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The motel room was quiet.
Not the familiar, comforting quiet that followed a long hunt—beer bottles clinking, Sam snoring, the soft buzz of late-night TV.
This was a different quiet.
A sharp, hollow kind of silence that pressed against Dean’s ribs until he felt like he couldn’t breathe.
Castiel hadn’t spoken since that night.
Dean sat hunched at the end of the bed, palms dragging down his tired face. He hadn’t meant to say it—not like that, not so fast, not with the kind of panic that made the word no sound like a damn weapon. Cas had stared at him with that unreadable stillness of his. One slow nod. Then he walked away.
And the distance had been growing ever since.
Cas didn’t avoid him outright. It was worse than that—small things, quiet things. Choosing the seat farthest from him in the car. Speaking to Sam instead of him. Leaving a room the moment Dean entered it. Subtle, but sharp. Little cuts Dean couldn’t bandage.
He regretted it. Of course he did.
But regret didn’t change the truth: Cas deserved someone whole. Someone who didn’t walk around carrying a graveyard in his chest.
The door creaked open. Sam stepped in, laptop under his arm, newspapers tucked against his ribs. Cas wasn’t with him. Through the thin blinds, Dean caught a glimpse of him outside near the bushes, watching a trail of bees drift lazily over the motel flowerbeds.
Of course he was outside. Somewhere Dean wasn’t.
Sam let the stack of papers fall onto the table with a heavy thud.
“Alright,” he said, “this has gone on long enough.”
Dean raised an eyebrow. “What has?”
“You two,” Sam shot back. “The ice-cold silent treatment.” He stabbed a finger between them. “I swear, one more car ride like this and I’m throwing myself out the window.”
Dean leaned back, crossing his arms. “We’re fine.”
“You’re not fine,” Sam snapped. “Cas avoids you like you’re radioactive, and you’re pretending you’re not dying about it.”
Dean’s jaw tightened. “Drop it.”
“No,” Sam said, dragging a chair out. “Not this time. We’ve got a case, and I’m not walking into it with you two acting like a broken married couple.”
Dean blinked. “A case?”
Sam flipped open the laptop, spinning it toward him.
“Town up north. Something’s making families turn on each other. Husband kills wife. Parents kill their kids. Then suicide. No motive, no buildup. People snapping out of nowhere.”
Dean frowned. “Possession?”
“No sulfur, no signs of a demon.” Sam tapped an article headline—Suburban Massacre Leaves Authorities Baffled. “Cops are clueless.”
Dean rubbed the back of his neck. “Spirit?”
“Maybe. But there are things worse than spirits.” Sam exhaled. “Creatures that twist guilt. Banshees. Wraiths. Old curses. Even lore about something that…” He hesitated. “…something that eats remorse.”
Dean let out a low whistle. “Sounds like a party.”
“Yeah, well—there’s another possibility.” Sam’s eyes sharpened. “Old hunter stories. A clan called Soul Takers. Powerful. Dangerous. Supposedly wiped out decades ago.”
Dean scoffed. “Thought they were campfire myths.”
“Maybe,” Sam said. “But these killings? Too clean. Too specific. Feels… deliberate.”
Dean thought it over, chewing on the inside of his cheek.
“So what—you want us to go in blind and hope the monster’s just a bedtime story?”
“Not blind,” Sam said, steady as a hammer. “We’ve got Cas.”
The words hit hard. Too hard.
Dean stiffened. “No. We don’t need—”
“Yes, we do,” Sam cut in. “If this thing messes with souls, he’s the only one who understands that crap.”
Dean stared out the window again.
Cas still hadn’t moved.
Still watching the bees.
Still refusing to look anywhere near the motel room that held Dean Winchester.
His chest tightened.
“Sam,” Dean said quietly, “I don’t think… it’s a good idea.”
Sam’s expression softened—only for a second.
Then he pinned Dean with a look that saw everything.
“This about what happened?”
Dean didn’t answer.
“Why did you reject him?” Sam asked softly.
Dean swallowed, the words clawing their way out.
“Because he deserves better,” he whispered. “Better than… this. Than me.”
For a long moment, Sam just watched him.
Then he shook his head, almost pitying.
“Dean… from Cas’s perspective? You are the better. You’re the one he chose.”
Dean’s heart thudded once, painfully deep.
“He doesn’t want someone else,” Sam continued. “He wants you.”
Dean stared at him, breath stuck in his throat.
He didn’t know what to say—maybe there wasn’t anything to say.
Through the blinds, the fading sunlight turned the bees into flecks of gold circling Cas’s still form. He looked peaceful out there. Like he belonged somewhere Dean didn’t know how to reach.
Sam spoke again, quieter now.
“We need him for the case.
And maybe… you need him too.”
Dean didn’t respond.
He just kept staring at the window, at the silhouette of the angel he’d pushed away, wondering when silence had started to feel like a punishment he’d earned.
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