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Part I: What She Heard
Months Before the Fall
Wonyoung's POV
Wonyoung had forgotten her water bottle in the practice room.
Not just any bottle—her Labubu Stanley, the limited edition one with the pink pig character she'd spent what it felt like an eternity waiting to receive from an online shop. She'd only realized it was missing when she reached the dorm lobby and her bag felt too light, her hand closing around empty air where the familiar weight should have been.
My Labubu bootle~ My Labubu bootle~
The practice room hallway was empty at this hour, most members already headed back or grabbing late dinner. Her footsteps echoed too loud in the silence as she approached the door, already mentally rehearsing the teasing she'd get tomorrow if anyone found out the "elegant Wonyoung" had rushed back for a cartoon pig bottle.
The door was ajar.
Voices floated out—familiar, warm. Gaeul and Yujin, their laughter echoing in the empty space.
Wonyoung's hand froze on the door handle.
"—just saying, the fans are going crazy over it." Gaeul's voice carried that teasing lilt she used when she was poking at something.
"The comments on that last behind-the-scenes video? All about you and Wonyoung."
Wonyoung's heart stopped.
She should leave. She should knock. She should do anything except stand here like a thief in her own space, but her feet had turned to stone.
"Oh yeah?" Yujin's voice sounded careful. Too careful. "What are they saying?"
"The usual. That you two are basically dating. That the way you look at her is 'different.'" Gaeul laughed, light and unbothered. "I mean, you are pretty touchy with her. More than the others. And you've been together since Produce, what, six years now? The chemistry is kind of obvious."
Silence stretched. Wonyoung held her breath, something fragile and dangerous unfurling in her chest.
Hope. Terrible, stupid hope.
"Am I?" Yujin sounded uncertain now. "I don't… I mean, I'm touchy with everyone, aren't I?"
"Sure, but—" Gaeul's tone shifted, gentler. More serious.
"Come on, Yujin-ah. Be honest with me. You and Wonyoung have been together the longest.. Is there… something going on? You can tell me."
The silence that followed felt like drowning.
Then Yujin laughed.
It was a strange laugh, like someone who'd just heard something absurd.
"What? Me and Wonyoung?" Another laugh, shorter this time, edged with something Wonyoung couldn't name. Panic? Disgust?
"Unnie, come on. You know that's not—I mean, we're friends. Really close friends. But that doesn't mean—"
"But not…?" Gaeul prompted.
"No. Not like that." Yujin's voice was firm now. Definitive.
"I don't—look, I love Wonyoung. She's important to me. She's been by my side through everything. But not in a romantic way. God, can you imagine how awkward that would be?"
Awkward.
The word sliced through Wonyoung's chest like knife.
"I guess," Gaeul said slowly. "But the way you—"
"It's just fan service." Yujin's voice had an edge now, defensive.
"You know how it is. We play it up for the cameras because fans like it. But it's not real. I'm not… I don't like girls that way."
Wonyoung's vision blurred. Her hand slipped off the door handle.
"Really?" Gaeul sounded genuinely surprised. "I always thought you might be—I mean, you're so comfortable with all the skinship and—"
"That's just who I am. Affectionate. But it doesn't mean anything deeper." Yujin's tone was steady now, convincing. Like she'd thought about this before, rehearsed the answer. "Trust me, if I was interested in someone, you'd know. And it definitely wouldn't be—"
"Look, the thought of actually dating one of the members? After everything we've been through together? That would be a disaster. Can you imagine? It would ruin everything. The group dynamic, our friendship, everything."
Ruin everything.
Wonyoung backed away from the door, one step, then two. Her throat felt dry.
Six years. Six years of what she thought were special moments—hands held during eliminations, heads on shoulders during long flights, whispered conversations at 3am when the world felt too big and scary. Six years of falling in love with someone who thought loving her back would be a disaster.
Her Labubu bottle could stay there. She couldn't go in. Couldn't face Yujin right now, not with her chest feeling like this, scraped hollow from the inside out.
She turned and walked away, each step measured and silent, the idol training kicking in even now: don't make noise, don't draw attention, keep your face neutral even when everything inside is breaking.
Yujin's POV
"Anyway," Gaeul said, stretching her arms above her head. "I'm starving. Want to grab something before heading back?"
"Yeah, sure." Yujin grabbed her bag, eager to end this conversation and stop thinking about the way her own lies tasted bitter on her tongue.
I don't like girls that way.
The biggest lie she'd ever told, and she'd delivered it so smoothly that Gaeul had believed her without question.
She was zipping up her bag when she saw it—the Labubu Stanley bottle sitting by the mirror, half-hidden behind a towel. Pink pig creatures(?) catching the light.
Wonyoung's.
Yujin picked it up automatically, the same way she always picked up after Wonyoung: the hoodies left on chairs, the phone chargers forgotten in practice rooms, the hair ties scattered across every surface. Six years of small acts of service that Wonyoung probably didn't even notice anymore.
"That Wonyoung's?" Gaeul asked.
"Yeah. She must've forgotten it." Yujin tucked it carefully into her bag. "I'll give it to her in the van."
Wonyoung's POV
The van ride back to the dorm felt like it lasted hours.
Wonyoung sat in her usual spot by the window, staring at the Seoul streets blurring past. Rei was talking about something. A new cafe she wanted to try, maybe—but the words just like a white noise for Wonyoung.
Not in a romantic way. Awkward. A disaster.
"Wonyoung-ah."
Yujin's voice, soft and familiar, made her stomach twist.
She turned, arranging her face into the expression she'd perfected over years of cameras and scrutiny: bright, interested, just the right amount of warmth. The mask clicked into place so smoothly it felt like second nature.
"Hmm?"
Yujin was holding out her Labubu bottle, a small smile on her face. "You left this in the practice room. Thought you might want it back."
Their fingers brushed as Wonyoung took it. The contact lasted less than a second, but it burned.
"Oh! My Labubuu bottle! " Wonyoung injected cheerfulness into her voice, let it bubble up bright and effortless. "Thank you, unnie! I didn't even realize. What would I do without you?"
The words came out playful, teasing. Perfect.
Yujin's smile widened, something relieved in her eyes. "Probably die of dehydration. You forget this thing everywhere."
"I do not!" Wonyoung laughed, light and airy, and even she couldn't tell where the performance ended and the real her began anymore. "I'm very responsible, thank you very much."
Rei joined in the teasing, and Leeseo piled on, and soon the van was full of familiar laughter and warmth. Wonyoung participated exactly as much as expected—not too much, not too little. The perfect center, the perfect visual, the perfect member.
And if her hands were red around the Labubu bottle from gripping it too hard, if her smile felt like it might crack her face in half, if Yujin's casual kindness made her want to scream—
Well. Nobody noticed.
Yujin sat across from her, laughing at something Gaeul said, completely oblivious. She had no idea Wonyoung had been there. No idea what she'd heard.
Good, Wonyoung thought. Better this way.
Better to bury it. Better to pretend. Better to be the friend Yujin wanted instead of the disaster she'd never choose.
Over the following three months, Wonyoung became an expert at distance.
Not obvious distance—never that. Obvious would raise questions, and questions would lead to conversations she couldn't escape. Instead, she perfected the art of subtle withdrawal, the kind that looked like nothing from the outside but felt like slowly pulling her heart out of her chest one careful piece at a time.
She stopped seeking Yujin out for their late-night talks, the ones where they'd sit on the dorm balcony and share fears that were too heavy for a conversation over coffee. When Yujin texted her random thoughts at 2am, Wonyoung started responding in the morning instead, with a cheerful "Sorry, fell asleep!" that was usually a lie.
She stopped borrowing Yujin's hoodies. Stopped letting their hands linger when they touched during choreography. Stopped looking for Yujin first when something funny happened, stopped instinctively gravitating toward her during breaks.
Small changes. Invisible changes.
But Yujin noticed.
Of course she did. Six years of friendship meant six years of learned patterns, and Wonyoung was breaking every single one. Yujin would catch her eye across the practice room with a confused, hurt expression that made Wonyoung's chest ache. Would try to pull her aside to ask if everything was okay.
And every time, Wonyoung would smile—that perfect, bright smile—and say she was fine. Just tired. Just busy. Just distracted by comeback preparations.
Every lie carved out a little more of her, but it was better than the truth.
Better than watching Yujin's face twist with discomfort if she knew. Better than hearing that laugh again, the one that said can you imagine? Me dating another member? Better than being the disaster that would ruin six years of everything that mattered.
So Wonyoung pulled away, degree by careful degree, and told herself this was kindness.
Told herself this was love.
Part II: The Confession
The Present – Night of the Fall
Yujin's POV
"Unnie, he texted you again!"
Leeseo's voice carried across the dressing room, bright with mischief. Yujin looked up from her phone to see the maknae leaning over Wonyoung's shoulder, grinning at whatever was on her screen.
"Who texted?" Liz appeared from nowhere, always drawn to potential gossip like a moth to flame.
Wonyoung laughed, tucking her phone against her chest. "It's nothing. Just a sunbae from SM being friendly."
"'Friendly.'" Leeseo made air quotes. "He asked you to coffee three times this week. That's not friendly, that's interested."
Yujin's hands went still on her own phone.
"Are you going to say yes?" Liz asked, settling beside Wonyoung with eager curiosity. "He's cute. And nice. Remember when he helped us with that award show stage?"
"I don't know." Wonyoung's voice was soft, almost shy. "Maybe? I mean, it's just coffee."
Just coffee.
Something cold and sharp lodged itself in Yujin's chest.
Three months. Three months of Wonyoung pulling away, becoming distant and polite and wrong, and Yujin had tried everything to figure out why. Had replayed every conversation, every interaction, searching for the moment she'd messed up.
But this—
This made terrible, perfect sense.
Wonyoung wasn't pulling away from her. She was just… moving on. Moving toward someone else. Someone normal. Someone who could take her to coffee without it being a scandal that the company had to shush.
The thought made Yujin's throat close up.
She'd been so careful. So patient. Waiting for the right moment, the right words, the perfect time to finally tell Wonyoung the truth she'd been carrying for years. But there was never a perfect time, was there? And now someone else was asking, someone braver and less scared, and Wonyoung was considering it.
Yujin stood abruptly, her chair scraping loud against the floor.
"Unnie?" Rei looked over, concerned. "You okay?"
"Fine." The word came out too sharp. Yujin forced her voice softer. "Just need some air. I'll meet you guys at the dorm."
She didn't wait for a response. Didn't trust herself to look at Wonyoung's face, at the soft confusion that would be there, the polite concern that had replaced everything warm and real between them.
Outside, the evening sky was heavy and grey, threatening.
Yujin tilted her face up to the sky and made a decision.
Now or never.
If she didn't speak tonight—if she let Wonyoung walk away into someone else's life without at least trying—she'd regret it for the rest of her life. Even if Wonyoung said no. Even if it ruined everything.
At least she'd know. At least she'd have been brave enough to try.
She left the building, ten minutes after Wonyoung left saying she need a walk.
Wonyoung's POV
Wonyoung left the building alone.
She'd told the others she needed to walk, needed to clear her head. It wasn't entirely a lie. The conversation about the idol sunbae had left her feeling restless and wrong, like wearing shoes that didn't quite fit.
She didn't want coffee with him. Didn't want his careful compliments or his interested texts. But maybe she should want those things. Maybe that was what moving on looked like—accepting attention from someone safe, someone who couldn't hurt her because she'd never liking him enough to be hurt.
The rain started suddenly.
One moment the sky was grey and threatening, the next it was pouring—cold and sharp against her skin. She should call a car. Should go back inside. Should—
"Wonyoung!"
She spun around.
Yujin was running toward her through the rain, hair already plastered to her face, breathing hard like she'd been chasing for blocks.
"Unnie?" Wonyoung's heart pounded against her ribs. "What are you—why are you—"
"I need to talk to you." Yujin stopped a few meters away, chest heaving. "I've needed to talk to you for months, but I was scared. I'm still scared. But I can't—I can't keep doing this."
Something in her voice made Wonyoung's stomach drop.
"Doing what?"
"Pretending." The word burst out of Yujin like a confession, raw and desperate. "God, Wonyoung, I can't keep pretending that we're just friends when every time I look at you I—"
She stopped, pressing her hands to her face. When she lowered them, her eyes were bright with tears and rain and something that looked terrifyingly like hope.
"I love you."
The world tilted.
"Not like a friend. Not like a member." Yujin's voice cracked. "I think I have been since IZ*ONE, maybe earlier. I don't even know anymore. All I know is that I've been in love with you for so long that I can't remember what it felt like not to love you."
No.
The word echoed in Wonyoung's head, automatic and defensive.
No, you don't. You can't.
Because she'd heard Yujin say the opposite. Had heard her laugh at the very idea. Had heard her call it awkward, a disaster, something that would ruin everything they'd built together over the years.
"No." The word came out flat. Cold. "No, you don't."
Yujin flinched like she'd been slapped. "What?"
"You don't love me. You can't." Wonyoung took a step back, her chest so tight she could barely breathe. "Is this—is this some kind of test? Did someone tell you something? Did you—"
Is this some kind of sick joke?
The thought was irrational, paranoid, but it roared through her head with the force of truth.
"Tell me what?" Yujin looked genuinely confused, desperate. "Wonyoung, I don't understand—"
"I heard you!" The words ripped out of Wonyoung's throat. "Three months ago. In the practice room. Talking to Gaeul-unnie."
All the color drained from Yujin's face.
"You said—" Wonyoung's voice broke. "You said you didn't like girls. That dating a member would be a disaster. That it would ruin everything—six years of everything. You said like it was disgusting. You laughed, Unnie. You laughed about it."
"I was lying." Yujin's voice was barely audible over the rain. "Wonyoung, I was lying to Gaeul because she asked me directly and I panicked. I've been hiding how I feel for so long that lying became automatic. I didn't know you were listening. I didn't know—"
"How convenient." Bitterness flooded Wonyoung's mouth. "Now that you know I heard, suddenly you were lying? Suddenly everything you said to Gaeul-unnie wasn't true?"
"It wasn't true! None of it was true!" Yujin stepped forward, reaching out. "Please, Wonyoung, you have to believe me. I love you. Every smile, every touch, every moment we've shared—they've all meant everything to me. I was just too scared to tell you because I thought—"
"Stop." Wonyoung backed away, shaking her head. "Just stop. You're making this worse."
Because if this was some cruel joke or misguided attempt at comfort, then hearing these words would destroy what little remained of Wonyoung's ability to function.
Either way, she couldn't survive this conversation.
"Wonyoung, please—" Yujin's voice cracked completely. "Please don't walk away. Let me explain. Let me prove it to you. I'll do anything—"
"I need to go." Wonyoung turned and ran.
"WONYOUNG!"
She ran faster, vision blurred by rain and tears. Her feet carried her without thought—around corners, across streets, up the stairs of the elevated pedestrian walkway that stretched between shopping districts.
Behind her, she could hear Yujin chasing, calling her name with increasing desperation.
"I love you," Yujin had said, and it sounded so real.
"I don't like girls that way," Yujin had said three months ago, and that had sounded real too.
Which version was the lie? Or were they both lies? Or—
Wonyoung reached the top of the walkway and stopped, gripping the railing. The city stretched out below, lights blurring in the rain like stars falling. She was so tired. So tired of hiding, of hoping, of hurting.
Tired of pretending.
"Wonyoung."
Yujin's voice was closer now, breathless and breaking.
"Please. Please just look at me."
Wonyoung turned.
Yujin stood at the top of the stairs, drenched and shaking. Her eyes were red and swollen, her hands outstretched like she was approaching something fragile that might shatter.
"I'm sorry," Yujin whispered. "I'm sorry I lied to Gaeul. I'm sorry I made you doubt me. I'm sorry I wasn't brave enough to tell you the truth sooner. I'm sorry I wasted all those years being scared."
She took a careful step forward.
"But I'm telling you the truth now. I love you. I'm in love with you. And I know you don't believe me, but I'll spend every day for the rest of my life proving it if you'll just—"
Thunder cracked overhead, deafening.
Wonyoung flinched instinctively, her hands flying up to cover her ears—
Her foot slipped on the wet floor.
For one crystallized moment, the world suspended itself. She saw Yujin's face transform from hope to horror. Saw Yujin's hand reach out, too far away to catch her. Saw the empty air between them that suddenly felt like an ocean.
An ocean of six wasted years.
Oh.
Then she was falling.
"YUJIN UNNIE!!"
The scream tore from her throat, pure terror and instinct. Not a confession. Not an answer. Just the name of the person she felt safest with, called out in the moment when safety had completely disappeared.
The rain fell with her. Time stretched and compressed. Lasted forever and no time at all.
She thought: I never got to tell her.
She thought: I love you too. I've loved you since.. Forever..
She thought: I'm sorry I wasted our time.
The last thing she heard was Yujin screaming her name, the sound raw and broken and devastating.
The last thing she felt was regret—crushing, overwhelming regret for all the words left unsaid, for all the years spent hiding.
The last thing she saw was Yujin's face, falling away into the distance, growing smaller and smaller until—
Darkness.
And then, from somewhere in the darkness, a voice—smooth and almost amused:
"Well, that was dramatic."
END