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Mike letter #1
Dear Will,
It’s been a week. Nobody has seen you in a week. Where did you go? Why did you leave all of us? Why did you leave me? Joyce says that a bunch of your stuff went missing. All the necessities. How could you just leave without saying goodbye? Why?
I’m writing this to hopefully help with the empty feeling in my chest. Maybe it will fill the hole that is there. Maybe you will be back in a few days, maybe you just left for a little while to have a breath of fresh air. After all, we just graduated high school. Maybe you just needed a break. I decided to write this letter so I wouldn’t go insane. My thoughts and feelings are so intense, and I have no idea what to do with them.
I just need you to come back. I can’t lose you, not again. Please please please please please please please please please come home. I hope I don’t have to write to you again, because that means you still aren’t here.
Love, Mike
Will letter #1
Dear Mike,
It’s been a few weeks since I left. I’m going to go to college for art. I want to be a comic book artist. A few months ago I applied for a scholarship and got accepted. I didn’t tell anyone. Nobody knew that I applied. Nobody knew that I was going to leave. Why I had to leave.
I couldn’t take it anymore. I can’t bear watching you be happy with someone else, someone who isn’t me. I tried Mike, I really tried. But I just can’t. You will be happier without me anyways. You may be sad for a little while but eventually you will move on. So will I. Hopefully...
I know that you have never thought of me the way I think of you. If you knew... You would definitely be happy that I was leaving. The thoughts I have about you would make you never want to be near me. The constant want, the constant need to kiss you. This is for the best. For everyone.
I know I should have told you. Then you could be at least a little relieved that I was leaving. I feel horrible that I will be the reason you will feel down for a little while. But it will all be okay eventually. I will fall out of love with you and meet another nice boy. And you will one day marry El and have kids and have a perfect little life together. I am happy for you. I am. I just can’t be there when it happens. I wish you could understand that.
I remember when I used to do this exact thing before everything that happened. Before I realized what my feelings to you meant, what they were. I used to write you so many letters that I have lost count. I never sent them. I used to keep them in castle byers but they all got destroyed when it got destroyed.
Anyways, for the time being, I have rented out a small apartment near the college I am going to with money a few kind strangers have gifted me when I hitch hiked. I have a job until school starts and I will move into a dorm when the term begins.
Goodbye Mike Wheeler. I hope you are happy. I hope you have a wonderful life. I hope you will miss me. I hope you won’t miss me. I hope you get your dream job. I hope you and El will be forever. I hope I see you again one day. I hope to never see you again. I hope and hope, wish and wish. If only...
Love, Will