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Dana:
Damage Control says we have to write a last letter. It's protocol. Everyone has to leave one for the person who matters most.
I could only think of you.
About the past - I still can't remember.
I don't know if the one I loved twenty years ago was you. You said you don't know either.
I believe you.
But what I can be sure of is - I love you now.
I can't hide it. I don't want to.
My chest aches when I see you, and I still want to be closer. That's the only thing I know for sure at this moment.
If it really was you twenty years ago but you never knew, then I must have been too stupid to tell you before it was too late.
And I won't let that happen again.
You said you "loved" me. I keep thinking about that word.
I don't know if it means you don't love me now, or something else.
I asked. You didn't answer. I won't ask again.
There are many questions you refuse to answer. I don't blame you. I think I understand why.
You said you'd wait for me to remember. The truth is, that chance might never come.
But that wouldn't be your fault.
If I die again this time, I'll take the question of "us" with me.
Don't keep it for me. Let it rest with me.
That's what I want.
But if I do get the chance to remember, I'll tell you.
Not to disturb you, not to disrupt your life.
Just to give you an answer.
About what we were.
About who you were to me.
About my truth, in that past you've carried alone.
If I really can remember, I hope it's when we reunite.
If not, don't be sad about it.
It won't be my regret anymore.
For me, being certain that I love you in this life is already happiness.
I wanted to say more, but I don't know how. Can't find the words.
So I guess that's it.
- Zor
