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It was another typical day at aldera high school for izuku.
He would be trying to get books from his locker, walk to the library, or just go to the toilet, and his childhood friend katsuki, as well as his little group would be there. Pestering him, making fun of him, and occasionally beating him up.
Today was no different. Him and izuku were in the same class, and their teacher was reading out who had applied for UA. The thing is izuku is quirkless, but that didn’t stop him from wanting to become a hero. So he applied for UA.
As his teacher read out his name the room stilled for a second. Everyone stopped talking, stopped swinging on there chairs, and stopped discussing who would get into UA out of everybody in their class. The room was quiet except for the faint breaths of everyone who was staring at izuku. It stayed like that for a minute before the whole room erupted into laughter. Izuku shrunk into his chair, arms over his head, trying to hide himself.
“You think a quirkless, wannabe like you could ever make it past the UA gates?!”
Katsuki laughed, glaring at izuku.
The teacher just shushed the class and continued on like nothing happened. That wasn’t unusual for izuku, sadly. None of the teachers cared enough to even spare him a glance when he told them what was happening. Katsuki always, somehow, found out that izuku had snitched. Ending in which izuku would get beat up. So he just never went to the teachers for help at all.
Every few second or so, katsuki would throw a scrunched up piece of paper at izuku. Each of them having an insult written on it. Izuku didn’t say anything or do anything back. He just tried to focus on the lesson. Even if that was quite hard to do with getting paper thrown at you every second, izuku still tried. Because that’s all he could do…was try.
After the bell rung for classes to be over, izuku started packing up his notebooks, getting ready to leave. But that wasn’t going to happen if katsuki and his gang was there.
When izuku tried to walk out katsuki blocked the entrance. Glaring down at him with an amused smirk.
“Kach- katsuki, please move.”
Izuku begged. He had almost called katsuki, kacchan. A name he used to call him through their childhood.
Katsuki scoffed before shoving him up against the wall with a loud thud.
“Listen. You’re never going to make it to UA. Never going to be a hero. So stop trying to compete with me.”
Katsuki said, threateningly. His smirk gone. A now annoyed and frustrated expression on his face as he looked down at izuku.
“I-I’m not trying to compete with you! And you watch me! I’ll make it into UA! I’ll become a hero!”
Izuku argued back. Which only irked katsuki more. He grabbed izuku by the collar, slightly pulling him off the wall and then shoving him back against it harder and with a louder thud this time.
“Bullshit.”
Katsuki spat.
“You’re never going to be anything. And you are competing with me. Trying to be better than me. Well you aren’t and never will be.”
He growled, glaring at izuku like he just insulted him.
Katsuki then threw izuku down onto the floor by his collar. They just stared at each other before katsuki spoke up again.
“You know. I guess there is a way you could get into UA and become a hero.”
Katsukis smirk returned. Izuku frozen confused but somewhat…hopeful?
“Just pray you’ll be born with a quirk in your next life. And take a swan dive off the roof of the building.”
Katsuki and his gang laughed before turning around and leaving. Leaving izuku there. His hopefulness gone and the back of his head hurting like hell. Izuku didn’t know how to react. He just froze there.
It had to be at least 10 minutes before izuku finally stood up, grabbing his bag and leaving. His head and emotions a mess. When he had arrived home he collapsed in his bed. Katsukis words replaying in his head, over and over again, getting louder.
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The next day at school Izuku and katsuki didn’t look at each other. Not once. Katsuki didn’t say anything to Izuku. Izuku didn’t say anything to katsuki. It wasn’t the same for katsukis friends though. While katsuki was in detention for something stupid like using his quirk in school, his little gang, cornered izuku and beat him up. Leaving him with a nosebleed and bruises over his arms. They all laughed while they did it. Izuku was used to this. This happened atleast weekly. But now…it for some reason hurt more. More than usual. Which was weird because they hadn’t hurt him any different to how they usually did. And then katsukis words replayed in izukus mind as katsukis little group finally walked away, still joking and laughing about izuku.
The next few days were the same, katsukis friends would beat up izuku and make fun of him, but katsuki wouldn’t be there. Which was unusual in two ways. They never beat him up regularly, only when izuku, quote on quote “pissed them off to much.” And that wasn’t as usual as you think it would. And it was also weird because katsuki wouldn’t be there joining in on the bullying. He wouldn’t even look at izuku as they passed eachother in the halls.
The bullying only got more intense after those few days, wIzuku started getting black eyes, scars all over his arms and legs, he was in constant pain which was weird because through talk of these years they had bullied him, it had never been this bad. And yet. Katsuki still wasn’t the one doing any of it, only his friends. That was until one day a couple weeks later after the bullying had started to intensify
Katsuki watched, not joined in, as his little gang beat up izuku. Worse than they ever had before. Well…katsuki wasn’t exactly watching. He was looking away. An unreadable expression on his face.
He had finally looked at izuku as his little gang ‘finished’ beating izuku up. He then took a step forward, looking down at izuku. Katsuki was tense for some reason. He was as stiff as a board and his jaw was clenched so hard that izuku was surprised katsuki wasn’t hurting himself by doing that.
Katsuki just looked at izuku for a couple seconds. And before katsuki spoke up a hint of hesitation and concern flashed in his eyes. But he still spoke.
“Still haven’t tried out diving off the roof? That’s a shame.”
Katsuki then quickly turned around and started walking away. His group following him soon after. Izuku just sat there. Bloodied up and bruised. Not knowing what to do. Katsukis words replayed in his head, both times he had told izuku to kill himself. For some reason…izuku was considering it. All the harsh words, the years of bullying, the years of pain and suffering. Now actually came crashing down on him. He knew he had always felt sad. Depressed. But he had never actually processed his emotions fully. But now…now he was. All it had taken was katsuki telling izuku to kill himself for izuku to actually process how much the bullying had affected him.
Izuku didn’t show up to class when the bell rang, katsuki didn’t think much about it. Izuku was probably just at the nurse. Most likely snitching on katsuki and his group, but little did he know izuku was currently walking up the stairs that leading to the roof.
Izuku still had blood running down his nose that he was unbothered to wipe off, still had scars that needed to be disinfected, bruises that needed to heal. But they wouldn’t get to.
Izuku stumbled towards the edge, taking off his shoes first. As he looked down his breath caught in his throat. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
“I wish I got to meet all might, I wish I got into UA and became the no.1 hero. But mainly. I wish I had confessed to kacchan…that I loved him. And even if he is the reason I’m doing this I forgive him for everything.”
Izuku had said aloud to himself. Admitting to no one except to himself. He had to admit it. Even if no one would ever know.
Izuku than took one more deep breath before he leaned forward and let himself fall. As he was falling it was like everything slowed down for a couple of seconds. Like he was flying.
“Flying. I wanted that to be my quirk, that’s what I told kacchan when we were kids. I told him, “one day, I am gonna grow wings!” And…I guess today would be the day I do.”
That was izukus final thoughts.
Katsuki had saw the scene. The pool of blood around izuku. Guilt and regret had hit him like a truck. This was all his fault. But one thing that caught his eye was the shiny limited edition all might card drenched in izukus blood. It was in izukus hand. The same shiny limited edition all might card him and izuku had matching of. Izuku still carried it.
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It had been a year since izukus death. Katsuki had spent countless nights crying all night not sleeping or crying himself to sleep, he even sometimes wished it was him instead of izuku. But now 24/7, he carried his shiny limited edition all might card around in his pocket.
Katsuki had made it into UA and it had been around 2 months since he had officially started at his new school. He loved UA… but there was a part that he hated. He hated that it reminded him of izuku.
Katsuki trained night and day. Wishing izuku was here, training with him so they could compete. Katsuki hated people competing with him. But now. He had wished him and izuku competed more.
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Throughout the months at UA his class had been attacked by the league if villains atleast a dozen times by this point. Katsuki wished izuku was there. Helping everyone and making sure no one got hurt.
But now, now there was a war with the League of villains, with shigiraki, all for one. And katsuki was on the frontlines. Helping everyone wished izuku was here with him right now.
Katsuki was currently fighting shigiraki. The battle was intense, meaning katsuki was covered in blood. It reminded him of izuku. The pain reminded him of izuku.
“Was this how izuku felt every time we beat him up?”
He thought.
The battle only intensified. Everyone was getting hurt left and right. Katsuki knew he had to do something. So in a last ditch attempt, even with best jeanist telling him not to, katsuki did a huge explosion, that made his heart explode.
But in his final moments, just before that explosion. Katsuki thought to himself.
“I wish I was nicer to izuku, I wish we became hero’s together, I wish we fought for the no.1 spot, but mainly… I wish I confessed that I loved that I loved him, and that I deeply regret and apologise for all the pain I caused him. Even if I didn’t get his forgiveness, my mind wouldn’t change…”
As the explosion was in the middle of happening he thought of izuku again.
“I remember izuku told me that he wanted to fly, he wanted that as his quirk. He told me “one day, I am gonna grow wings!” his day had come… And I guess today will be mine.”
That was katsukis final thoughts.
A pool of blood surrounded him. He was dead before he hit the ground. Even as best meaning begged silently. “Please not him. He’s just a kid…” he knew that katsuki would be dead. Because katsuki always wanted to be dead. And he always got what he wanted.
Next him sat his shiny limited edition all night card, soaked in his blood.the same shiny limited edition all night card that him and izuku had matching of.