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osamu dazai.
the suicide lover
the man who always fakes a smile everywhere he goes
the man who is empty inside
the man who is sitting on the bathroom floor covered in blood. his blood.
dazai looked down at his thin wrists covered in gashes that went deep deep enough to need stitches he watched as the cuts bled onto the floor making a pool of blood under him. osamu reached for his phone pulling up one contact the contact of a slug, a slug who always beckoned to his call… most times.
You: chuuyaaaaa!
You: sluggg
You: chibiii
You: chuuya u knw I lve u riht?
You: chuuya I’m sorry for leaving you 4 years ago
You: I love you
Sent at: Tuesday 2:29 am
He sent the texts not expecting a reply, osamu looked over at the pill bottle on his counter he reached over grabbing it, taking at least 10 pills ‘that should be enough to kill me’ he thought he laid his head back on the wall closing his eyes.
“I’m sorry odasaku.” He mumbled as he put the pills into his mouth and dry swallowed them
He thought of odasaku in his last moments.
odasaku would be disappointed in him.
he didn’t change.
he was still the same man from 4 years ago.
the same demon prodigy.
the same one the held oda’s dying body in his arms while he cried
—
Dazai opened his eyes slightly, he heard yelling but, he was too out of it to tell who was yelling
“dazai”
“dazai”
“Dazai!” The voice rang out as the person with the voice shook dazai
“Go away..” he mumbled his voice weak
he blinked a few times his eyes his vision blurring.
His vision cleared enough to see who was in front of him, it was fucking chuuya nakahara.
when did he get here?
how did he get in?
why..
why did he come.
he didn’t want chuuya here, to see him like this
he hated how chuuya was looking at him with pity
chuuya held dazai tightly yelling at him to stay awake
“chuuya..why.. why are you here..?” he managed to say his throat hurt so bad
chuuya looked at dazai, he looked like he was gonna start to cry “you dumbass!” chuuya said his hands shaking as he held onto dazai “you can’t die on me, I’m supposed to be the one who kills you!”
dazai laughed.. he looked at chuuya smiling “you know I have to leave you..I’m sorry.”
dazai closed his eyes again
“I love you chuuya.” That was dazai’s last words before he passed out