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2:17 am : Texts
2:17: tommysummers
hey felix are you awake i have THINGS I NEED TO SAY
2:17: felixx
obviously
wsp dude?
2:25: tommysummers
ok so i just finished rereading radio silence
that's the one about aled and the podcast
he dyes his hair pink at the end
2:26: felixx
oh yeah that one
what about it
2:29: tommysummers
so radio is agender right
and as the book progresses we see aled and radio becoming more similar
for the live episode he started dressing like radio right
WHAT IF WHAT IF IN ANOTHER UNIVERSE ALED AND RADIO ARE THE SAME PERSON AND WHAT IF THERE'S LIKE. RADIATION FROM THE FABRIC OF SPACETIME THAT GIVES ALED THE ABILITY TO KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO OTHER UNIVERSE RADIO
2:32: felixx
what
why is this what youre thinking about
also why are you trying to rationalize radio silence's behavior
2:33: tommysummers
dunno
i just do
also im not trying to rationalize radio i'm trying to connect radio and aled in my mind
also what else am i supposed to do
I AM STUCK ON THIS BUS AND I WANT OUT AND I LEFT MY HOODIE IN YOU BUNK LET ME OUT
2:37: felixx
uh
you good man
2:38: tommysummers
yep
im great
2:39: felixx
ok then
2:39: tommysummers
so i was talking to your dad about heartstopper yesterday
and he got really happy about it all
he started rambling about all the queer representation
i think you should come out to him
it would make him so happy
and he took it super well when i came out
and he knows that something's up with you
please? for me?
2:43:felixx
look i havent told him because what if he wants me to go back in the closet
hes not publicly out because then all the kids with conservative parents will get cut off from their music
what if he wants me to do the same?
idk
i dont really know what i am yet
it feels too soon to tell him when i dont even know what my labels are
also you did not just try to guilt trip me into coming out??
2:47: tommysummers
felix
you dont need to know what your labels are
i promise he'll be okay with you no matter what
youre his kid. he loves you more than life itself
and yes i did :)
2:48: felixx
fuckass gay boy.
when did you get so smart.
2:49: tommysummers
love you too :)
2:50: felixx
yeah yeah love you too dude
you're still absolutely insane for trying to guilt me into coming out
2:50: tommysummers
yeah well you're still a closeted enby who can't come out to their bisexual father because they're scared of picking labels.
2:53: felixx
meanie :(
look its not that im scared its that i dont want to be a problem
he's still all hover-y after he saw my arms last summer
and then he found out about everything and started havng panic attacks again and the breach tour was so short
i feel like it's my fault because i know he wanted to be back for me starting therapy
and so its not happening
i cant mess this tour up for him
2:57:tommysummer
oh.
felix.
love
he wanted to make the tour shorter.
he fucking loves you you idiot
3:05:tommysummer
i'm sorry. i shouldn't have pushed you to come out to him.
i'll back off about it.
3:08: tommysummer
felix?
are you okay?