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Todd cried, Yelling Neil's name on top of his lung. Crying and throw up make his body felt more worse much as his feeling right now.
"Neil! Neil... I know you didn't do this Neil..you wouldn't do this" He yelled while sitting in the snow mourning.
The cold wind didn't make him move at all, because he already felt cold, felt sorrow when he heard his Neil gone.
Neil is gone, Neil is gone...crying and screaming won't make any different too..
"Please oh please God...give me another chance to save him..." he tightened his grip in the snow, voice getting sore with his yelling session before this. "Give me a chance to save Neil so I can say I love him" he closed his eyes and still sobbing
Please...
He opened his eyes, heart beating faster and his hand shaking like hell. He realizes that he's not in the snow storm recently he just cried, he is in his room
"What the hell..did Charlie carry me" He hold his head, trying to reduce the headache he got. "Urgh my head is fucking killing me.."
He looked around the room to find water. The dark room felt different, he thought. It felt warm..just like when Neil was there
He looked beside his bed and stunned. Neil thing is still here..
His heart stop and look at calendar; 15 December. The day Neil died. "Wait–does this mean– I go back in time?" He quickly stand up, open the door and ran outside.
"Todd? Why are you running?" He Encountered charlie who is smoking in front of the door. He put his hand onto Charlie's shoulder
"You have to fetch Mr Keating and go to Neil's house! Right now!" He screamed
Charlie sighed "Todd, this will make it wors–" "Neil's going to die!" Todd's word make charlie stopped for a sec and started running to Mr Keating's room while Todd continue to run
His destination? To Neil's house of course.
please not yet please not yet please not yet please not yet please not yet please not yet oh god oh God oh God oh God
His breath started rushed much more but he kept running, he knew that if he's late even a second his Neil would die, yes his Neil
After arriving Infront of Neil's house, he quickly knocking like crazy person. But no one answered, his heart started rushed again not even relax from running sec ago.
Frustrated, he ran to house side and he see one of the window is open. He saw the crown, "the crown that Neil wear at the play!" He screamed In his heart. Without thinking twice started climbing the tree and jumped into the room. "This is definitely Neil's room" seeing Neil scattered clothes.
He saw the door is open quickly ran downstairs. "Neil... please Neil" checking every door he see. At the last, he saw one room, the light is on. He quickly opened the door..
And he saw him.. Neil..his Neil aiming a pistol on his own head.
"Neil no!" He screamed and catch Neil's hand. "Todd?" He gasped "what are you doing here!" Todd knew Neil is panicking. He quickly snatched the gun from Neil's hand.
"Todd I–" before Neil could finish his sentence Todd kiss Neil, not sexually but more into passionate. Without even realising, a tears fall from his cheek. Neil just froze in the place, shocked by Todd's action.
"Why'd you do this to me, Neil. Why" finished the kiss, he sobbed. Sitting on the floor and put his head on Neil's lap.
Suddenly a screamed came from the front door "Neil!" Mr perry standing Infront of the door and Mrs perry ran and hugged Neil after seeing the gun on the floor
"Oh my child" cried Mrs perry "oh Neil.. Neil.." she was shocked by the scene knowing his son is going to shoot himself . While Mr perry just stand there. Tightening his grip with reddening eyes
After charlie and Mr Keating arrived, they left Todd and Neil alone since in Neil's room. Todd doesn't want to let go of Neil from earlier tragedy.
"Todd..." Neil finally speak. "Todd please, get up" Todd who is still sobbing at Neil's lap still didn't move.
"Why" Todd lift up his head "so you can shoot yourself?". He's terrified, terrified that if he move again Neil will gone. Gone forever and can't be seen again.
"Todd I'm not going to do it, so please. Get up"
Todd stood up immediately make Neil flinched "Todd?". Todd push Neil to the bed and Neil was below him "Todd are you okay?" Neil's heart beating faster, Todd can even see Neil's face turning red.
"You're so pretty Neil.." he caress Neil's face "like an angel fall from the heaven" He leans down, kissing below Neil’s ear, then his neck.
"Ack, Todd!" even making some hickey that would definitely left a mark.
"Neil. I love you Neil. I want to make you mine alone" he confess in the gap when he kiss Neil's neck.
"I fucking love you,
I want to kiss you everytime I see you
I can't help but falling in love
More and more deeper for you
God, you're God gift for me
That I will forever cherish
I would do anything for you
Would kill for you
Would fall for you
Would end the world for you"
Todd's word make Neil chuckled. "Todd" cupped Todd's face "I love you too, more than you know" and kissed Todd. "Maybe not that romantic than you"
Todd sighed happily, he can Neil's face brightened. "You yourself is romantic itself, sweetheart".
God thank you for gave me this chance. Thank you for giving me Neil back. Thank you for letting me say I love him.