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“ I am not going not going back to gusu”
Those words stuck to as if I was being torn apart. A turmoil of emotions were surging within me that I couldn’t quite comprehend . It’s my incapacity that’s to blame for this , I should’ve had shackled him and dragged him here, I should’ve had chained him. Did he want me to plead and beg like a dog I could do that so why did he have to leave me. I gripped my thighs as my nails digged thru my flesh as a metallic smell reached my nostrils as blood soaring out of my flesh the odor of rain mixed with the odor of blood making it smell quiet unpleasant .
Those eye,that always received me with warm now looked at me with a coldness that made my heart shiver. Wei wuxian the jiang sect troublemaker , a servant and a rogue cultivator’s son. A child less than a slave.that was what I was supposed to see him as. but I saw him as so important to me that I would jump in hell’s fire the moment such words left his mouth.
My title of one of the twin jades of lan clan as it says it’s nothing but a title I received by acting obedient.I am nothing but a weak fool who defied his elders for the sick name of Love that may never be returned.
But oddly the feeling of regret seems isn’t potent but seems to linger.
Was it that I unraveled my feelings and hid behind the walls I have built for myself until now.
Wei ying will you greet me once more as a warm smile would tug your lips with that cheerful look on your face just by seeing me.
I clutched the sheets as tears rolled down my cheeks why soaking the sheets.
The blood mixed with tears creating the color of red Camellias.
If I ever gave you that flower would you accept my sincerity.
No you probably wouldn’t even understand the symbolism,that’s how you always were .
“ Wei ying I miss you…”