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Hong learned early how to hold a room.
It wasn’t something he’d practiced deliberately—no rehearsed angles in the mirror, no conscious calculation of where to stand or how to smile. It simply happened.
He would step into a space and eyes would follow, conversations softening or faltering as attention bent toward him. People didn’t notice him; they noticed what he carried with him—a subtle command, a quiet assurance that made everyone else’s energy shift without a word.
Photographers called it range.
Fashion editors called it a presence.
Social media called it dangerous.
Hong could be handsome in a way that felt effortless. The kind of handsome that didn’t need perfect lighting or an elaborate outfit to draw stares. Sharp jawline catching the light, sleeves rolled just enough to reveal forearms veined and freckled, the lean, practiced grace of someone completely aware of his own posture.
And yet, he could be devastatingly pretty when styled that way. Lashings of mascara darkened the gaze, subtle gloss on lips catching the light, hair brushed perfectly yet naturally.
Masculine or androgynous, elegant or raw—he could slide between looks without ever losing himself.
That was why brands fought over him. That was why photographers whispered his name as though it were a secret spell.
That was why people tried to flirt with him, despite the public knowledgeable of him already have a boyfriend.
It was the middle of a shoot for a seasonal collection, and Hong leaned back in the chair, waiting between shots. The studio hummed with soft conversation: assistants adjusting lights, Lego smoothing out fabrics, Jaoying touching up makeup, Chari standing by with schedules and timing cues with Pream.
His team was small but efficient, loyal almost to the point of obsession. He didn’t need a modeling agency behind him; he had Chari, his manager, orchestrating each booking; Lego and Jaoying his stylist, making each look effortless; and Pream, his assistant, who kept chaos at bay. Together, they were a silent army that made his independence possible.
The photographer, a man with far too much confidence and not nearly enough subtlety, leaned in over the camera.
“You know,” he said, voice lowered but still somehow loud in the studio, “we could do a more… intimate set sometime. Just you. No crew.”
Hong smiled politely, tilting his head, a faint lift of an eyebrow enough to disarm without confrontation. The smile was smooth, measured—a trained grace that reminded people he was always in control.
“I’m flattered,” he said evenly, voice calm and sure. “But I’m taken.”
The photographer chuckled, undeterred. “Lucky guy. Or girl.”
“Guy,” Hong corrected, still smooth. “Very lucky guy.”
And that should’ve been the end of it.
It rarely was.
The studio hallway buzzed with its usual controlled chaos—stylists darting past with garment bags, assistants murmuring into headsets, the scent of hairspray and coffee clinging to the air.
Hong stood near the monitor, scrolling through his phone while Pream hovered beside him, checking today’s schedule on her tablet.
“You have ten minutes before touch-ups,” she said. Then she glanced up at him, eyes narrowing with amusement. “Which means exactly ten minutes for you to accidentally charm someone.”
Hong snorted. “I don’t accidentally do anything.”
Pream hummed skeptically.
That was when a staff member—one of the newer coordinators, clipboard tucked nervously under his arm—slowed as he passed. He hesitated, turned back, clearly psyching himself up.
“Uh—Hong?” he asked.
Hong looked up, polite and open as always. “Yeah?”
The guy smiled, a little too hopeful. “I just wanted to say… today’s shoot looks amazing. You always, uh, really bring the concept to life.”
“Thank you,” Hong replied warmly. “That’s kind of you.”
Pream bit her lip, already grinning.
The coordinator shifted his weight. “I was wondering—are you, um… seeing anyone?”
Hong blinked once.
Then he smiled.
Not sharp. Not dismissive. Just gentle, assured.
Instead of answering immediately, he lifted his phone, showing the wallpaper.
Hong with his boyfriend.
Standing together. Simple. Unmistakable.
The guy’s eyes dropped to it, widened slightly. “Oh. I—sorry, I didn’t—”
“I’m taken,” Hong said easily. “Happily.”
The coordinator flushed. “Right. Of course. Sorry—uh—have a good shoot.”
He retreated quickly, almost tripping over his own feet.
The moment he was gone, Pream burst into laughter.
“Oh my god,” she said, nudging Hong’s arm. “You didn’t even say it. You just flashed your wallpaper like a weapon.”
Hong laughed, shaking his head. “I wasn’t trying to be dramatic.”
“You absolutely were,” she teased. “Did you see his face?”
Hong glanced down at his hand, expression softening. “I just don’t like being unclear.”
Pream leaned closer, lowering her voice. “You know, most people would still flirt back a little.”
Hong shrugged. “Why would I?”
She raised a brow. “Because you’re Hong.”
He smiled—fond, private. “I already have someone.”
Pream watched him for a second longer, then grinned knowingly. “You’re disgustingly in love.”
“Correct,” Hong said without hesitation.
She laughed again as Lego called his name.
“Alright, Romeo,” Pream said. “Let’s get you back on set. Your very lucky guy is probably going to hear about this later.”
Hong’s smile lingered as he followed her.
“Oh,” he said lightly. “He listens to everything.”
Even without saying anything else, Hong’s presence commanded focus. He didn’t need to speak to own the room; his very posture, the faint ease in the tilt of his head, the way he shifted his weight slightly from one foot to another—everything drew attention.
Models in the studio glanced at him, instinctively adjusting themselves to match a fraction of his effortless poise. Assistants paused mid-task to glance at him, as if measuring themselves against some invisible standard.
He could make a look last. He could make a moment linger.
All without saying a word.
And yet, despite the fame, despite the people who tried to flirt with him or court him, Hong never lost himself. The necklace on his nape was a constant reminder, and the quiet, unassuming presence of Jun—his boyfriend of five years—kept him grounded.
Nut wasn’t flashy, didn’t command a room like Hong did. He was soft, gentle, protective—the balance to Hong’s fire. Hong could tell him everything, from the smallest annoyance on set to the loudest moment of chaos in the streets of his life, and Jun would always listen. Always protect. Always care.
By the time Hong got home that evening, his patience was worn thin—not enough to make him angry, but enough to leave him frayed at the edges. The kind of exhaustion that didn’t sit in the muscles, but in the chest. The kind that made him crave something familiar. Something grounding. Something soft.
Nut.
The apartment welcomed him the moment he stepped inside. Warm air. Lights already on—set to that gentle glow Nut preferred in the evenings. Shoes neatly lined by the door, not kicked aside, not rushed. The faint scent of detergent and citrus cleaner lingered in the air, clean without being sharp.
It always felt like Nut could sense when Hong was coming home.
Not in a supernatural way—just in the quiet attentiveness of someone who loved him. Nut always seemed to adjust the world accordingly, smoothing the edges before Hong ever crossed the threshold.
“Nut?” Hong called, shrugging off his jacket and hanging it where it belonged.
“In the kitchen!” Nut’s voice came back immediately—too quick, too bright, unmistakably eager. Like he’d been waiting.
Hong smiled without realizing he was doing it.
He followed the sound into the kitchen and found Nut by the counter, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, hair slightly mussed as if he’d run a hand through it one too many times. His glasses sat low on his nose, the matching necklace as Hong's wearing on his collar, and he was staring intently at his phone, brows knit in concentration.
He looked… normal.
Comfortably, wonderfully normal.
Not sharp angles and camera lights. Not curated expressions and controlled movements. Just Nut—standing barefoot on cool tile, humming faintly to himself, belonging to this space in a way Hong never quite did after hours of being looked at.
“You’re home early,” Nut said, glancing up and lighting up instantly when he saw him. “How was the shoot?”
Hong dropped his bag by the door and didn’t bother answering right away. He closed the distance between them in two strides, arms sliding around Nut’s waist from behind, pressing his chest to Nut’s back.
Nut startled—he always did, just a little—then relaxed immediately, shoulders softening as he leaned back into Hong’s hold like it was instinct.
“Annoying,” Hong said, voice muffled as he pressed a kiss into Nut’s hair. “Successfully annoying.”
Nut hummed, one hand coming up to rest over Hong’s forearm. “That’s most of your work, isn’t it?”
“Mm. Today came with bonus flirting I didn’t ask for.”
Nut stiffened—not sharply, not angrily. Just a fraction. Not jealousy—never that—but concern, protective and quiet.
“Again?” Nut asked.
“Again.” Hong pulled back just enough to rest his chin on Nut’s shoulder, eyes half-lidded. “I showed him your photo. Some didn’t stop him.”
Nut glanced down at Hong’s nape almost reflexively, eyes wandering on the necklace as his thumb brushing over his hand with something like quiet pride. Like reassurance.
“Rude,” Nut muttered. Then, after a beat, “Should I come visit your set next time?”
Hong laughed, the sound warm and genuine, easing something tight in his chest. “You? Intimidating a photographer?”
Nut flushed immediately. “I could stand there,” he said defensively. “Supportively.”
Hong grinned. “Terrifying.”
Nut scoffed. “They’d never recover.”
“I’d hope not,” Hong teased. “Your presence alone would ruin their composure.”
Nut huffed, embarrassed but pleased, and then added, as if it were the most important detail, “I’d bring snacks.”
“That seals it,” Hong said solemnly. “You’re officially unstoppable.”
They stayed like that for a moment longer—Hong holding him from behind, Nut letting himself be held—until Nut remembered himself and gently nudged Hong’s arms away.
“Go shower,” Nut said, turning slightly to face him. “Dinner’s almost ready.”
Hong tilted his head. “You spoil me.”
Nut smiled softly, the kind of smile he never wore for anyone else. “You work hard.”
That was Nut.
Always steady. Always gentle. Always quietly attentive in ways that mattered more than grand gestures ever could. He didn’t dazzle a room. He didn’t command attention. But he noticed everything—remembered small preferences, anticipated needs, adjusted himself around Hong without ever making it feel like a sacrifice.
Five years together, and Hong still found himself caught off guard by how deeply he loved him.
He leaned in, pressing a brief kiss to Nut’s lips—soft, familiar, unhurried.
“I’ll be quick,” Hong promised.
Nut nodded, eyes warm. “I’ll keep it warm.”
Hong turned toward the bedroom, feeling lighter already.
Behind him, Nut watched him go, a quiet fondness settling in his chest—content, domestic, deeply in love.
They’d met in college, of all places—Hong already popular, already modeling on the side, already the kind of student professors remembered and strangers whispered about.
Nut had been… none of that.
Nut had been cute. Earnest. Slightly panicky in a way that made him apologize to chairs he bumped into. He was the kind of student who sat near the aisle, notebook meticulously organized, pen caps always aligned. The kind who triple-checked deadlines and still worried he’d missed something.
They’d bumped into each other outside the library—literally bumped. Hong had been walking backward, laughing at something on his phone, while Nut was reading an email far too seriously for someone in the middle of campus foot traffic.
Coffee splashed. Nut yelped.
Hong froze. Nut froze.
“I’m—oh—oh god, I’m so sorry,” Nut blurted, staring at the spreading stain on his sleeve like it was a personal failure. “I wasn’t looking. I can—uh—I can wash it, or—replace it? I mean, it’s probably expensive, right—”
Hong had stared at him.
Not at the coffee. Not at the sleeve.
At Nut.
Then he laughed.
Not mockingly. Not unkindly. Just—warm, surprised, fond.
“I think it’s my fault,” Hong had said easily, already shrugging off his jacket. “You okay?”
Nut nodded too fast. “Yes. I mean. No. I mean—yes.”
Hong had been charmed instantly.
From there, things escalated in a way that made Nut’s head spin.
Hong started showing up where Nut studied—always “by coincidence.” Sitting across from him at cafés, stealing bites off Nut’s plate without asking, listening with genuine interest when Nut rambled about classes and group projects. Hong flirted openly, shamelessly, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Nut had been convinced it was a joke.
Until one afternoon, Hong leaned across a café table, chin propped on his hand, eyes soft and unafraid, and said, “Do you want to be my boyfriend?”
Like he was asking Nut if he wanted sugar in his coffee.
Nut had nearly choked on his drink.
“Me?” he’d asked faintly.
Hong smiled. “Yes, you.”
Five years later, Nut still got flustered when Hong kissed him unexpectedly.
Some things never changed.
That evening, Hong came out of the shower to find Nut setting the table, moving with that careful efficiency Hong had come to associate with long days at the office. Everything was placed neatly. Nothing rushed. Nut always did things like he was trying not to disturb the world.
“How was work?” Hong asked, toweling his hair.
Nut hesitated—just a beat too long.
“Busy,” he said. “William tries to flirt with Est again.”
Hong snorted. “When is he not?”
Nut sighed. “True”
William—Nut’s colleague, at least according to what Hong knew—was a walking romantic disaster with authority issues and a tendency to flirt with Est, another one of his colleagues which Hong's sure that he also likes William based on Nut's stories.
“Did Est flirt back?” Hong asked.
Nut smiled tiredly. “No.”
“Tragic.”
They ate together on the couch, legs tangled, Hong leaning against Nut’s shoulder like he belonged there—which he did.
Nut noticed things without being asked: when Hong wanted more of something, when he was pushing food around because his mind was elsewhere. He passed Hong extra bites automatically, barely realizing he was doing it.
Hong talked.
About shoots. About brands. About comments people made when they thought he couldn’t hear. About the way people looked at him like he was an idea instead of a person.
Nut listened. Always.
He didn’t interrupt. Didn’t offer empty reassurance. Just stayed there, steady and present, fingers warm against Hong’s knee.
Nut didn’t talk as much about himself.
Hong had noticed that over the years. Nut shared small things—office frustrations, funny mishaps, Thame’s ongoing inability to communicate—but never the deeper parts. Never the weight he carried home some nights. Hong told himself Nut was private.
Gentle.
Content.
And after years together, Hong didn't mind about it.
But sometimes, late at night, Hong would wake to find Nut already awake, staring at the ceiling like he was calculating something invisible.
Sometimes Nut came home with bruises he laughed off as clumsiness.
Sometimes Nut knew things—security layouts, emergency exits, people’s habits—in ways that felt… oddly specific.
Hong noticed it during their museum date.
It was Nut who had suggested it, eyes bright over breakfast, scrolling through an article on his phone.
“There’s a special exhibition today,” Nut had said, excited in that quiet, contained way of his. “Restored artifacts. Limited entry. We should go.”
Hong smiled, amused. “You’re the one dragging me to a museum?”
Nut flushed. “I like museums.”
“I can see that,” Hong teased. “You’re glowing.”
So they went.
The museum was cool and hushed, sunlight filtering through tall glass panels, footsteps softened by polished stone floors. People murmured respectfully, drifting between displays like slow-moving currents.
Nut practically vibrated beside him.
“This one,” Nut said, gently tugging Hong toward a glass case. “Look at the restoration work on the joints—see how they reinforced it without changing the original structure?”
Hong leaned in, humoring him. “Mm. Beautiful.”
Nut glanced at him. “You’re not even looking.”
“I’m looking at you,” Hong said easily.
Nut choked a little. “Don’t—don’t do that here.”
Hong laughed under his breath.
They moved deeper into the exhibition, Nut reading placards with earnest focus, occasionally pointing things out, hands moving as he explained details Hong suspected most visitors skimmed over.
It was charming.
It was also… strange.
They stopped near a large central hall, where several corridors branched off. Nut slowed, gaze flicking briefly to the ceiling, then to a corner near a marble pillar.
Hong followed his line of sight. Nothing notable—just a security camera half-hidden among decorative molding.
Nut shifted Hong subtly to his other side.
“Hey,” Hong murmured. “What was that?”
“What?”
“You moved me.”
Nut blinked. “I did?”
“Yes,” Hong said, watching him carefully. “You put yourself closer to the open space.”
Nut opened his mouth, then closed it. “Habit, I guess.”
Hong hummed, unconvinced.
They continued walking. A few minutes later, a soft alarm chirped somewhere distant—quickly silenced. A staff member spoke quietly into a radio near a restricted hallway.
Nut paused instantly.
“That corridor’s closed,” he said.
Hong raised a brow. “How do you know?”
Nut gestured vaguely. “They’ll redirect foot traffic in about… ten seconds.”
Hong waited.
Ten seconds later, ropes were drawn across the hallway, a staff member politely guiding guests away.
Hong stared at Nut.
Nut stared straight ahead, very invested in a display of ancient coins.
“Nut,” Hong said slowly. “You want to explain that?”
Nut swallowed. “It’s… obvious?”
“Is it,” Hong replied mildly, “or do you want to tell me why you just predicted museum protocol down to the second?”
Nut laughed too quickly. “I read a lot?”
Hong’s eyes softened, but he didn’t smile. “You always do this.”
Nut glanced at him. “Do what?”
“Know where exits are,” Hong said. “Stand with your back to walls. Clock people who linger too long.” He paused. “You mapped this place the moment we walked in.”
Nut was quiet.
They stopped near a bench, the low hum of the museum wrapping around them. Nut sat, hands folded, excitement dimmed just a little.
“I don’t mean it like an accusation,” Hong said gently, sitting beside him. “I just notice.”
Nut let out a breath. “I’m not doing anything wrong.”
“I didn’t say you were.”
“But you’re thinking about it,” Nut murmured.
Hong turned toward him fully. “I’m thinking you’re careful. I’m thinking you’re protective. And I’m thinking there’s more to you than you tell me.”
Nut’s shoulders tightened. “Does that bother you?”
Hong considered him—really looked at him. This man who loved quietly, who made breakfast every morning, got excited about museums and remembered Hong’s schedule better than his own.
“No,” Hong said honestly. “It worries me sometimes. But it doesn’t make me trust you less.”
Nut looked at him then, eyes searching. “You trust me?”
“With my life,” Hong said, without drama. “I just wish you trusted me the same way.”
Nut’s throat bobbed. “I do.”
“Then talk to me,” Hong said softly. “When you’re ready.”
Nut nodded, a small, grateful movement. “Okay.”
Hong smiled, reaching for his hand and lacing their fingers together. “Now. Tell me more about the coins.”
Nut laughed weakly. “You don’t care about the coins.”
“I care about the way you care about them.”
Nut squeezed his hand, smiled returning—warm, genuine.
Still, as they stood to rejoin the flow of visitors, Hong noticed the way Nut instinctively positioned himself between Hong and a sudden crowd surged.
And Hong let him.
Because Nut was the man who remembered Hong’s favorite mug. The man who kissed Hong’s knuckles absentmindedly while watching TV. The man who slipped handwritten notes into Hong’s bag on stressful days.
The man who had given him that ring.
Later that night, Hong lay with his head in Nut’s lap, scrolling idly through his phone while Nut traced familiar patterns through his hair, grounding himself in the weight of Hong there.
“You know,” Hong said casually, “someone asked me today if I was single.”
Nut scoffed softly. “Is it the same person that flirts with you?”
“No. But I just reject them.”
Nut smiled, pride warming his chest in a way he never tried to hide. “Good.”
Hong tilted his head, looking up at him. “You’re not jealous at all?”
Nut met his gaze, expression open, honest. “Why would I be?”
“Because people want me.”
Nut shrugged gently, thumb brushing through Hong’s hair. “That’s not new.”
“And?”
“I trust you,” Nut said simply. “And I know who you come home to.”
Hong’s chest tightened.
“I love you,” he said suddenly.
Nut blinked, then smiled—soft, a little shy, still surprised every single time. “I love you too.”
Outside, somewhere beyond the quiet safety of their apartment, a phone buzzed in Nut’s pocket.
Nut ignored it.
But the screen lit up anyway, displaying a name Hong had never seen before—and a message that read:
Stand by. Operation disclosed in 5 hours.
Nut’s smile didn’t falter.
But his hand stilled in Hong’s hair.
And for the first time in five years, Nut wondered how much longer he could keep his world—and Hong—safe from the truth.