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Blood drips from the deep, crimson red cut. Two sits there mindlessly, their eyes blank, their mind and heart is racing. Another cut, deeper than the last one. Their eyes water up. Slash. More? Slash. More? Slash. Mor-?

"Two Time?"

...

"Yo, ya in there?"

Two Time drops the dagger. Wipes the blood off and throws on a hoodie.

The door creaks open.

"Two Time! Hey dinners ready, Elliot said to call yo-"

"Not hungry."

"Are you sure..?"

"..."

"Yes."

"Right.. Okay.. Pizzas in the fridge if you know.. ever get hungry.. K?"

Two nods.

"..Well, see ya later then Time."

...

The door closes as Chance sighs loudly and makes his way down to the kitchen.

"Chance! Wheres Two Time?" Elliot practically screamed.

"They weren't hungry.. I'm assuming they ate already." replied Chance.

"I-I don't think I saw them eat today.." Noob stammered.

.....

Two Time springs up and quickly locks the door with haste.

They fell back against the cabin wall making a loud thud.

Hopefully no one heard.

Two Time takes off the hoodie and glances at the red, stinging cuts.

"Haah.."

It's not enough.

Shortly after Two realizes that the cuts on their arm would be highly visible, instead they took off their pants in a hurry and stared at their right thigh.

"This will... do." The cultist whispered in a soft and slow voice.

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Slash.

Cut.

Slash.

Red.

Slash.

Red.

Red.

Red.
Red.
Red.

...

Two gasps heavily as the blood drips down their thigh, down to the cabin floor staining it a dark red.

.....

It's

It's

It's not enough.

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It's not enough.

It's not enough.

It's not enough.

...

"I-I need something else."

"I-I need something stronger."

"Something I deserve after doing this to him."

......

The dagger is in their hand.

Two Time diverts the dagger towards their neck.

They slice it, deep.

Blood drips down, they don't feel pain at first.

Pressure comes then warmth, blood runs down Two's neck.

The wetness down their neck and clothes is all they can feel.

"It's cold."

"I'm sorry."

The thick, wine red liquid coats the ground as they thought;

I deserved this.
It was my fault.
I killed him.
Im sorry.
Im sorry.
I really am.
You won't forgive me.
I wouldn't either.

...

Two Time's vision began to blur as their eyes drained life out of them.

They were gonna respawn back soon anyways.

Why try?

...

"Two..?"

"Open the door."

"Two!!"

"Open the door!!"

"Guest, I already tried, the door isn't opening."

"Must be locked then.."

"Two Time? Ya in there?" The veteran yelled out.

"..."

"Guest, at this point, just break open the door.." Chance argued.

"W-Wait!" Noob stopped Guest from breaking down the door.

Noob takes out a hair pin and fumbles with the lock, then finally successfully pick locks Two Time's door.

...

"Who's going in..?" Chance asked.

"I don't think I should.." Noob objected.

"Chance, you go in, you know Two the best." Guest protested.

...

"Fineee.. I'll go in." Chance agreed.

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"What.. What the hell?!" Chance yelled.

"W-What the fuck.."

"H-Holy shit.."

"Oh.. Oh shit.."

"Two??"

"Two wake up.."

"Two?!?"

...

Chance runs to them and calls out for Guest and Noob.

"D-Dude someone get a med-kit..!"

"Chance? What happened-" Guest's voice trailed off as his eyes averted to Time's unconscious body.

"Noob, please assist me in getting a med-kit." Guest requested.

"S-Sure, but what for?"

...

"Actually, I don't need an answer, I heard Chance yelling already." Noob said, answering their own question.

Noob grabs a med-kit from under the sink and hands it to Guest, Noob's eyes adverts themselves to an unconscious Two Time.

"O-Oh my.. Oh my gosh.." Noob, with a shocked face mumbled out.

It's been a while since Noob been in the Forsaken realm, tho they couldn't get used to the blood surrounding them everyday, every round.

( if you can't tell, i don't play forsaken🫩🫩 )

Guest grabbed the med-kit as Noob walks out with a hand over their mouth.

..

As Guest was about to clean Two's wound on their neck, arm, and thigh so they don't respawn with blood gushing out of them, a new round started.

...

Without Two Time.

Or Noob.

Two Time wakes up on the floor, a used med-kit beside them while Noob carefully dabbed wet cotton balls on their thigh.

All of the blood on them was wiped clean except for their thighs.

"Two! You're awake, Guest was supposed to clean your wounds but they were teleported to a new round." Noob explained.

Two Time looks up at Noob.

They can't remember anything.

They don't want to.

...

"Are you okay, Time? I can get water for you if you're feeling a bit dizzy."

Two Time nods in agreement as Noob stands up and goes to the kitchen.

"Stay here kay?" Noob told Two.

...

As Two Time drinks the room temperature water, Noob asks.

"U-Uhm, Chance found you in your room, and there was c-cuts all over your arm and thighs.. What happened?"

Two looks at Noob in shock.

They totally forgot that they did that.

"A-Also, there was a s-slit, a deep one across your neck..?"

...

Two Time starts to breathe heavily.

"Two! Sorry, I shouldn't have asked.. It was insensitive of me. I'm gonna give you some space, If you need anything, you can find me in my room."

Two nods as their breathing got slower.

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Chance and Guest spawned together and the admins, Elliot, and 007n7 spawned quite far away.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" Chance cursed out.

"Damn it! We haven't cleaned Two Time up, and none of us can in this damn round."

"Chance," Guest 1137 checks the players in the game, "Noob isn't in this round, most likely they will clean Two's wounds." He reassured Chance.

"Right, I need to get to Elliot, I hope he didn't spawn alone."

( can you tell im a multishipper )

"Elliot!"

...

"Elliot!"

...

"Chanc-?"

"Elliot!"

"There you are.. Oh shit."

"Yea, 1x found me pretty fast."

"Follow me, I'll go get a med-kit."

...

As Elliot followed Chance, 1x and Shedletsky both missed their hits.

"..."

"..."

Shedletsky sprints off and as Taph throws a subspace mine near 1x.

Can you guess what happens next🫩

"Dumb mute thing.." 1x huffed as they chased Taph down.

Guest intervenes, only to miss his block and get hit.

Chance hands over a med-kit to Elliot, right after he uses it he dashed to Guest, who is currently in the distance and chucks a pizza at him.

...

1x grabs Taph and kills her/him/them ( please dont cancel me )

As Guest and Shedletsky teams up on 1x, Builderman set up a sentry. ( what the fuck is a sentry )

007n7 uses a clone to distract, or atleast try to, 1x4.

"Elliot! Make sure to leave pizza for Two Time, K?" Chance shouted.

"What? What happened to them?" Elliot questioned."

"Well, we found them.. errr on the floor? With multiple cuts on their arm and thigh.. And a deep slash on their neck.."

"I don't even want to ask this but.. W-Was it self inflicted?"

"I-I think. No, no definitely."

"Oh.."

1x overhears the whole conversation, All survivors are dead except Chance and Elliot, they were just talking the whole round.

"Ha, wait till Azure hears about their theyfriend."

...

Azure heard some of the conversation between Chance and Elliot, it was quite hard to hear as they were kinda far away and the spectate mode was a bit glitchy.

...

Oh..

...

1x strikes a corrupted nature at them (?)

Chance dodges as Elliot gets hit.

"Chance, use your gun!" Elliot yelled out.

"Ya got it pal!"

It explodes.

30 more seconds is added to timer.

"Chance! What the fuck!" Elliot screamed.

There lays 3 minutes on the timer, it was over for Elliot.

"..."

"Heyyyy.."

Elliot dies.

Elliot respawns back into the main cabin as all survivors looks exhausted.

...

"Chance! Elliot! You guys did not pay attention to the round! Could you not hear me calling your name?" Shedletsky lectured.

"My bad bro!" Chance said.

"Where the fuck is Two Time? Are they okay?" Elliot suddenly yelled out.

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1x is back in the killer's cabin, how delightful..

He runs over to Azure, who's currently in his room.

"... I know damn well you overheard that conversation between Elliot and Chance." 1x said with a grin on their face.

"..."

"I wasn't able to hear it correctly."

"What did he say about Tw-"

"You mean your theyfriend."

"My what."

"Your theyfriend."

"Die."

"You first."

"Shut up and tell me what they were talking about."

"Ha, fine, your little non binary hoe committed suicide and cut themselves again." 1x smugly said.

"What? 1x you better not be fucking lying."

"I'm not, you dumbass Azure, I couldn't care less about your ex."

...

"Are they oka-?" Azure started.

"I hope not." 1x declared.

"..."

"Fuck off 1x."

"What? I could not care less about that twink, I hope it dies."

( New Round Starting In 10 Minutes )

"Ha! I hope your killer next, they you'll see them." The embodiment of hatred spat. ( hardcore googling saved me w that )

...

Azure's Room.

"..."

"Well, that should have made me feel better."

"I should be happy that they tried that."

"I hate them."

"I have too."

"I feel unwell."

"Is it because of them?"

"Why should I feel bad?"

"Why do I feel bad?"

"They deserve it."

"I still love them."

"No wonder why I hate myself."

"No wonder I also think about them."

"I miss them."

"I miss everything."

"I love you."

"For some reason I do."

"Do you love me back?"

"I don't want to love you."

"This is your fault."

"Though, I keep living you."

"No matter how much I don't want to."

"My love for you is still there."

It can never go away.

...

(?)

"So 1x was right, I am gonna be killer next round."

"I hope I can see them this round."

"What?" ( Azure's Hat )

"Nevermind."

I miss you.

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Round starting is 10 seconds.

9.

8.

7.

6.

5.

4.

3.

2.

1.

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Azure spawns in Brandon6875935's place as the survivors spawn in right after.

/how does forsaken work.

His tentacles rest beside his arms as he walks towards Chance, who was spawned near and currently flipping their coin with Lady Luck not by his side.

Chance doesn't realize a fat ass vine heading straight for his neck, right before the tendril could reach;

Shedletsky's sword jabs into Azure's leg.

He doesn't react to it yet.

He has been stabbed before.

...

Azure was stunned 3 seconds before being unleashed from the stun then darts right back to Chance, who's weakness had piled up to IV (4).

A tentacle reached for Chance's leg and slams him towards a wall.

30 seconds were added to the timer.

Looks like Lady Luck was not with this guy🫩🫩

...

Soon, half the survivors fell, not familiar with how Azure used his abilities to slaughter them.

Dusekkar and Two Time remained, both fearing Azure in different ways due to different mindsets.

Azure went for Dusekkar first, he didn't want to see Two Time yet.

Right before a tentacle could drive down inside Dusekkar's rapidly beating heart,

A sharp stabbing, twisting pain shot in one of Azure's tentacles.

Letting Dusekkar fly off as he turned around to see the person who stabbed him.

Two Time.

...

Azure stared at Two Time,

he doesn't forgive them.

Still, the aching pain of the thought of them hurting themselves increased.

Azure walked off, ignoring Two Time.

He needs to kill Dusekkar off first.

Then they'll talk.

...

Azure chased after Dusekkar, cornering him against two walls.

"Lets make this quick." Azure mumbled out.

A deep wound from the vine bleed out as Dusekkar's health heavily decreased.

The last man standing soundtrack started as the two cultist's outlines lit up.

...

Two Time sprinted, though, failing to do as their thigh bursted in pain as well as their arm.

Looks like the pain they inflicted on themself didn't go away.

They hid behind a rock ( are there rocks there ) as Azure's footsteps got closer. He didn't want to scare them. He still didn't forgive them either.

...

"Two Time..?"

Two Time stayed silent, gripping their dark hair, tugging at it while staring at the ground.

"Two."

Azure found them.

In a.. vulnerable concerning state.

...

They didn't reply, it was almost like they couldn't hear him.

Because they couldn't hear him.

They couldn't hear anything except for the voices in their head telling them to die.

...

They collapsed suddenly, passed out on their side.

"Two Time..?"

...

Azure used a tentacle to shake them gently.

After that not working, he grabbed them with both hands on each shoulder, got on his knees and aggressively shook them.

...

Spoilers, it didn't work.

Well..

That gave him.. A chance.

To look deeper into the reddish bandages covering one of their arms.

At first, he didn't want to.

He didn't want to know if 1x was telling the truth.

But.. He had to.

...

He slowly took off the dark haired cultist's bandages, unraveling them in fear.

There laid multiple slashes and cuts.

Some drying well as some bubbling blood out of them.

How nauseous.

"Two..? Two Time..?"

He could hear their heartbeats as they breathed, once.

Twice.

Another breath.

They woke up, rubbing their eyes and smudging their mascara.

...

"Hi..Nightshade."

Azure said, hesitantly.

Two Time blinked. W twotime🥹🥹

sorry

Two Time blinked again.

Then again.

"Azure..?"

Both of them could hear Two's voice break.

Two Time scooted back.

They were scared.

Is he gonna hurt them?

Well.. They deserve it don't they?

...

"Yep.. That's my name.."

...

Hiccup.

Azure noticed their eyes watering.

Before a tear fell on their grey sweatpants.

That was also drenched in blood.

Their blood.

From their own doings.

...

Both of them stared at the water drop,

one looking at the tear, the other looking at the blood.

...

Azure snapped back into reality as he stared their bloody, chopped, arm.

Azure gripped on it carefully, not wanting to touch the cuts and cause pain to them.

Two Time's mouth opened slightly as they just now realized;

Their bandages were on the floor.

...

"Azure.. It's not what it looks like.."

Azure stared, at them this time.

"Then.. What is it..?"

...

...

...

Another tear dropped from Two Time's rounded, hooded eyes.

"Why?"

...

"What?" Two Time replied, on the verge of tears.

...

"You know what.. Two."

...

"It's nothing."

"Why are you lying?"

"Stop trying to worry about me."

Azure didn't think Two Time would snap at him like that.

Looking at his past lover's face, tears dripping from their eyes.

For the first time;

He didn't know what to say to his lover.

...

Finally, after an unbearable amount of silence, Azure questioned,

"I didn't hurt you yet, why is there blood covering your thigh..?"

...

"Yet.. So you're gonna hurt me?"

"No."

...

"The blood on my leg is nothing, I said stop worrying about me."

...

The round ended, quicker than Azure wanted it to.

...He would have to bribe Pr3tyPriincess into letting him do the next round that starts in 2 hours.

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Conversation between Azure and Pr3tyPriincess*

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"Oh wow definitely did not mean to walk in your room."

"Azure, get the fuck out."

"I have a deal, okay? Just hear me out."

"No, if this is about doing the next round, then no."

"What why?" Azure, slightly panicked.

"It's so boring here, the round is the only thing that is fun nowadays."

...

"I'll have a tea party with you."

"No."

"I'll get Two Time to have a tea party with the both of us."

"Bleh, no."

"I'll let you dress them up in whatever."

"Really?"

"Yes."

"How will you be able to bring that insane cultist in this cabin?"

"I have.. my ways."

"Fine, I better see them in my room, tied up like a hostage."

"Tied up, got it." Azure replied, taking mental notes.

...

"Pr3tyPriiness opted out of the round, how weird." 1x1x1x1 started, "Though, I really don't give a fuck."

John Doe just stared at him, head tilting slightly in confusion.

"Whatever." 1x pettily said in a annoyed tone.

...

can we pretend like its 2 hours later and stuff thanks

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Azure was teleported into the new round, with one goal.

Finding Two Time.

It was quite hard to find them, they themself, known for their stealth, sly movements, and agility.

Azure ran through the map, earning weird looks from survivors after he dead on ignored them.

After all of that, Two Time wasn't anywhere.

Though, the botanist didn't give up, he knew them.

They were purposely hiding from him.

Of course they are.

...

"What's that..?" He mumbles.

There's a tail sticking out behind that wall.

It looks like Two Time's tail.

"Let me guess.. Two is behind that wall.." Azure whispers in a soft tone, unheard to others around.

He shoots a tentacle at the tail, grabbing it, earning a high pitched scream, of pain.

...

There was Two Time, quite vulnerable in this position.

Azure wanted to finish the conversation before the round ended.

Still holding on to the fragile tail, Azure walked forward.

Two Time looked at him for a spilt second as tears formed and dripped.

They turned their head in a hurry, not wanting to engage in eye contact in this very moment.

"Let go of it." Two mumbled in pain.

Azure let go of it, instead using the tentacles to grab on to their wrist.

They hissed in pain.

Why?

Right.

...

Their inflicted cuts,
their fault,
it's always their fault,
they did this to themselves.

How useless.
Like a burden to them all.
It was their fault.
Them and their wounds.
All of them are their doings.

No one should feel bad.
Feel pity.
The only guilty one there is them.
They can't do anything.
They can only hurt them or others.
It's what they're good at.

...

"Two Time?"

"...?"

"Are you even listening?"

"What drove you so crazy for you to do this?"

"Go away Azure."

...

"Can you just leave me alone?"

"You are dead, stop trying to haunt my dreams." They coldly stated.

"Two? What? I'm alive, somehow. I'm not haunting dreams, yours specifically."

"What's wrong with you, Two?"

...

What is wrong with me?

Why does this have to happen?

Why?

Do I deserve it?

Maybe.

Perhaps.

Maybe this is what SPAWN wanted me to do.

SPAWN wanted this.

SPAWN asks, I give.

SPAWN is the reason for this.

I shouldn't blame spawn.

It was me who grabbed the dagger.

It was be who drove the double pointed dagger in Azure's back.

It was me who prayed to SPAWN after killing him.

It was me.

...

"I deserve it."

"I deserved everything."

...

"Two," Azure shifts right next to Two Time, sitting down silently. "What do you mean?"

"I'm the one who stabbed you, not SPAWN, this is my punishment for everything I've done to harm everyone."

"Including myself, that's why I did it."

Azure frowned at SPAWN.

"I still don't get it, Timey."

"I still don't."

That nickname sparked something in Two Time.

Hearing that, it did something to them.

"I'm sorry," Two Time choked out before another cry came out of their mouth.

"I really regret it, I really do."

"I never should have killed you, it was.. stupid of me to do that, you were always there for me."

"Im sorry, Azure, you don't have to forgive me, I get it."

...

Azure didn't know what to say.

How to comfort them,

that's another first.

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"Two Time, I don't forgive you."

"I know."

"But, that doesn't mean I don't care for you."

"?"

"Look.. Can I just..?"

Azure's voice trails off as his hand reaches for the bloody part of their sweatpants, tugging at the waistband.

Two Time nods slowly, slightly confused.

He gently, but firmly, pulls the sweatpants off, placing in a folded pile.

His eyes meet to a bloody bandage, he has a hint of what it is.

Azure silently gestures to the brownish dark red wrap and pokes at it with his nail.

He wasn't gentle enough, well, not in this form.

Two Time moves their leg slightly as a way to say they weren't comfortable with that contact.

Azure notices, he quietly asks,

"Could I?"

"No."

There was no reaction from Two Time, just a simple no.

That's weird.

Azure, that is very weird.

Go on, do something about it.

Azure pins Two Time down.

"Could I?" He repeats.

Azure, you weren't supposed to do that, when I say do something, never do that again.

Two Time, with no expression on their face, says,

"No."

...

Azure uses his tentacles to pin their arms up and removes the bandages.

Well.. the sight was very, gruesome..

"Explain." Azure said, one word.

"No, I don't have to, go away."

Azure knows how stubborn Two can be.

"Explain, before I tug at your tail again."

He sees a feared look on Time's face, perhaps that tail is their weakness.

"Fine, It's the same reason as the others on my arm."

"You didn't tell me the reason for your arms, well not enough." He growled, growled at Two, is that even possible? He was so sweet to them.

Oh well.

Two Time's eyes start watering again.

Two Time, now is not the time for your sensitivity.

They look away, arms still bound to the ground, one weaker then the other.

...

"Just.. Just go away."

"Please, go away."

Time sobs out.

Azure takes the tentacles away as he sits them upright.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to.. yell. Just tell me why."

Azure scoots beside Two Time.

"I don't know why."

"Maybe I just felt like it."

Yes! Azure keep getting them to open up!

"Maybe I didn't want to be here anymore."

"Nothing works, it just, it just."

It just reflects on how they can't do anything right.

But, they aren't gonna say that, right?.

"It just reminds me that I can't do anything right."

Azure stays silent.

...

??

He hugged them.

It's been so long since they had any physical contact.

It feels.. good?

How long have it been?

The only thing that loved them was,

was

was

was

was
was
was
was
waswaswas
waswaswaswaswas

was
was

The blade.
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade
blade

blade.

The blood that always dripped.

dripped

and dripped

dripped
dripped
dripped
dripped
dripped
dripped
dripped

and dripped some more.

Tears formed and dripped from Two Time's eyes.

That dripped and dripped and dripped.

The round is about to end.

They know.

They still hold each other.

They don't want to let go.

Not yet.

...

They were still holding each other when the round ended.

Did the Spectre get confused?

Why.

Why is Two Time in the killer's cabin?

...

Atleast the deal with Pr3tyPriincess wasn't a lie.

Everyone can see them.

They think it's a dream, if Two Time wakes up, everything is gonna go back to normal.

If it was a dream, then it's a really good one, a good dream.

Something they haven't had in a while

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