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Mizuki was finally going to do it.
She was going to come out to Ena and the rest of N25.
They had pinged the others in Nightcord earlier that day, saying that they had something very important to tell them in the empty Sekai today. She still couldn't believe that she had worked up the courage to do it.
Mizuki was still nervous, naturally. She was a born worrier. But if worst came to worst, both Rui and An had said they were going to be there for Mizuki if N25 didn't accept her. Of course, Mizuki didn't think N25 wouldn’t accept her; all of the music they had made together was extremely queer anyway.
She checked her phone for the time
12:47 am
Just thirteen minutes and she would be in that grey wasteland telling all of her closest friends what her deepest darkest secret was. The thing that made them feel like they were never the same as the rest of the group. The thing that almost made them give up, and yet also the same thing that kept them living.
All of a sudden, she could feel her heartbeat. It was loud. VERY loud. She was surprised her parents couldn't feel the house shaking with every thump.
12:58 am
Two minutes. Suddenly, Mizuki started to double-think her decision to do this tonight or at all. She also started thinking about how she would word her coming out.
Could they somehow make a joke out of it? That seemed the most mizuki like, but at the same time, if it didn't land, she would be embarrassed for the rest of her life.
Mizuki played the song and was transported into the empty sekai. She was the first one there, which somehow felt fitting. The second person to arrive was Mafuyu, and then Kanade, and lastly Ena. Mizuki took a deep breath in and then out as she stepped forward towards the other three girls.
“I told you guys that I had something very important to tell you all today, and that's true; today is the day I reveal what my secret is.” She said with a shaky voice and trembling hands.
“Are you sure, Mizuki? I always said I would wait for you no matter how long it takes.” Ena replied, trying to prove Mizuki was in a safe space.
“Yes, Mizuki, you don't have to do it tonight if you feel uncomfortable,” came soon after in the typical deadpan cadence of Mafuyu.
“Please, Mizuki, do not sacrifice your comfort for us if you don't want to do this today,” the composer quickly added on.
“No. I'm tired of waiting, and I'm tired of keeping this secret from you guys. It feels like i cant connect all the way with you guys like this.” The pink haird girl retorted.
Mizuki took another step forward and took another deep breath in and out to calm her nerves. Her heart was once again racing like hell, and her body felt like it, too. Using her right hand, she played with the hem of her skirt, her hair, and even her other hand, trying to focus on the task at hand.
“... I’m sorry for keeping this from you guys for so long, but I'm actually not cis, but a trans girl. When I was born, they thought I was a boy, and they thought wrong. I've always liked things like pink, dressing up all cute, and being a girl more than whatever masculine things everyone tried to force on me. I really hope you won't treat me differently or think of me in any other way than you have before now. I’m still Mizuki, the same Mizuki you’ve always known. Also, just in case, can you guys use they/them and she/her pronouns for me?”
It was a little quick and jumbled, but the truth was finally out there for the group. To Mizuki's surprise, Ena reeled back in laughter, with Kanade giving a small chuckle.
The brown-haired girl stepped forward and placed a hand on Mizuki's shoulder. “Mizuki, I'm glad you finally dared to tell us this, and sorry for laughing, it's just that I'm trans too!”
“I'm also what you could consider a trans woman since I was assigned male at birth, yet identify as a woman,” proclaimed Mafuyu with her usual deadpan voice, despite the huge revelation
“I too am a trans woman,” Said Kanade with a slightly more cheerful attitude than Mafuyu, but less so than Ena
Mizuki took a good ten seconds to process what felt like a century's worth of info.
“ARE YOU TELLING ME ALL OF US ARE AND HAVE BEEN TRANS THE ENTIRE TIME WE'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER! DID YOU GUYS KNOW EACH OTHER WERE TRANS TOO?” Mizuki suddenly shouted out at the top of her lungs, much to the displeasure of her three friends.
“I don't know about Ena and Kanade, but I was under the impression that I was the only trans person among our group; it is part of the reason I wished to run away, as I thought I was different.”
“Yeah, I had no clue that Yuki or K were also trans.”
“Yes, I wasn't under the impression that anyone was similar to me in this way.”
There was a long 4-way silence between the 4 girls before Mizuki took in a deep breath and broke it.
“God, I can believe I was scared for you guys to find out I was trans, and turns out all four of us are trans! What are the odds of that anyway?”
“I do not know, but surely it must be a low chance, right? The odds of four trans women becoming friends online and then forming a music group are highly unlikely.” Kanade responded after a brief moment of pondering.
Mafuyu and Ena nodded slowly.
“Sooooo … wanna have a hot T4T lesbian four-person polycule makeout sesh?” Mizuki semijokingly asked.
To her surprise, the other 3 girls nodded intently.