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Vincent stood on the rooftop of the academy, gazing out the metal wire fence, Ingo had told him to meet up here, guess this thing he wanted to tell him was important.. , He then heard voices. Vincent peered over to find... 3 guys, seemingly around Ingo's age. ' Great.... if Ingo wants to tell me this, we're going to have to go somewhere more private, we can't have these people overhearing something Ingo clearly is very defensive about.. ' He thought, he then heard one of them speak up
" ' Hey.. did you see that Ingo guy running around not too long ago ' " One of them said, putting his arms behind his head (A)
" ' Hah! yeah.. You know, Ingo would be kind of fine if.. you know.. ' " Another one added, looking away from the other two slightly (B)
" ' Cut that out! We're still in public ya know?? ' " The third one warned, seeming more worried than the other two (C)
' Ingo is fine.. gorgeous if we're really honest ' Vincent thought, leaning his head onto the fence slightly.
Person B then noticed Vincent stood near the fence and called out to him " ' Hey! You, aren't you one of Ingo's close friends? ' " He said, sounding slightly judgey
Vincent perked up, slightly startled by the sudden yell ' they're talking to me? Right.. ' He asked himself, he sighed then spoke up, turning his head to face the 3. " ' Yeah..! We're friends.. you could say.. ' " Vincent replied, sweating a little from the heat, gripping his tie slightly. He moved a bit closer to where the three males were situated, just to make the conversation easier
" ' Well I don't suppose you would mind me sharing a little something..? ' " [B] carried on, a mischievous glint in his eyes as he walked closer to Vincent
" ' What are you doing?! You're probably freaking him out getting in his face like that ' " [C] then chimed in, seeming to not want to cause an issue or anything in Vincent's eyes
" ' Pfft, it's fine, you and Ingo have been close for awhile now, Haven't you? ' " He raised an eyebrow, a smirk appearing on his face
" ' Yes... Yes we have.. ' " Vincent replied hesitantly, seeming to not like where this conversation was going. ' just what do these people even want? Why randomly ask that out of all things?? ' He thought, looking down for a moment before his eyes went back to meeting with [B]'s
" ' Well.. Does that mean you're a girl too? ' " [B] blurted out, that smirk on his face grew bigger by the second. Vincent jolted out of shock but [C] spoke up before he could say anything " ' What was that for?! ' " He scolded, hitting [B] at the back of the head. " ' whatt?? It was just a joke!! ' " [B] said defensively, raising his hands up
" ' .. That was a joke? It-.. It wasn't even funny.. ' " Vincent asked, clearly confused by the statement that [B] had just said, raising an eyebrow. [B] seemed a little puzzled at Vincent's reaction, there was no judgement in his eyes, only confusion. " ' what do you mean by that..? ' " He then carried on, stepping a little closer to [B]. In Vincent's head, all he could think about was Ingo, what did this guy mean? Why would someone just say that about a person?? It doesn't even make sense!
" ' Y-You know..! You and Ingo are close right? You said that yourself so you must know! ' " [B] said, stumbling on his words, clearly a bit nervous now.. His cocky demeanour was crumbling by the second.
" ' What are you on about?! ' " Vincent asked, getting more frustrated the longer he didn't get a proper answer. It all soon clicked together once [B] said this.
" ' You must know, Ingo doesn't even try to hide it! You can always tell when you look him in the eyes! ' "
...
Was this..
Was this what Ingo wanted to talk about..?
Is this the secret he was supposed to tell me..?
Why..?
Why didn't he tell me sooner...?
...
Vincent's thoughts were disturbed by the sound of the rooftop door opening, it was Ingo.
All of them were startled. This was the worst time to walk up to the rooftop, especially for Ingo.
Ingo looked up, his face shifted from a soft smile to horror. ' why is he looking at me with those eyes ' Ingo thought to himself, it was all he could even process.. His closest friend, his partner.. with.. WITH THEM.
" ' ....... ah......... ' " was all Ingo could muster up, he slowly stepped back before running off, slamming the door behind him
Vincent's eyes widened, ' nonononono.. This can't happen, this can't happen.. ' he said to himself " ' In-.... INGO ! ' " He yelled, running after him, leaving the three behind on the rooftop..
Ingo didn't even look behind, he just ran, a secret he kept so safe, yet it just had to go so wrong at the worst time possible. His eyes were watering up 'nononononononono.. hestilllovesmehestilllovesme.. he can't hate me.. ' His thoughts were racing, he couldn't think straight at all.. all he could envision was.. Vincent's eyes. There was no judgement in them, no malice, no mockery.. just.. confusion. He kept running, wanting to be as far from Vincent.. even if it kills him.
Vincent stopped for a moment in the middle of the academy where Ingo was not too long ago ' I could take a shortcut down the narrow hallway to catch up to him! ' ... ' But , even if I do catch up, what do I even say?! ' His thoughts were muddled together, he never meant to do this to Ingo, he didn't want this to happen. Not. At. All.. He continued to run until he finally caught up with his partner. " ' Ingo .. ! I.. , ... I.. ! ' " He stuttered, fidgeting with his tie, he was nervous. Extremely nervous
" ' ... I-.. I'm sorry.. ' " Ingo muttered, stumbling over his words. " ' I should have told y-you.. sooner. ' " His breath hitched, he held the bottom of his shirt tightly.
Vincent gazed for a moment before speaking up " ' But Ingo, you... you.. ' " He was cut off by Ingo's sudden question
" ' You're shocked, right..? ' "
Vincent didn't answer at first, what could he say..? Yes..? No..? Both sound like horrible options at the moment.. " ' But... that.. That ! ' " He started but cut himself off this time, he was stuck in a position of having no idea what to do.. it.. it hurt.
" ' ... I get it..! J-just now, you... You were just surprised... That's the only thing you felt! I know... All of it, I get it, really.. ! ' " Ingo went on, his voice raising the more emotional he got, this was ruining him. He was collapsing right in front of Vincent
" ' Ingo.. ' " Vincent started, once again, he paused..
" ' But... But... ! I just CAN'T do this...! ' " Ingo exclaimed, he was... crying? But... Ingo hated vulnerability! He.. He never showed his genuine self at times. " ' You're so... so, so kind, Vincent ! So tomorrow, you'll say hi as if nothing ever happened! As if nothing's changed..! Lottie too...and Wariai! You'll all just say "Oh , really?" ..! And we'll just carry on like normal...! And the next day, and every day after that, everything will stay the same... That's...what you're gonna let me think..! ' " He went on, tears quickly running down his face, at times he even choked on his words.
Vincent didn't know what to say.. What could he say? Whatever he would say, it won't help Ingo at the moment..
" ' It'll all just be... everyone's kindness... It'll come from a warm...good place..! But the... thing is... The thought of you all feeling like you have to be kind like that...I just.. I can't bear it...!!! ' " Ingo sobbed, covering his face, he hated it... he hated EVERYTHING.
" ' Thats... That isn't... ' " Vincent started, but.. Ingo pushed away. It startled Vincent, his eyes widening slightly from shock
" ' ... I'm s-sorry.. I'm sorry I never said anything... I'm sorry I couldn't face up to this.. ' " Ingo mumbled, before running off once more, leaving Vincent stood in shock
" ' Ingo..! INGO..! ' " Vincent's breath hitched, his eyes filled up with tears.. why..? He got to his knees.. " ' I... Why couldn't I..?! ' " He sobbed, he was in shambles.. why couldn't he have just walked away.. why did he have to listen to those... those..!
There's no point in dwelling on it.
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" ' You reep what you sow..Huh..? I ran away, and I kept on running... And all while, I hoped someone else would say it for me. Be careful what you wish for, huh? Ugh.. ' "
Ingo's voice was monotonous, after everything he's been through, nothing could shape him into the person he was once before, he sighed
" ' ..... I want to disappear........ ' "
His voice faded into nothing , as if he'd genuinely disappeared.. or died even...
What's the point..? There's no turning back now. You got what you wanted..
You got your wish
Ingo Kanashii.