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Laurens watches the year like it’s a held note that will never come to a proper end.
America first. Always America first, because that’s where he died.
He sees Hamilton bent over papers, ink-stained, jaw tight, arguing with men who never slept in camps and never bled for abstractions. He recognizes the posture immediately: the way Hamilton leans into the future as if daring it to refuse him. It should make Laurens smile. It almost does.
Almost.
Because this is the part Laurens never trusted: the moment when ideals get translated into clauses, when liberty acquires conditions, when urgency is replaced by patience. He knows why it has to happen. He just hates how clean it looks from a distance, how bloodless.
He wonders, briefly, whether he would have learned to accept it — or whether Hamilton would have learned to forgive him for not trying.
Then France presses in, loud even from across the ocean.
Laurens feels it before he understands it: hunger, debt, anger thick enough to choke on. He sees Lafayette moving through salons and assemblies like a man trying to hold water in his hands. Earnest, hopeful, still believing in the good faith of institutions that have never once returned it.
Too late, Laurens thinks, with the terrible certainty of someone who has already watched one world burn.
This is what no one tells you about dying young for an idea: you don’t stop caring. You just lose the ability to be heard.
1788 stretches between continents like a fault line: a revolution is learning restraint on one side while a nation that waited too long is remembering how to scream on the other side. Laurens watches Hamilton building guardrails and Lafayette approaching the cliff, and for the first time he understands the cost of survival.
If he could speak he wouldn’t say be careful or be bold.
He would only say,
Don’t forget why we were in such a hurry.