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Starman, do you remember when we first met?
I was with my brothers. Dad had asked for us to get supplies for our bombs, but we had to set up camp because it got too late.
I was stargazing with Toby. He fell asleep, same with the others. I was the only one awake. I couldn’t sleep. I was about to start counting sheep when…
I saw a shooting star in the dark night sky. I made a wish…
It took me a while to realise that it wasn’t a shooting star. It was something else…
It was you! Isn’t that weird? A boy who shot down from the sky… hardly remembering anything about himself…
You couldn’t remember your name, so we had to give you one. Of course, they left it to the 8 year old. I named you “Starman”, for obvious reasons.
A nice family from the other side of town took you in, and since then, we’ve been joined at the hip! I can’t remember how life was like before you.
You know, I’m still shocked you’re an Air Rider now. We thought it would be so funny if you applied as a joke. And then I felt you shake me awake bright and early at about half 7 in the morning a few months later because you got a letter back saying you were accepted.
You had to go through an INSANE amount of training, but I was so proud!
I felt so much anticipation for your first race. I made that banner, I made a shirt… I even made your favourite food!
But…
Something weird happened once that day came.
I went to go find my seat. I sat down, waiting for that moment.
For you to go up to that start line.
When you walked on, you scanned the crowd, looking around until…
You saw me.
You looked directly at me…
and gave me a wave.
…What was that feeling? That flutter in my heart. I couldn’t help but notice… Thump… Thump… Thump…
My heart was racing as you sped off. I could hardly focus on anything.
I’ve always felt different around you compared to anyone else, but I think that was the first time I really noticed.
Since then, that feeling hasn’t gone away.
You make me feel happy, nervous, excited and nauseous all at the same time. My heart races faster and faster when your around.
I think… this is… love? I think, deep down, I’ve always felt that kind of way for you. But I only really found out that day.
Dad can’t find out. Good Nova, no! Can you imagine it? He’d go on this big long rant about how I should prioritise the bomb production and how you’ll just slow me down and… just…
I don’t know if I even wanna… do that. I mean, I LOVE bombs! But… Dad really wants me to take his place as the King’s subordinate. I don’t really… feel… all that…
…interested…
in that.
I don’t know if I wanna tell you about my feelings, either. What we have right now is so special. It’s perfect. I get to be close to you without you questioning it. We can do almost everything couples can do. Almost.
If anything changes… then…
…
I could lose everything.
You… my father…
where would I go then?
…I want to be able to make up my mind.
That’s my wish.