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Evan sighed as he leaned against his chair looking over his letter, he needed to print it so he could hand it to his therapist but like..he could print it at the library later or even at his office,
the printer was in the next door room and what if someone walked in and saw it, or worse
what if a teacher saw it, or double worse what if Zoe Murphy herself saw it. She would definitely look at him like a freak and tell everyone so no, his anxiety couldn't handle this.
But what kind of weirdo just sits there for like 10 minutes without doing anything and leaves,
he went looking through his docs for an assignment he could print instead, he came across his save the tree's project, Ms.Chandler wouldn't mind it being printed right, probably, he pressed print.
he sighed and stood up, he had like 20 minutes left, maybe he could stomach a granola
bar…oh who is he kidding, maybe half.
As he was walking over to the printer he saw Connor Murphy standing over it, imagine if you had printed your letter Evan, embarrassing.
“Hey, is this yours, Evan Hansen?”
“I-i'm him uh i-i mean's um yes i-i’ts mine, oh s-sorry” Evan winced , stupid, why couldn't you just talk normally.
Connor handed it to him before looking him over and noticing his cast.
“Hey no one has signed your cast”
“Oh I'm uh, I don't um… h-have any uh f-friends t-to sign it for um me so uh yeah” wow ,
great speaking there Hansen, were you even speaking English
“Do you have a sharpie, I can sign it”
“Oh uh you don't have to”
“Do you have one or not”
“Uh yeah” Evan said, reaching into his backpack and pulling one out. Connor took the sharpie from him and wrote in big messy letters ‘CONNER’
Now we can both pretend we have friends”
For some reason it made Evan smile.
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Evan was chilling under his tree, yes it doesn't really belong to him but it was his non the less, when the bell had rang, obviously this was a normal thing so he gathered his stuff to head for class as he didn't want to be late.
As he was turning the corner he heard voices arguing, it sounded like Zoe and Connor Murphy. He wasn't one to eavesdrop but they were yelling so loud and he could already hear them so he caught the tail end of their argument
“You’re the worst brother ever, I don't even know how we are siblings. You're crazy, insane, I can't even think of the words to describe you!"
"Yeah, well at least I'm not a little bitch like you."
"What have I ever done to you Connor, all you do is hate and hate and when I stand up to it you curse and blame me
"Do you want a list, huh let's see you were born, you're a suck up, you threw me under the bus after I told dad your weed was actually mine, you get inway of all my relationships and should I keep going"
Zoe let out an airless scream like huff sounding frustrated
"I never asked for Any of those things Connor, gosh you suck"
"By suck you mean dick but oh wait that's another thing you hate"
"I don't hate you being gay"
"You just hate that I am"
"Gosh you are really a little bitch, a little bitch who can't understand that he needs to grow up"
Connors eye's flashed with hurt and anger before he stormed away passing by Evan with barley a glance. Zoe seemed to deflate before noticing that There was someone walking up behind. She turned around quickly apology on her tongue
"Sorry, uh you probably heard that" she gave what she probably thought was a reassuring smile
"Do you always treat your brother like that" Evan didn't know why he was talking, he didn't have the confidence for this, why was he speaking!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!???
"Uh what"
Zoe looked about as confused as Evan felt, but no, he just couldn't keep his mouth shut, the damn fucking prescriptions, of course, meds. Instead of taking his normal ass meds he decided to skip that day and look what happened now
"I'm sorry but I cought the last end of your argument but it really seems like he's done a lot for you, it also seems like he's got a mental disorder, no shame I go to therapy, and take meds which I skipped today but don't worry about that."
Zoe was now looking at him baffled at the words coming out of his mouth, he couldn't blame her.
"You have no right to come and berate me on my family and relationships self-centered and assuming much"
"And you have no right to be treating him like that"
"He started it, he starts everything!"
"Hurt people, hurt people Zoe, from what I overheard he's hurt and you're not doing anything to help, you were there during that assembly Alana beck helped hosted right"
Alana Beck, he'd ran into her earlier but hadn't been able to really talk to her, from he knew they were best friends.
He continued "On mental health right, so you obviously know the signs, you're just ignoring them"
Tears pricked at her eyes and the confidence Evans non medicated state had ,had worn off.
"Oh no no no no, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I do.not know where that out burst came from, I'm sorry I've been putting the balme on you this whole time, but I'm sure it must be hard on you too and you probably have your own issues and oh shit the late bell is about to ring, I gotta go, I'm sorry "
And Evan ran down the hall weaving past the people that were going to skip and the other late runners, he arrived in his class just as the late bell rang.
Evan sighed, he had made it
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As school let out Evan was waiting for the bus to come pick him up at the bus station when a car pulled up in front of him
He looked up and was met with Connor Murphy, oh shit, was he here to get revenge for Evan listening in on their conversation
"Hey... I heard your conversation with Zoe, thanks for saying that I guess"
Well this was awkward
"I can uh drive you home "
And Evan doesn't know what came over him but he said
"Sure"