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"Damn it... Not again..."
Thoma washes his arms under the sink for the third time this week. The blood washes away.
His own blood.
Why does he keep doing this?
Why keep hurting himself?
Why keep living?
"Why do I live?"
The age old question of 'Why?'.
Still, since Teyvat was created, no one seems to have an answer to it.
"I need to control myself... What if he finds out?"
The thought sends a small shiver down his spine.
He can't find out... Right?
Thoma wears long sleeves for a reason.
He acts happy and cheery for a reason.
He-
His line of thought gets interrupted by a knock on the door.
"Hey, Thoma? You in there?"
"Yeah...?"
"Everything alright? You've been in the bathroom for a while!"
"Yeah, everything's fine!"
Footsteps grow quieter each step away.
No one was going to save him now.
After all, how can you save a person from themselves?
Thoma has a knife available right there, on the sink, why not use it?
He prefers biting, don't you understand?
He can't stand any other pain than the pain he inflicts on himself.
Weak.
Pathetic.
He doesn't even belong in Inazuma.
Who would care if he just... Ended his suffering? Let's keep it at that.
Even his 'Waka' won't be able to save him once he's done.
Thoma prefers drowning.
Drowning in his sorrows and fears, choking on his own blood, sweat and tears, bleeding till he runs out of his precious, precious years-!
We- he needs to calm down.
Oh, look. He's climbing out of the window.
How naïve. Trying to escape his own fears.
Thoma runs and runs until he finds himself at the beach.
The water glistens in the moonlight beautifully.
How could he ruin this beautiful sight? Such a loser.
Always an angel, never a god.
Such a good way to describe the man.
Is he even a man?
He feels like a child.
Aren't we all?
He dives into the water before him, letting himself sink...
He runs out of oxygen quickly as he still tries to resist.
He stops resisting all together, and let the water fill his lungs, heavy, painfully so, but... So peaceful.
Peace...
Is this peace?
Sweet release in the end?
It all fades to black one last time...
The end of it all.
No Travelers will be coming back to save him, no 'Waka' to comfort him, no Ayala or Yoimiya or Itto-! Utterly alone.
Are you happy now?
"The body was found approximately a day after the suicide took place, on the beach close to the Kamisato Estate. Kamisato said that the victim was acting strange that day. Scars and wounds have been found all over the body, and we suspect self harm was of order. The Kamisato siblings are devastated. End of officer's log."