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Sitting on the bathroom floor,
Open wounds on my thighs
I cry, tears welled up in my eyes as
I wonder what I’m doing to me
Should I continue to live my life or
Jump off a bridge,
and sleep peacefully
I dream about ending it all
So I must not suffer anymore
No one in the world
will ever know
Wait please just Wait,
one more day
Just one more day
After a phone call,
I lift myself onto my feet
Covering up my feelings underneath
I walk out on my heart
I push it all away for another day
Or for the knife
I walk around the town
With nothing but a bratty facade and scars all over my living corpse
Trying to make the cool kids jealous of me
Coz my life is a competition
That’s my only ambition to
Live through the day
Just another day till my endgame
How many has it been?
Should I just end it all?
So I must not be in pain anymore
No one in this shit hole
will ever know
Wait please just Wait,
one more day
Just one more day
After entertaining the masses,
I went back to my mess of a bed
Screaming into a pillow hugging
The toys that my friend got for me
It fills with doubt wondering out loud if I should really leave
Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow
Then I reschedule it for another tomorrow
This happens 7 times a week
Let me just end it, just let me end it
My brain’s not listening
Just kill me I plead
To the stars
That’s the same colour as the lights
Of heaven
What am I thinking?
I’ll probably see fires when it’s all over
Should I just end it all?
So I don’t t need to cry for evermore
No one in Earth, Heaven or Hell
Or in a million galaxies
Will ever know
Let’s just last one more day
Then we can suffer and be in pain
And then
I don’t know
I just don’t know
I’ll just suffer another day
And hope for the best
Till I’m on my deathbed