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007n7 pulled the keys to his apartament from him pocket and gently opened the door to his small apartament. Its been two weeks since c00lkidd has gone missing and there was not even a single hint about where c00lkidd might be... was he even alive? 007n7 hanged posters all around robloxia, but the only thing he got was kids pranking thinking its fun....
Sev closed the door and walked over to the couch not caring about the food leftovers around him. He laid down on the couch, tears already filling his eyes, he left like the worst father ever to exist how could he let his son dissapear?! He really was the worst... c00lkidd is surely dead by now and its all his fault! If his adopted son was dead he atleast wanted to join them in dead? Anything where he doesnt have to feel the suffering and growing emptiness in his heart. Sev got up from the couch and walked into the kitchen looking around it. It looked really terrible dirty with trash everywhere but after c00lkidd went missing he couldnt care less about how unhealthy it was. They took a cup of noodles and heated up some water. After making and eating the cup noodles he went to his bedroom.
After standing in the doorway for few minutes and not doing anything at all, he walked over to his wardrobe and looked through it. After 10 minutes he found 2 things he was looking for photo album and a gun. Yeah he was about to end it but before he wanted to watch through the photos and memories with them see his sons photos for the last time and Noli... Noli was his best college buddy always doing trouble with him to people they were unseparable but well time showed that infact that friendship couldnt survive it. What he did in college was the reason people hated him. He would be annoying everyone hacking and destroying he once burned a pizzeria with noli! No one died but there was few hurt people and one was even critical. Both him, and noli got blacklisted from the pizzeria forever saying that they kick their ass if they come to the pizzeria one more time (which didnt turn out to be really true). Sev was hated by almost the whole robloxia population and after c00lkidd dissapeared he also felt like hated by life itself.
He walked to the couch again and placed the gun and photo album on it. Opening the album on its first page it had photos from when he started college.
The first photo was from the first day of college with the whole class. He was in the back standing smilling stupidly in the back, right next to noli the boy next to him was wearing a purple jacket, baggy jeans and a thing that he always wore a white tragedy mask that Noli never took off for unknown to 007n7 reasons. Sev didnt know if he wished he never meet Noli or if he wished that he could change Noli's chaotic nature.
Next photo was few days later, he got to know Noli a little more and they went to an amusment park because it had a discount that day and they decided it be a fun experience. That was the story they told others in reality sev used hus hacks to get tickets for them... but hey! Atleast they had great fun and somehow didnt end up kicked out! Seeing Noli though for some reason made the emptiness in his heart to grow.
The few next photos were just another places he and Noli went to. Caffes, shopping malls, parties or them just having fun at their dorm as they also were roommates in college.
There was one photo though that 007n7 immediately noticed out of the other photos. Him and Noli enjoying the pizza at builder brothers pizzeria. 007n7 felt horrible knowing what he did, how he hurt people and how it probably traumatized someone but also hwo it probably ruined the restaurants opinion a little.
He looked through another few pages and finally found it... a photo of the pizzeria, in flames and people in panic running out. He felt disgusted by himself and Noli for doing that, but especially into himself, he was the one who wnated to do that. He was a monster. How could he evn show hsi face after doing that?! He felt the tears fill his eyes and he pulled the photo out ripping it into little pieces and then throwing them away from himself. He started crying, he wished he could change that. If he could rebirth he would stopped that from ever happening. Then he remembered seeing the burn marks on few of the people that made him feel the need to throw up he slowly standed up and tried to go to the bathroom but he threw up before could reach it. He walked over to the closest wall and slid down it now sitting on the floor still crying. How big of a dissapointed he was. He could change things, he didnt. He didnt deserve a life. After maybe 30 minutes of just crying he tried to stand up falling, and without the strength to stand up he crawled back to the coffe table to continue looking through the album. Finally he reached it with shaky hands flipping it to another page and another.
Another photo he took interest of was from a party but it wasnt about the photo but at the words he heard from someone. A person asked about if u could have one magic item what wouldve it be and he heard someone answer
"an apple that could reincarnate me, basically a reincarnation apple"
back then he though it was dumb for someone to say that they want that, but now he really wished an reincarnation apple existed. Where he could be reincarnated as someone better, who didnt hurt anyone for fun... maybe even someone who helped everyone? A savior? Soldier? Anyone who doesnt hurt people for his own entertainment.
After another few pages he saw the first photo where c00lkidd was with a description "found this little shit at my dorms door" but to him now it wasnt a stupid kid, it was a reason to live that suddenly left him all alone, leaving only a growing emptiness in his heart, how it crumbled without c00lkidd. Sev hugged a pillow trying to act like its his son but he couldnt and started crying again. Oh how much it hurt knowing he wont see the kid smile again.
Another photo had a time skip maybe of a year a little more? Because he and Noli argued and well sev kinda forgot about taking photos. But it was c00lkidd in a rain coat playing in the puddles and smilling brightly at the camera. 007n7 also remembered how the kid got a cold after that day and how expensive the medicine was. And also the sad little eyes when c00lkidd found out he cant leave the house for atleast a week. It was one of the nice memories...
And then he saw a photo from c00lkidds eight birthday. As said before sev was supposed to be blacklisted forever from the pizzeria but well after begging elliot to let his son have birthday there elliot agreed to it and made a pizza, vut it was special! Elliot put the toppings so they looked like c00lkidd it was very cute! But well his son got the c00lgui and well burned the pizzeria just like sev with Noli... 007n7 felt weak if he had energy to stand up and go to the pizzeria, he wouldve definiently beg elliot for forgivness so he atleast dies without forgiving to elliot, but his legs probably wouldve failed him.
Elliot was sweet and yet he hurt him alot before burning the pizzeria for the first time Noli and he would call the pizzeria making pranks or come to the pizzeria and annoy the cashier that somehow almost always was elliot. And then they burned the pizzeria for the first time, Elliot had a whole panic attack worried someone died at his fathers pizzeria and the second time when c00lkidd burned the pizzeria elliot was left with few burn marks that for sure hurt.
007n7 watched the another page. It was photos of c00lkidd prooduly holding his drawing with the brightest smile. One had sev drawn with "best dad ever" and he cried even more seeing it. He wasnt a good dad, he didnt deserve to even get called one he deserved to die and rot after all he done hes nothing but a monster.
Another page him and c00lkidd at the fair from the photo with Noli. He remembered c00lkidds fear on these rides but also how excited he was when winning in a game where they had to shot monsters. He was also like the monsters deserved to be shoot and he surely will make sure its shot. He was now crying lots again, so weak and pathetic...
It was now the last pages of photos with c00lkidd at the school, playground and other fun places.
Finally he reached to the photos right before the kids dissapearance a photo of him and c00lkidd making apple pie and being all happy while the kitchen was covered in flour. The apple pie was not rotting in the pridge like probably msot food in it he didnt have energy to make anything than the cup noodles that he ate every few days. Sev rarely ate since c00lkidds dissapearance, rarely slept mostly spending nights crying and talking to himself. No one wanted to help him find the kid people in publid didnt even want to stand next to him and would move away. People treated him like a virus that would hurt you if your a little close to it. That was the price he had to pay for all the harm hes done. After.finishing the album he sat on the floor before slowly moving to grab a paper and a pen wanting to write atleast a goodbye... a goodbye no one will probably.even care to read. He wrote about how sorry he was to elliot and everyone, how he is deeply sorry and to forgive him after his dead and if c00lkidd gets found to take care of him.
He then grabbed the gun looking around his dirty apartament and then at his hands, he finally will.do what has to he done. Putting the gun to the side of his head with shaky hands he though about one last thing.
What would he do if he got an another life?
Definiently make sure to keep c00lkidd save and never let him dissapear. Make sure Elliot doesnt get hurt ever and the pizzeria never has an fire, and make sure Noli doesnt do anything bad too.
With shaky hands 007n7 pulled the trigger of the gun ending his miserable live.
His body didnt get find until the smell of his rotting body didnt spread through the building. In the news where they talked about the hackers dead most people didnt really feel sad after what he did, some were happy only a small group of people was sad and one of those was Elliot.
Even after all what 007n7 did, Elliot felt sadness hearing it and though 007n7 wont really know, Elliot did forgave him.