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The day you came over
And watched me play video games
Until you got bored and climbed into my lap and kissed me
And made me feel like I hadn’t been kissed in a century
I could have told you then
I could have easily told you then
But my basement smelled like musty cardboard
And I didn’t want to always associate loving you with damp recycling
The night the power went out
And it was 100 degrees and there was no breeze
And we laid on your bed in nothing but our underwear
Too hot to touch each other except for your pinky against my wrist
I could have told you then
I could have easily told you then
But I was a sweaty mess and the air was already so thick
Without breathing such heavy words into the room
The night you got drunk
And you took a cab straight from the bar to my house
And told me that you don’t always say it out loud
But that you wanted me to know you really, really liked me
I could have told you then
I could have easily told you then
But like and love are so fucking similar yet so fucking different
And though you'd told me before, it somehow felt new and it was enough
The day you told off your ex
The day you finally told off your ex
When you came to me immediately after
And said things were good and done once and for all
I could have told you then
I could have easily you then
But I didn’t think you would want to go so quickly from finally feeling free
To however hearing “I love you” would have made you feel
The day after you slept with that girl you met
And I said you and I hadn’t made each other any promises
That you hadn’t done anything wrong
And you cried and said that you felt like you had
I could have told you then
I could have easily told you then
But you were already feeling bad
And I didn’t want to make you feel worse
The night you left work
And came to my place instead of going home
And said all you wanted to do was sleep but you wanted to sleep with me
So we got into bed and I was big spoon to your little
I could have told you then
I could have easily told you then
But I think you were out as soon as I pulled you close
So I held you and thought “iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou” until sleep took me too
The moment I first saw you
When your eyes landed on mine
And stayed just a second longer than they maybe should have
Before turning away with a smile
I could have told you then
I could have easily told you then
But I didn't even know your name
So I told myself I would wait until the time was right