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There is no red string that ties me to you. I know that much but I can't understand why I'm always pulled towards you. It's not magnetic and I understand that much. But what is it? It's not a string of destiny. It sure isn't god. I abandoned him long ago to make my own small path. Did you do this? Did you find a string yourself and tie it to me? Do you feel this as well or am I going insane because whenever you walk into anything everything suddenly feels right. I want٫ no٫ I wish with all my heart it was in fact you. That you are the reason I'm pulled to you in this world. That this isn't a one-sided love that I'm unsure if I can let go. I want to go home٫ but I want it to be with you. I want to be able to hold your hand and laugh. To be the cause of your smile and walk along the sidewalk with you as we debate over stupid things. I want and want and want. Oh how I want to be with you. How I wish that I could kneel down for you and hold your hand as I kiss it gently. Your knuckles٫ soft and smooth٫ not having seen roughness٫ nor fights. Against my hands٫ used to clenching and holding it there. My barely there calluses showing how I only put in work when I want to. Giving away my flaws that I try so hard to hold in my heart. But your there too٫ in my heart. It's why you know these things about me٫ its why I care about whether or not you're happy. It's why your day matters in my heart and mind. Its why when I look in the mirror and I know that I'll be seeing you and I try. My dearest you know how hard I try. There might not be a string pulling me to you but there is something. And by the god I abandoned do I hope its there for you too.