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It’s around mid green album. Mikey is still apart of the band for now. During recordings and ideas for their next album they were planning but during this time,Rivers’was mostly being an ass. Mikey was usually tired of it, one time, Rivers once charged Brian 2k for his guitar being out of tune. Mikey was pissed about it, during their break, Mikey pulled Brian out to the hallway
“Brian, stop letting Rivers pushing you around. I swear you can’t just let him push you around whenever he wants, it’s not okay for him to do that to you Brian.”
“It’s fine, Rivers is just being Rivers..”
“Whatever man…” Mikey left Brian there knowing he’d probably wouldn’t convince Brian for jackshit.
That was a week ago. Brian was fully aware of his ‘boyfriend’ being a total ass, he didn’t mind that much, kinda turned him on at times. Brian knew that Rivers is still that shy boy he knew from 94’. But during interviews it was like it was 94’ again and Brian thought Rivers acted cute. Rivers was one who didn’t like interviews, as if he was afraid of microphones, so Brian just thought of this as an excuse for Rivers. During practices, Rivers acted a bit more of an ass than usual due to stress and him thinking his band mates are complete idiots. Mikey didn’t like it whatsoever, Pat didn’t care, Brian and Mikey would talk about it but Brian would defend Rivers no matter what.
1 week later
Brian knocked on the door of Rivers’ place, they haven’t been alone or had some time together for a while, Brian just wish they’ll spend some time together. A few minutes later Rivers’ finally opened the door. He seemed a bit tired and as if he was roadkill. Brian didn’t mind, thought he looked cute <:
“What do you need Bri?” Rivers was a bit irritated, sure during 94’ and 96’ they were ‘couplish’. He knew that wasn’t a real word but good enough to describe them. While looking at Brian he saw he had a grocery bag with his favorite snacks?
“Well I just thought I could stop by, and plus I kinda miss you….yknow?” He said the last bit of his words at a whispered level, he , doesn’t want to be seen as corny by his ‘lover’
“Fine, just get in. Also why’d you bring snacks?” He saw closely how it was specifically his favorites
“Oh yeah! I brought your favorites, and yes they are vegan” he smiled at Rivers, look down at the smaller man. The same smile that Mikey said it made him look like he was Rivers’ dog.
Once Rivers stepped to the side Brian stepped inside the familiar place. Around 6 or 7 maybe even like 1,8 or 2 minutes later they were sitting together on the couch. Brian then lays his head on Rivers’ lap, while he looks up at Rivers
“Why have you’ve been acting like a total jerk this past month?” He said with curiosity purely visible
“It’s-… don’t worry about it, Bri.” He then started brushing his fingers through Brian’s soft black locks.
“Oh come on Riv’s, I know something is bothering you… please just tell me?” He said while begging, he hated when Rivers’ would act like this.
“It’s nothing Bri, just don’t worry why I’ve been acting like that….” He didn’t want Brian to be mad or be upset at him if he actually told him.
Brian gave up trying to pry Rivers’ into spilling why he was being a total jerk. Few seconds later Brian then started to lean into Rivers’ touch. He most definitely beating the allegations of him acting as Rivers’ dog. He did care but didn’t since he loved how Rivers would give him attention at these times.
“Can we cuddle, but like in the bed cause I’m getting too uncomfortable on the couch”
He looked up at Rivers again from his lap
“Yeah sure…” He’d hate to admit but he loved when Brian would say things straight out of his mind. Since he didn’t have to seem all lovely dovey. But at times he wondered if Brian could actually read minds… nah he’s a lil too slow…
Once they got to the room and flopped down on the bed, Brian instantly held onto Rivers.
“Your acting as if we haven’t met up or seen each other in a light year…” he felt a bit confused by Brian doing that
“Well I just miss this..” Thanks to rehearsals and practice it made Brian missed the time he use to spend with his ‘boyfriend’
Once Brian said that, he immediately realized that maybe Brian saw this whole thing between them more then just causal hook ups
“Uhm… Brian you do know we’re not dating, right…?” He said while looking at Brian
“…. We aren’t?” He said with confusion and hurt
“Uhm yeah, I thought we were both clear on the fact we aren’t dating?…”he looked to his side. Brian was filled with hurt at that
“No?…. Well uhm….. I-… I guess we’re not then..” he didn’t want to be seen as pussy by Rivers, or worse, cry in-front of him. He’s seen Rivers cry but Rivers had never seen Brian cry.
After that, everything then felt awkward. The air in the tension was thick enough to cut with a chainsaw. Around half an hour
Brian held Rivers tightly which he then let go.
“I gotta get going..” he didn’t want to stay, anymore. It was getting awkward plus he got his heart broken
“Oh Bri…. Is it because I said we aren’t actually dating?… well it’s not my fault you were dumb enough to actually think we were.” At first his tone was soft and comforting until it turned to this voice of someone who’d mock or bully you probably (loser)
“Maybe…” he didn’t want to fully be seen as a pussy
“Oh come on. Brian, you know we were never gonna work out or even actually be together for a long time”. He now saw why Brian was considered dumb in high school..
“So….?” He was dumb enough to think that he’d and Rivers would actually work out… I mean they did for 7 years.
“Brian, don’t be silly. We both know we’d never probably end up married or have a happy ending Brian” he knew Brian was too dweeb to even speak against him.
Brian got pissed and left without saying anything. Once he got home it was very hot there for some reason. He ignored it. He went on to flop down on his bed. He hugged tightly onto his pillow, he just wished maybe he was truly with Rivers. Surely he’d have another chance soon again or Rivers would change his mind again, right?
Around 3 hours and 2 minutes of Brian just watching shitty things on TV, he then fell asleep.
He woke up, somewhere new…? It was a nursery that was painted with a baby blue color. On night stand it had a birth certificate. The birth certificate said, ‘Laurel Bell- Cuomo’. He then felt something in his pocket, it was some future tech thing. Almost like an iPod that got released 5 months after green album, but more advanced. It was 5:34 PM on February 20, 2008? He was looking around saw a crib, baby toys, and everything any nursery would have.
Half a minute later, he saw Rivers step in the room holding a little girl in his arms and a bottle in his free hand.
“Bri, can you feed her while I set up her crib for her to sleep..?” He hands Laurel to Brian.
Brian quickly grabbed her in his arms where he fed her the bottle.
“You’re still not use to it, huh?”he smiled
Brian tried to speak, but for some reason he couldn’t, so he just nodded instead
“I’m happy we got a surrogacy” he smiled at Brian
Rivers then kissed Brian on his cheek. He then layed his head on Brian’s shoulder.
Brian wanted this, he wanted a happy life with Rivers, even with kids or not. He just wanted Rivers to be with him like this.
Brian can feel how small and warm Laurel is. She looked exactly like Rivers but she had his eyes and his hair color. He tried to speak up and he was finally able to talk
“She looks like you, almost an exact copy” he said with joy in his voice
“Brian, it’s getting hot in here…” his voice started sounding as if he was fading away.
Brian then jolted up, instantly awake. He looked at his arms, his shoulder, Laurel never existed, and Rivers won’t ever come back to him. Laurel will never exist, she will never exist. Rivers won’t ever come back to him, Rivers probably never truly loved him as well.
He looked up, the TV was still on and it was still hot inside his room.
Time skip ( 1 year later)
Mikey quit the band and he replaced by Scott now. After maladroit and Rivers being an ass during green album, Rivers finally calmed down from his whole temper tantrum. Brian kept trying to make a move again maybe try to change Rivers’ mind.
One day, Rivers was just watching some show on his TV , until he heard a knock on his door. He stepped out saw no one, he looked both left and right till he looked down. Two little black cats were in the box. He immediately brought them in. He has no idea where they came from or who brought them to him.
He brought the kittens in where he started playing with them, he knew he’d probably had to head out to get supplies. He started looking for some meat in his fridge, luckily he found some salmon. He cut it up and placed it down in a plate for them to eat.
It was night by that time and Rivers knew he’d had to go sleep soon. He used some blankets to try and make a bed for the kittens and once he did, he flopped down on his bed.
Once Rivers woke up it was 6AM. He probably knew he’d have to have someone watch the kittens for him for now. But who?.. who even would be willing to do a favor for him. As if he was thinking he then thought of Brian… whatever it’d only be for like an hour. He went towards his land line where he dialed Brian’s number.
“Hello?” Brian responded
“Hey Brian, I kinda need a favor from you, I need you to watch uhm, my cats for me while I’m gone getting supplies”
Once Brian heard that he immediately felt a wave of happiness.
“So can you, Bri?”
He heard his nickname, the one nickname no one used, except Rivers.. but it’s been a while since he’d call him that.
“No yeah! Totally I can do that!”
Before Rivers even got a chance to speak, Brian had instantly hanged up to head to Rivers place.
Not even 20 minutes later Brian was already there.
“I- …. I got here as fast as I could!”
He said while trying to catch his breath since he ran from the parking lot of Rivers apartment.
“Uhm… we’ll just say here and watch my kittens until I get back, please?” Rivers just wanted Brian to quickly get out since everything went awkward between them in 01’.
“Alright.” He said with a smile
Once Brian got in the house he saw the cat’s and that’s when he went all soft for them.
“Awh, they’re adorable. Did you name them yet or nah?” He was just happy that he’s actually getting a chance to be with Rivers. He was very desperate to be with him in any way.
“.. still thinking for names” he still is but maybe Brian can help… yeah no
Rivers was gone now, off to the pet store to get some supplies. Brian stayed back to watch the kittens and that’s it, but he wanted to change it. He just wants to go back to how it use to be when they were close.
“You guys are so cute…. I knew Rivers would’ve loved you guys.” Brian had set this plan up for months now.
“Let’s just hope I can win Rivers back… maybe…” he continued to play with the kittens.
An hour later, a plate with half eaten salmon and milk in a bowl, and where Brian had fallen asleep on the couch. The kittens were napping on Brian’s lap or around him. Once Rivers came home and saw that. He went to place down the bag on his table. He sighed and then went to sit next to Brian. He turned on the TV where some shitty show was on.
While watching it, it started getting more late by the minute and by the minute he started going to sleep. Once he fully actually fell asleep his head fell down on Brian’s shoulder.
Around half an hour later. Brian had woken up and saw Rivers. He immediately felt a wave of happiness hit him. He pulled Rivers closer by his waist. This everything Brian ever wanted, he only ever wanted to live a happy life with Rivers. After, Brian then fell asleep again, his head fell on top of Rivers’s head. Once he did that, Rivers woke up. He didn’t freak out or anything, he was used to being grabbed by Brian, but it’s been a while since they were in a position like this. Rivers the sighed where he then tried to carry Brian to the room, so he’d at least be comfortable when he sleeps.
Rivers was fully able to carry Brian to the bed where he tried to use the lesbian sleep protection method. But of course when he was trying to sleep Brian got past it and went to cuddle on to Rivers. He looked to his side, he had to admit he felt guilt ever since that night and he missed when he’d be like this with Brian. Maybe he was scared of the fact someone wasn’t using him at all. He started to slowly cry, he felt so much guilt for what he’d done to Brian. He was also too scared to admit that he’d actually missed Brian. Rivers did in fact know that he had missed Brian.
The other man woke up thanks to tears falling on his face. Once he fully woke up he looked around the familiar place, he looked to his side and saw Rivers crying.
“Rivers…?” He said with worry
“…. Brian…. Brian I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done to you, I’m so sorry. I-… I was just scared of someone truly loving me. I was scared about that what we had was fake… “ tears rolled down his face, worse than a water fall.
“… oh Rivers….” He sighed and just hugged him tightly.
“I’m sorry Bri…” he hugged Brian back
“It’s fine…, time is what we need to figure everything out, okay? We’ll move at your own pace and we should communicate better this time…” he smiled at Rivers
“Your too good for your own sake Bri…”
He said while wiping his tears
Brian just smiled and kissed him on his cheek.
Rahh time skip cuz I’m lazyyy (3 years later)
Weezer won their first ever Grammy in 2005, within those 3 years both Rivers and Brian have been together for a while. One thing Brian noticed was that Rivers had a friend since 1997, her name was name Kyoko ito. They were close, but Brian never questioned it.
“Rivers, you think gay marriage might be legal or nah?” He asked his boyfriend with curiosity mostly to make him laugh
“Uh probably not Bri, why?” He said while looking down to his boyfriend who was laying his head head on his lap
“Cause I wanna marry you, what else?” He said while smiling
Rivers kinda cringe and thought Brian was slow for thinking that, of course Brian believes in happy endings. Rivers did in fact love Brian dearly but the world would most definitely not accept them…
“You’re so corny…” he said teasingly.
“So?”
“Well who wouldn’t want to marry the love of their life?”
“I mean I guess…”
“What do you mean you guess!?” He laughed a bit
“Im joking Bri, of course I’d like to marry you as well…”
One night, Rivers was acting clingy than he usually did.
“For how strong you’re holding onto me I might break a bone…”
“Oh- uhm, sorry”
“It’s fine Rivers..”
An hour later, Rivers spoke up with a trembling voice
“Brian, I think we should break up…”
“… what?” his heart dropped to floor, and once it the floor it shattered.. He tried his best to hold in his tears
“I want to break up , Brian.” He didn’t want to break up with him, he just cared what others might think of them…
“But why….!?” He was devastated to hear the person he’s loved for years to suddenly just want to break up with him!
“Oh come on Brian, like I said 3 years ago. We’re never getting a happy ending together, I love you to death but we can’t. The world wouldn’t expect us…”
“So? The only thing that matters as long as we’re happy and not harming anyone…!?”
“… I know…. But I care for my image! I care to be seen as an idol and how the fans see me!”
“So you care more for what others think than what we could probably have!?”
“… yes, yes I do…. And you were dumb enough to really think we could actually end up married or anything. I’m sorry but that is never happening…. I still love and care for you, it’s just I can’t have the people see me like this… like some fag.”
“Fag!? So? What’s wrong with being a little queer or just queer!? We’ve been on and off since 93’! So you just want to throw all of that away like nothing!?”
“Of course it isn’t ‘nothing’ you mean everything to me! It’s just we can’t continue like this since-… since what would the people think, the fans?”
“Pfft…. So did any of this even mean anything to you in the first place?…”
“Of course it did! I just don’t want the public or fans to harass us for being queer!”
“Whatever… I can’t believe I even fell for you in the first place..”after he said that he picked up his stuff and left Rivers’s place. Once he got home he laid on his bed and cried himself to sleep. Maybe in another life they could be happy together?
A year after Rivers got married to Kyoko.
21 years later. Rivers still thinks about the chances or the ending he could’ve had with Brian…
Brian still likes Rivers even through everything. He always watched him during shows or practices. Brian always had a jealousy for Kyoko, she had what he wanted. A happy life with Rivers and even kids… maybe it was never meant to be?