Chapter 1

I can’t help myself, I really can’t. I constantly find myself staring at him, admiring him. How could I not? He’s literally my dream guy; Tall, tanned, with his long soft brunette hair that shines softly under the sun, along with his green eyes that I could get lost in for hours. Not only that but he's so mysterious -- and not to mention that smile, that damn smirk that screams ‘im the guy you wish you had’ so confidently it's almost annoying. His name is Kristopher Hill, and I've been working on his dad's farm since I was a kid, sweeping hay off the shed floor, and being that Kris was the only kid my age on the farm, we grew close. My name is Ben Pierce and I'm a homosexual. I'm not ashamed whatsoever, but being that I work on a farm in the far south, I have to hide it to keep my job.

Currently I’m working in the horse stable, feeding one of the foals a carrot for doing well in training. Hearing the clatter of horse hooves I look over to see Kristopher riding his horse into the stable, with that soft smirk on his face - all he was missing was a cowboy hat and a piece of hay in his mouth. As he got off of his horse and started talking, I wasn’t listening just sort of looking at him with awe; still imagining him as a cowboy.
As Kris was coming up to check on the foal I snapped out of my fantasy, my hand still holding its harness as Kris went to pet the horse, his handgrazing mine, it was rough from farm work but still had this gentleness whilst petting the foal. God he was so handsome, praising her for working so hard. My heart was thumping hard against my ribs, he was so close to me-

“Are you even listening to what I'm saying?” He questioned, taking me out of my trance. With him being so close to me, I’m sure my face went bright red
“What-? Yeah! Yeah I'm listening,” I lied.
“Oh yeah? Then what did I say ?” Kris replied sharply -- shit.
“I- uh- Okay… I wasn't listening,” I confessed with a sigh, backing up slightly.
“I didn't think so,” Kris smirked whilst walking towards the foal, helping it inside its pen, "I was saying that my dad is giving you a pay rise, since you’ve been working so hard.”
“That's amazing! I've been working so hard for that raise,” wiping the sweat off my brow.
The sun was beginning to set by the horizon, the rays shining into my eyes, the sunset was astonishing, it was like a god's gift to man.
“What a beautiful sunset-" I turn to look at Kristopher who was taking his shirt off.
“man it is too hot for spring, it's even warm in the evening.” This was cruel, I swear he's playing with me, there's no way he doesn't know.
I stared at his toned body, I couldn't take my eyes off of him. Maybe this is gods actual gift to men

Kristopher POV.

Standing in the horse stable, it was so hot, way too hot for spring. Mama said it was going to be 32 degrees today, I swear it’s hotter than that. I took my shirt off, it was drenched in sweat and it stank. There's nothing I hate more than smelling bad. But I could feel it, I could feel his eyes on me. Ben has always stared at me, but it's been getting worse lately. I kind of liked it, having people admire you is definitely a confidence boost. But when he stares it's different, there's something else there. It's strange. It's weird. And I hate that I like it.
He thought I didn't notice earlier when I pet the horse, I brushed his hand on purpose, his reaction was amusing, cute almost, he went all red and couldn't hold eye contact. Looking back at Ben, he hasn't even realised his mouth is open. I start walking out of the barn, towards the sunset. ironic isn't it? Aren't you usually supposed to walk with girls into the sunset?
“You coming?” I called out whilst looking back for a moment.