them...

 

They also had different clothes from him, it looked more regal and ominous..

 

They had a Black Turtleneck Without Sleeves and A Mysterious Gold pendant and at the center was A Ruby Star.

 

They also wore a Black Jacket which had a unique pattern of Red and Gold as well as symbolism of Destruction, Rebirth, Death, And... Black roses..

 

They also wore a black High-low skirt with a golden trim and black roses, they also wore black shorts with Black tights and A Red Corrupted vine wrapped around their legs and arms, and a Red Corrupted Gem on their forehead which they hid with bangs.

 

They also wore Black boots and Black rings, Ruby earrings, Ruby rings, And a Black Tiara with Rubies.

 

And they had large Black wings folded on their back

 

He hesitated before asking...

 

"Who are you?.. Why do you look like me... " He asked Reluctantly as he stared at them wide eyed.

They were amused by his reaction since they tilted their head to the side and smirked.

"My name is... Arahabaki, nice to meet you... My dear vessel.. "

Chapter 2: The mother he never had... The mother who was still mourning, and the son who was still searching

Summary:

Chuuya and arahabaki make a deal! Yippe!

Notes:

Hope y'all enjoyed the new chapter!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Chuuya's eyes widened with.. Fear?.. Or..

Recognition?..

 

Either way he didn't dwell on it.

Arahabaki tilted their head in confusion but they were still smiling and leaning towards him, Chuuya opened his mouth to talk but no words came out for a few seconds before he was finally able to speak.

“I… so… you are… arahabaki?.. “ He reluctantly asked as he looked them up and down, surprised that a. GOD. was wearing something like… that…

 

They nodded in confirmation “Yes.”

“And… How exactly- No… why are you here?.. “ he asked as he tilted his head.

Arahabaki wickedly grinned as they clapped their hands once “Well! That's because I want to make a deal. “ they said as They extended their hand

 

Chuuya tilted his head in confusion and reluctance

“A deal?.. What type of deal?.. “ he asked warily

“Well dear vessel!.. “ they paused before they smirked wickedly and Chuuya could tell they had bad, bad intentions…

“The deal goes like this… I will be able to control your body, basically being the driver instead of the passenger. But! In exchange I will give you bits and pieces of your memories! Over time you'll be able to remember your whole life! Amazing right?” They responded excitedly while they moved their hands.

Chuuya raised an eyebrow in distrust “And… What exactly is the catch?.. “

Arahabaki paused before smirking “There aren't any Catches! We make the deal, I control your body and you will be able to remember your memories!.. “ they paused “Other than you being asleep the whole time… However! When I give you memories you can control your body but only for like a few hours! And the rest of the time you are asleep! And you can also tell me what I should do or what you want me to do!” they grinned.

“And?.. “ Chuuya warily tried to push more information out of the God

“Well… other than you have to exchange memories for your new memories… “ they responded nervously before immediately panicking “BUT! IF YOU EXCHANGE YOUR MEMORIES OF YOUR EX-PARTNER THEN YOU WOULD BE HAPPIER THAN BEFORE! “ They yelled and panicked. Chuuya won't accept the deal.

Chuuya paused considering it before slowly extending his hand and shaking both of their hands.

Arahabaki grinned before snapping their fingers, and Chuuya's vision blurred and he could only hear ringing other than Arahabaki's voice “This is a gift for accepting the deal!” before he could only see black.

 

When he opened his eyes he noticed a Ginger-haired boy with heterochromatic eyes.

The boy's hair was slightly messy but it was soft and untangled and his left eye was as brown as the tree's trunk and his right eye was as blue as the Deep blue sea, and his Freckles were scattered around his face like stars in space, where did Chuuya recognize this boy?..

Oh right… that's me…

Before chuuya can think about it any further a female voice called out,

“Chuuya!” Right after an adult woman who looked similar to himself just with Both eyes blue.

Past him turned his head to look at who it was, right after recognizing the woman he ran towards the woman his arms open for a hug and when the woman was close enough she hugged him and picked him up.

“Mommy!” past him called out Overjoyed and happy, While behind him The present chuuya stood frozen, his eyes wide and mouth slightly open.

He looked surprised, after all.

All his life he was forced to believe that he came from the lab, that he wasn't human.

The main reason he is like this right now is because he wasn't human, and now?

He was shown his memories supposedly lost to time and to the abyss, With himself… as a child.. And happy…

Happiness is such a foreign word to him, Happiness doesn't last forever.

Chuuya knows that best, Happiness is just fleeting and is an illusion given by your own mind to try and make this cruel and twisted life so much more better…

So this is how happiness feels-... No… looks like… I would never be happy… not now… not ever…

Chuuya's eyes looked sorrowful and empty, as he thought:

Maybe… maybe I wasn't ever meant to be happy… after all… I am just the fool who trusted too much… and gave too much just for the fool to be left in the dark… over and over again…

 

Is this what it feels to be empty?..

“- I love you too! You're just so sweet!” Chuuya finally was able to snap out of his thoughts as he heard his… mother's voice… a mother who he wasn't able to meet nor see…

The mother he wished to have but never gotten…

Mother…

 

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Chuuya woke up suddenly as he held his head, his eyes wide, sweating as he frantically looked around, searching…

For something… anything…

He finally realized he was back in his apartment… still drunk… still miserable… still… crying… for a ghost that was never his to keep…

Notes:

Also next chapter will be a filler!

Chapter 4: Filler! 1

Summary:

Some QnA for some questions some of you MIGHT be wondering! And some character info about chuuya and dazai for the AUN

Notes:

I know I JUST posted a chapter but yea... I finished the chapter just now and it is 10AM in the Philippines! Please go easy on me since I'm just a kid! But to all of those who kudos and gave me supportive comments, thank you! (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤︎

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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FILLER!

 

Q & A!

 

Q. What are your plans for the future?

 

A. My plans are to make sure this fic is able to continue and stay relevant and consistent despite school and laziness as well as writer's block because this fic was something I've been thinking about for a while.

 

Q. How did you come up with this fic?

 

A. I came up with the fic because I was wondering… what if Chuuya and arahabaki made a deal? A deal that would forever put Chuuya to sleep and make arahabaki the new Chuuya? And how would dazai react? How would the port mafia react? How about the ADA? How about the world? So that's the premise of the story!

 

Q. What will be the schedule for chapter posting? And when will the fic finish?

 

A. he schedule would be very irregular but since I want to get this fic done, and I want this fic to finish by the middle of 2026 or late 2026 but if I dream hard enough and post weekly and or Post every 3 days or more I would be able to get this done by early 2026!

Q. Will you stay active and consistent with posting chapters?

A. I will try to but since school and exams are next week, I'll probably be posting short chapters and or fillers and so I am sorry that you have to wait for long chapters.

Q. Will the Fanfic be centered around skk?

A. No, the fanfic doesn't revolve around skk but it is about chuuya and sure I know I added the ship tag but it is because I want it to be more tragic and I want some one-sided skk since chuuya traded his memories.

Character pronouns and sexuality and relationships!

Chuuya Nakahara

- Gay (Unrealized) , thinks he is aro/ace.

- He/him

- He thinks of Kouyou as his sister.

- Doesn't know dazai (present and doesn't remember him), (past) chuuya used to like dazai but he knew dazai won't love him back so he never confessed his feelings.

- Thinks Mori as a sort of twisted father figure and boss

- Forgives Verlaine and talks to him sometimes

- Think of the Akutagawa siblings as his younger siblings and, or as his children.

- Soft with Q even if they killed a bunch of his men.

- Was always jealous of dazai

 

Dazai osamu

- Bisexual

- He/him

- Loves chuuya a lot but doesn't show it nor says it since he is afraid he will be the
cause of chuuya's harm and he would bring even more pain to chuuya.

- Hates Mori but he has to admit he is like a father figure since he was the one who raised him

- Hates Q.

- Likes the Akutagawa siblings but he will never give Ryu his approval since if he did so then Ryu won't have a reason to live.

- Wants to leave his old life and forget about it.

- Dislikes Fyodor but respects him

- Cares a lot about the ADA and wants to protect them

- Thinks Oda and Ango as older brother figures

- Doesn't forgive ango but he still cares about him since they used to be friends and he is the only one that he can talk to about oda.

Notes:

The next chapter would be posted at this Tuesday!

Chapter 5: The Snake and The Lion

Summary:

Mori & chuuya)(?)

Notes:

This is so late.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Boots were lightly stomping on the floor as chuuya walked, the candle's fire seemed to disappear when chuuya walked by them.

‘This is the present day, the Day the Armed detective agency and The port mafia will meet and discuss a mission needing both organizations’ cooperation’ Chuuya (?) Thought as his eyebrows twitched for a split second before his face returned back to calm and composed.

‘However… Why is Ougai calling me to his office?..’ Chuuya (?) thought, before he finally reached the large dark wood doors to the port Mafia's office, he sighed before knocking on the door.

“Come on in. “ A calm voice gave permission before Chuuya (?) pushed open the doors and the scene was oddly quiet… Calm yet chaotic.

On the ground sat the mafia boss’ ability, a Blonde-haired child with Bright blue eyes and a childish frilly red dress, she was drawing a picture, which Chuuya (?) Was able to take a slight peek and noted it was her so called ‘family’ which was the port mafia.

‘How foolish, however… that child… Isn't stupid, she just acts like it. ’ Chuuya (?) Thought a slight expression of disgust and disappointment flashed across his face before changing back to calm.

Chuuya (?) bowed down slightly before standing straight back up and staring at the port mafia boss, Mori Ougai.

“Chuuya-kun… how do you feel about… possessing and controlling a body that's not yours?” Mori asked as he placed his head on top of his locked fingers and he tilted his head to the side, his creepy smile ever present.

■■■ Stayed calm and composed, “I am merely… occupying this… Body for the time being, however firstly… how did you find out? “ ■■■’s voice was curious yet dangerous, his eyes glowed red under the light.

Notes:

I am honestly done so this fic won't be updated as much but it WON'T be dead

Chapter 6: In the Lion's Den ❶

Summary:

Idk bruh I jus write, But anywayss Mori and arahabaki talk and we get a glimpse of the ADA!

Notes:

My ahh Posted this in apology

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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The Mafia boss Hummed As though he was thinking but ■■■ already knew Full well that he already predicted this interaction and Perfectly Calculated the best Responses, It's not like the Boss was stupid, in fact he was one of the smartest men Chuuya knew.

 

(Fun fact: My Cousin's 2nd birthday is on November 2 which I thought his birthday was November 23 or 25 - Author-san)

 

Mori rubbed his chin with his thumb and index finger, creating the perfect image of thinking things carefully, a few moments later Mori Finally Looked at ■■■. “Well… the first thing is The change of Personality, it's quite suspicious if one of your Employees suddenly changed personalities, but to tell you in truth I was quite unsure so I had to prove this theory of mine… “ Mori paused for a moment taking his time to check the reactions of the person in front of him before continuing

 

“So I waited… and I put you in a few missions here and there… I quietly observed afar, never too close to be noticed nor too far to seem unusual. “ Mori paused before smiling… Too unnaturally, like a predator eyeing its prey carefully, taking in its details and reactions.

 

“However… I do wonder, How did you land in this predicament and where is The Original Chuuya-kun?.. “ Mori Stayed silent after as though subtly Pushing ■■■ to answer the question, ■■■ however was unfazed as he stared into the man's soul, Dark and Cunning.

( They just described 99.99% of AO3 Readers and authors except replace the cunning with depressed - Author-san)

 

“I'm afraid that's not information for you to know, Now… Let me ask you another question, Why did you pick this day and time Specifically? I'm sure you would've known from the start. “ Mori hummed at the question “Well, Firstly. This is our first meeting with The Armed Detective Agency and I figured… that if you knew that I knew your identity you'd be more… compliant and obedient.. However I still have yet to know your name. Would you mind telling me?” He asked almost child-like curiosity… and… innocent… however ■■■ knew better than to give the man the full truth.

(Fr tho, 10/10 Survival Skills - Author-san)

 

The man can tell if you lied in a heartbeat, He is dangerous… just because he isn't as strong as his subordinates doesn't mean he is weak essentially.

 

“Hm… my name is Arahabaki.. “ Arahabaki responds almost casually but Mori could tell they still have their guard up. (No shit - Author-san)

 

Mori hummed in… approval? Quite… abnormal.. But Arahabaki judges no one. (Arahabaki doesn't discriminate trust - Author-san)

 

⋆༺𓆩☠︎︎𓆪༻⋆

 

The Armed detective agency on the other hand was wary of the mafia, Why wouldn't they be? It's the PORT MAFIA.

 

Atsushi banged his head onto the desk in Anxiety (I Hate that song oml - Author-san) as the others were also panicking a bit and incoherent muttering was in the background and Kunikida’ trying to get everyone to calm down.

 

How was Atsushi supposed to calm down when he had a 99% chance of being killed by Akutagawa??? (Idk bro u jus do?? - Author-san)

 

Kenji them burst through the door, his eyes glowing with excitement comparable to that of the FUCKING SUN and shouts “The Port mafia car is here! “

Notes:

Do you guys like my side comments? I always wanted to do this tbh, I want y'all's opinions in case it gets too interruptive :)

Chapter 7: ANNOUNCEMENT! (PLEASE READ!)

Summary:

2 announcements!

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This is an announcement! But not for the reason you may think!

 

I would just like to announce the fact that this fan fiction won't be posting irregularly anymore! Instead it would be every Sunday! I apologize for those who seem upset with this decision but please keep in mind that I thought about this carefully.

 

The reason for this is for the pacing to become more balanced and better, leading up to better anticipation and theories, as well as for my well being. I don't want to burn out everyday just because I have to write, I would like everyone to understand this decision of mine.

 

Another announcement, The recent chapter I posted (chapter 4 or 5,i lost count), Is the scheduled chapter for next week, I posted in advance so I have more time for school since the next semester is next week so the next chapter is to be scheduled on November 9,2025.

Thank you for the support as always!

Notes:

"I hope you enjoyed my show, I'll be sure to Continue acting this Lie for eternity."

- C.N