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A cold, heartless, smile that once managed to bring warmth to a now still heart was all Chance could think about since the moment they arose in the world Forsaken. It's been what? 2 months since they were ‘Forsakened’ and they’re just now starting to grow comfortable with the others. Chance was surprisingly popular among the other survivors as their charm returned once more.
Chance was leaning back on the couch one arm around Elliot’s shoulders as Elliot talked to Noob. Elliot let out a soft laugh at one of Noob’s jokes and he glanced over at Chance. His mouth moved to say something but Chance was zoned out and didn’t hear him. Chance nodded without thinking as they kept their smirk on. Their shades hid their tired, unfocused eyes as Chance stared up at the drakopillar head as the two happily conversed despite being in literal hell.
Chance’s gaze slowly moved over to the fireplace as he thought back to the round from earlier today. Amongst all the chaos, in the faint glow of their gunfire Chance swore they saw the faint image of Itrapped peeking out from behind the killer. It hasn’t been unusual for Chance to be reminded of Itrapped by such simple things. I mean, it wouldn’t be an easy task for one to move on so easily from a man that was once held so dearly. Chance trusted Itrapped, no… Chance *Loved* Itrapped ever so dearly. They used to be head over heels for him like a lovesick puppy. Chance never thought that they would ever have such a bitter taste in their mouth every time they even thought of mentioning him. Chance was hurt, but he still couldn’t help but yearn for that comfort once more.
‘Itrapped.. Oh how I miss you… your smile, your confidence…do you think of me from time to time…?’ Chance thought as their eyes roamed over Noob’s features. Her tousled yellow hair framed her face just as Itrapped’s used to whenever it was windy out. The way she smiled matched Itrapped’s too… or at least that’s what he thought… ‘has Itrapped ever genuinely laughed or was that fake too… hm.. My eyes feel heavy.’ Chance leaned their head back against the couch and sleepily glanced over at noob’s eyes. Her big eyes seemed to be filled with innocence and would always make Chance question whether or not if Itrapped had eyes just like her. ‘... how did he look like again... ’
On the other side of the room by the bookshelf, Two Time stood there poised with a content smile as their gaze roamed over the books. ‘How sinful of a selection. The Spawn wouldn't approve of such…’ Two Time’s snide thoughts were quieted as they noticed a familiar green book. Their hands gently ran along the book’s spine and they carefully took it out and examined the title. ‘Ah, this must be the same book that Azure used to read… the spine was so worn but…’ Two Time longingly flipped through the pages as they reminisced when Azure used to ramble on and on to Two Time about his interests. Two Time knew it was their fault for hurting what once was so comforting, for falling even when they shouldn’t. They remembered that they stolen the life that belonged to Azure in the most brutal way possible.. In a field of flowers that once was a sign of their love.
‘I am not worthy of that privilege. That comfort.’ Two Time’s back faced the others as their eyes started watering. They froze and their lips curled into a cruel smile as they started belittling themselves once more. ‘Such a precious gift… emotions… one of the blessings I am not deserving.. I am not worthy of…I’m not worthy of such ‘love’… hm… What a sinful feeling … I am a sinner, I must not beg for sympathy I did not earn… for sympathy over something offered to the Spawn, I beg for forgiveness for my blasphemous thoughts…Amarah was right.. ’ They laughed as their thoughts spiraled into being more and more crazed and self-deprecating. They ran a hand through their messy hair and wiped their tears.
As Two Time started laughing , Noob and Elliot got concerned and looked over at them and the two slowly went over to try to check on Two Time to the best of their abilities. Chance stayed staring at the fireplace while lost in thought before their gaze slowly made it over to where Elliot and Noob where. Noob gently clutched her drawstrings as her shoulders tensed quite a bit. Elliot on the other hand tried to reach out and comfort Two Time with his touch, but Two Time easily dodged it. Chance stared at Noob’s concerned expression for a good while, trying to get used to seeing such empathy. They internally sighed as they looked over at Elliot who always had such a gentle look to his eyes. Chance couldn’t help but wonder if Elliot truly did care for Two Time and the others or if he was trying to keep the peace. Finally, Chance looked over at Two Time who’s crazed smile and laughs basically drowned out all other sound for him. ‘Their laugh… it’s so hollow… why don’t they open up?.’ Chance knitted their eyebrows and they got up to get some cold water, not only because they were starting to get lost in thought, but for the others.
“Two Time. we can’t help you if you don't want us to.” Elliot softly said as his usual smile turned into a small frown.
Noob fiddled with her drawstrings as she tried to comfort Two Time.“Elliot is right, we want to help but we can't magically solv-”
“But we can! Simply by having faith in the Spawn, we shall be blessed with its ever lasting love! We must follow the scripture of the Spawn and we’ll be cared for!”
“Two Time…” The two didn’t have the heart to try to correct Two Time and they stood there with sympathetic expressions.
They knew it wasn’t good to just brush past it, but they knew it was far too early to rip the bandage off that wound. The two tried to talk to Two Time a few more times, each attempt to try to get them to open up failed. As they got ready to give up, Chance handed Two Time and the others some water. “It’s been a long night.. For all of us.. Why don't we all just… get some rest” Chance glanced over at Two Time who stared at the glass of water, seemingly wanting to ask something but they held back. Chance got slightly off put by their stare and excused himself to his little cabin.
Two Time stared at the glass a while after Chance left, wondering why Chance of all people considered getting one for them. Two Time shook their head and quickly chugged it before they placed it in the kitchen sink and went off to their cabin. They locked the door behind them as they opened the closet that had all the clothes that Spectre had given them. Two Time gently pushed their pretty white dress to the side and grabbed their pajamas. ‘Oh how the spawn has blessed me with such comfortable clothes’ They thought happily, pushing back the thoughts of Azure as they got ready for bed. Two Time’s tail wagged happily as they got changed. They knelt down beside their bed and quietly whispered a prayer to the spawn before they hopped into bed and got comfortable. They gently cuddled their pillow as if it was another person and they rested their head on the cold mattress. Two Time’s back faced the window as they held the pillow close to their chest and shut their eyes. It wasn't long before Two time fell asleep, after all, spirals drain the ever living hell out of you.