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It had to be with you
It had to be for you
Otherwise, it would be just another pain
Otherwise, it wouldn't be love
The kind that the world doesn't see
I love you.
In the middle of everything Cas still protected Dean, it doesn't matter where, when nor from
whom he does. And it's the only order that the Seraphim Castiel hasn't disobeyed.
protect dean winchester.
Dean is all alone, knees slightly flexed, drowned, not in thoughts, but in anguish; he is stuck there. There is nothing much to do when Chuck…
God is out there, and Sam and Jack.... In this gap, Dean's phone rings, finally adding quite a sound from the phone's vibration. He looks up, establishing a shattered face; he ignores the call clearly from Sam. In a movement, his calloused hands are scrubbing his face, nearly scratching them from a kind of anger; he scrubs a bit of his hair.
he can't, or doesn't even bother to see what is happening around him.
He sobs, and for a brief moment, memories are passing through his mind. These are the kind of memories that come out of your head when you are almost dying. He almost questioned what passed through Cas's mind, if he thought anything because Cas was
already too busy heavily gazing at Dean's almond-greenish eyes.
Dean is feeling empty. Not the same way as Cas.
Now there was Empty all over Cas. Dean assumed that the Empty even touched the tip of the angel's trench coat, the same clothing that Dean had touched when giving the mixtape with thirteen of Dean's favourite Led Zeppelin songs. The same black goo touched the collar of the seraphim's faded beige cloth in Purgatory along with Benny. Now Dean could resemble the familiar smell of Cas's aftershave (that surprisingly lasted all that time in Purgatory) with the scent almost feeling of the Purgatory's surroundings.
It had to be with you
It had to be for you
Otherwise, it would be just another
Otherwise, it wouldn't be
The kind that the world doesn't see
Yes. Dean lost it. Lost all the moments he could have with Castiel. But at what cost? They are at the end of the world. In this way, they were both touched by the Empty.