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"I've decided, to keep on living"
The words ring in Aizawa's ears. What?
He looks down at Toshinori, a touch of concern in his eyes.
“..What?”
He stands before moving slowly, like he would a skittish kitten, Aizawa is well aware at how fast he could close up again. Staring at his boyfriend with hidden concern he listens, sure, he was always aware that Toshi was passively suicidal, hell anyone who knew him well enough could see that especially with the way he works and acts with his role as a hero, the way he puts everyone before himself, never thinking about the consequences of what could happen to himself if anything went wrong.
"You inspire them everyday, Toshinori. You protected us for decades, kick up your feet, relax. You being here inspires them so much." Aizawa murmurs sitting down beside him lighting a cigarette, he's aware the scent is a comfort and he could honestly use a smoke to deal with the conversation he's about to have.
Toshinori processes the words slowly, letting a few tears fall quickly, looking away covering his tear ducts to stop it. He can't cry. Not here. Not now. Aizawa is watching. Not if there's the risk of someone seeing. And he can't be seen as weak. Not now, not ever. Instead he focuses on the scent of aizawas cigarettes filling the air, forcing himself to stop the feelings before he can properly process them.
"...Thanks."
Eventually, they head home taking the longer walk, so Toshinori could clear his head. Aizawa knows it's helped Toshi has subtly mentioned it before, normally he would jump straight into hero work but they both know Aizawa wont allow that, not when he's like this.
When they get home, they take it slow. Aizawa moves, grabbing some of his pouches and handing it to Toshinori, ignoring his disapproving look at his diet right now there handy to have a simple snack to help regulate his boyfriend again. Aizawa moves, giving Toshi space to get himself together and to change into something more comfortable. He doesn't mention it when he returns to the bedroom with fresh cups of tea, a mint for Toshi and a plain for himself. He sees him with his smoking shirt on, if it helps comfort him that's all that matters to Aizawa. Placing his own cup down he helps Toshi take a drink from his cup.
Things calm down, they both lay quietly, warm under the sheets with their cat sushi purring on the end of the bed. Aizawa reads as he holds him gently with his free arm. All might murmur quietly again, almost so quietly as if hoping Aizawa would miss it he pushes his face into Aizawa's chest tensing as he hears the book close, he lets out a soft whine as Aizawa cups his face,looking at him really the answer seems so simple to him. Retire, rest up, enjoy the time off, but Toshi is stubborn, that's what he loves about him and Aizawa knows himself he wouldn't just turn away from his own duties either. Yet he's worried, he's not ill like Toshinori is, he still has his quirk. With a sigh he looks into his eyes, really looking at him.
"Listen to me. The world will not fall apart because you aren't the All Might from 10 years ago. Listen to me Toshi. Dammit." Aizawa leans down, kissing him gently at first listening to his body language. Holding him he moves one hand to the back of his head running his hand through his hair before pulling back again. “Just listen. It's okay, it's going to be okay, our students are so strong and the rest of the pros are on the case as well, you can rest and get better. You need to take a break Toshinori, please. Don't push yourself and your quirk so much that you don't get to see the kind of heroes our class becomes, okay? We’re in this together. Always.”
He waits for an answer that doesn't come, instead it's a small sound that escapes his throat, with a soft sigh he leans down again he kisses him again, he holds him close making sure he feels how much he really cares. “Its going to be okay, alright? Just breathe, I've got you. Sleep and things will still be here in the morning.”
With that he moves shifting all might with him, pulling the covers up close enough to cover their chins ignoring the meow from sushi as the covers move, grunting softly as the cat moves to lay on him as well. He stays awake watching Toshi fall asleep slowly, absently petting the cat watching him sleep, he’ll need to keep a closer eye on him but for now he'll hold him through the night making sure he sleeps peacefully.