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Weakness, something i never wanna show, I don't even imagine what it does to me. If I ever end up weak, vulnerable, I'm sure everyone would try and kill me. Well, not even try, they will kill me. It's something everyone wants to do, either its trap the trapper or kill the trapper. Whatever, it's not a big deal for me, I always have backups, I'm always prepared. Even when it comes to fighting against Tai, Noob and Sharpness with his pathetic "boyfriend", I'm always ready. Though something's....off. Not with them, but me, I feel weak.
I trapped Sharpness repeatedly in the past few weeks because he makes my heart beat faster, he makes my stomach twist in ways I thought I could never feel. Honestly, I know why, i just wanna avoid the feeling, I wanna get rid of it. I dislike this weird feeling, but how will I avoid this if eventually, Sharpness will get a hit somethings up with me. He'll find out one way or another, even if it means chasing me down and dying many times, outsmarting me, avoiding possible areas where i could have a trap in.
" Come on...damnit! " The blonde haired cussed under his breath, clashing his sword with mine. I had a plan, so, I was calm about this, pushing him back with my sword before i ran towards the forest. Where I created a trap specifically made for Sharpness. I ate some golden apples before turning back around and tried getting a few hits on Sharpness. " You're such a bitch! " Sharpness growled as I knocked him back. Using the advantage to run to the trap, hidden in the two trees. I acted tired, trying to bait him over. My heart was pounding, not from exhaustion, but from his beauty. I avoided looking at him directly.
Sharpness walked over, something was awfully suspicious, he looks at me. The way I've been avoiding his gaze, his gorgeous, emerald eyes. Something clicked in him, the gears finally turned and something made sense to him. Sharpness didn't wanna give me a chance to use my trap, using a wind charge, he pushed himself up into the air. I gasped and tried running, i expected him to hit me with a hard blow, but instead he fell down and pinned me onto the grass, holding both of my wrists.
" Whats up with you, Judelow? you avoid looking at me "
" Get away man, I just want your loot! "
" Oh yeah? what does that have to do with you not looking directly at me every time I chase you and combat? "
Silence fell over me, he's obviously onto my behavior. Fuck, my heart was racing, I tried not to look at him, I don't wanna give it away. Suddenly, the warmth I felt my left wrist was gone, instead, its on my chin. Sharpness turned my head to look at him, his emerald eyes looking at my pink ones. " Jude? you there? " he said. What the hell do I do in this situation? how am I supposed to get away? fucking hell! If only I had a backup plan, fuck, fuck!
Something heard my prayers
" Sharpness... " a player called, Sharpness forgot about me momentarily, turning to look at the player behind us, its Boomie. Sharpness stood up to see what they wanted. Giving me the time to scramble back onto my feet and run off, thank god for Boomies appearance.
I would've been fucked any longer with Sharpness. Last thing I wanna do is get caught with vulnerability like love.
I was back at spawn after a bit of running, going down the stairs to my base. I sighed and headed to repair my armor, in the process, refilling my supplies. While doing this, I didn't notice Leek, didn't hear him approaching until he spoke " Jude- " he jumped backwards as I pointed a sword at him " What the hell? what are you- I don't wanna fight, I just wanna talk! " he said, I felt suspicious, keeping my guard up in case. As the time went by, Leek and I talked, my guard lowering slowly, Sharpness had an invis potion on, I didn't see the particles until it was too late.
" Gotcha! "
Sharpness got onto me, drinking milk, revealing himself before pinning me on the floor, Leek smirked, walking away satisfied. Sharpness gave him a full set just to distract me for a bit. It actually fucking worked too, stupid of me to lower my god darn guard, should've seen this coming.
" Talk to me! "
" Mother fucker! why would I talk to you?! you piss me off! "
don't race, don't race, please.
" I just wanna know whats wrong! Come on Jude! talk to me, you bitch! "
" Fuck off Sharpness! "
don't notice. don't notice. god please don't notice.
He noticed, he noticed how nervous I was, how nervous my pink eyes looked when I looked at him. Slowly left his hand slid down my arm to my chin, his grip firm yet gentle, my head turned to look at him. My face was flushed, hot, shit man. My stomach twisted pleasurably, Sharpness's majestic, his emerald eyes weren't cold, unkind. He seemed genuine, concerned in a way that made me soften. " Are you ready to talk or what? " he asked me. I shakily inhaled, bracing myself for the worst
" I simply feel vulnerable okay? "
" doesn't look like its only vulnerability, Jude... "
The way he spoke, wasn't like usual, he was gentle and quiet. Slowly, he brushes my purple hair aside, I nervously gulped. He smiled like he knew something , but fuck if I said that smile didn't looked stunning on his beautiful face
I'd be lying
" Judelow. "
" ...Yes? "
" Do you trust me? "
" ... "
" ....do you..? "
" ..yes "
Sharpness gently pressed his lips against mine, pleasure filled me, nothing sexual, just pure enjoyment and joy. I wrapped my arms around his neck, gently kissing him back, letting him take control. This felt weirdly good, probably because he's my rival, but that didn't seem to stop him. So I won't let something so stupid get in my way of expressing how i truly feel. I won't hide it anymore from him.
Maybe this isn't weakness, maybe its strength for our relationship.