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Lucy was in the shower.. Tim’s shower in fact. He let her stay with him when she couldn’t go back to the apartment after Jackson.. and now she was in the shower crying, trying to calm down so she can come out. After 10 minutes she got herself together and got out of the shower. Tim gave her some clothes to sleep in, they were way too big for her, but it was comfortable and somehow very soothing because of his smell on them. She felt so broke and shocked after everything that happened that day. But she couldn’t cry all night, they have to sleep, they have to find Angela, she need to be calm, she can’t fall apart right now. Lucy washed her face one more time and went out to Tim.
He was on the couch, she thought she is sleeping on the couch.
- I thought I will sleep on the couch
- I wont have a guest sleep on the couch
- And I am not gonna kick you out of your own bed, come on get up.
He didn't want to fight so he got up and let Lucy have the couch. It was comfortable to be honest, maybe she can have some sleep that she wouldn’t at home. Tim wasn’t sure what to say or do, he wanted to comfort her, help her feel better if thats possible right now. But he just didn’t know how… than he asked.
- Do you need anything?
- Last 24 hours back? - Lucy said.
- Im afraid I don't have that power.
- A hug?! I don't know …
- Of course .. Come here.. Its okay
- Thanks
He hugged her. For the first time he knew her. He held her when he got her out of that barrel, but that was different. Now she was here in his house, in his clothes, sad and broken, but somehow she managed to get herself together. When she made distance she had tears in her eyes, she looked vulnerable and tired, but he couldn’t ignore the fact that she is so beatiful, his eyes wandered to her lips and back to her eyes. She was still very close and he felt something.. something that could not happen now. Maybe it was just the circumstances and the closeness. He said good night and went to his bedroom.
Tim just lies on his bed filled with the last moment with Lucy. Did he felt something? No.. they are friends, that was just a weird moment - he thinks. He can’t sleep though just lays there. If he is honest he is a little worried for Lucy, she just watched her best friend and room mate die.
She sits on the couch… there is this very strong urge in her to go after Tim.. for comfort maybe? Would be a kiss comforting her? No that would be too much, she cant just go to him and kiss him.. or whatever she wants to do. She is grieving.. its just a weird feeling .. she cant do things like this because she is upset.. that would ruin everything. But she felt so safe in his arms, for that couple of seconds she felt calm and safe. But no.. no.. no… she cant do anything stupid .. rushed… not when… god Jackson.. she cant believe it yet. How will she go back to that apartment, the apartment that was their happy place… and the tears begin to fall.. first just the quiet tears.. and then she feels so overwhelmed .. she starts crying.
Tim can hear it.. she is not loud, but he is just not that far away behind that door.. he is desperate to go outside and hug her, but maybe he shouldn't… maybe she wants to be alone.. no he cant just listen how she cries in his living room, so he gets up and goes to her. She is on the couch laying on te pillow crying.. trying to be quiet as possible. He doest want to scare her so he opens the door with a “loud” movement, so she can hear it…. But she is far away in her thoughts with tears in her eyes.
Tim goes closer and sits on the floor next to the couch.. she slowly looks at him..
- Im sorry .. im sorry, didnt want to wake you
- Hey.. it's okay.. do you want me to sit here with you? Do you need anything? Just tell me what can I do for you?
- You dont have to.
- I know.. I want to.
- It’s okay I am fine. I just can’t sleep, I feel too overwhelmed.
- Come with me - and he reached out to grab her hand.
She accepted it and they went to the kitchen, where he grabbed a big mug and a tea box from one of the kitchen cabinets. He offered her the box to choose a teabag she likes.
- Woooow … Bradford has a variations of tea like this.
She was so surprised, there was calming teas and a lot of fruit tea too. She chose a calming camomile tea and put it in the mug while he made the hot water. When the water was boiling he poured it in the mug and gave it to her.
- Thank you, that’s perfect.
- You are welcome.
He couldn’t say anything else, didn’t know what to say or do. Actually deep down he wanted to invite her in his room. Not to do anything like that, not even hugging or touching just simply be close if she needs anything. Just being there watch out for her, maybe talking if she can’t sleep.
They just stood there in the kitchen for minutes while Lucy drank some of her tea. She couldn’t move, she didn’t want to be the one who breaks the silence because that would mean he goes back to his room and she will be alone again. She didn’t want to be alone right now, especially because since Tim came out from his room and was next to her she wasn’t spiraling anymore… her thoughts were gone .. she was calm and even the tears stopped falling. But then Tim was the one who broke the silence:
- I … I will let you rest. If you need anything you know where to find me.
And now … now she looked at him while he spoke and the tears started to fall again… she couldn’t stop it, didn’t want to cry in front of him that much, but she couldn’t hold them.
Tim was just about to go when he finished his sentence and saw the tears. He immediately went closer and hugged her. He didn’t think she cried for what he said, but wanted to give her a chance to decide what she wants.
- Its okay. I can stay with you if you want. I really don’t know what you need right now so just tell me, please. Want to come with me? I will keep distance, the bed is big enough and I will be there if you want to talk.
- I .. no.. I don’t want to bother
- You won’t, I offered.
- Yeah, okay.
He led her in to the room and let her go to the other side of the bed. She lay down on the edge of the bed careful not be too close even when she was desperate to go to him and lie on his chest. He watched how she huddled up under the blanket and when she looked comfortable he followed her to the bed and lay on the other edge. He didn’t know if she felt uncomfortable or anything because of the intimate distance between them, but he felt good for being this close. She faced the wall, but he could hear she was crying again, not loud just the falling tears and a little sobbing. Tim didn’t want to overstep .. he thought throw his next step a few times, but then he moved closer and touched her shoulder.
- Lucy… hey… come here
She did not move for a few seconds, but then she turned to face him and she cuddled up to Tim. She felt safe, the sobbing and a falling tears stopped after a few minutes and her breathing slowed down, she was exhausted and the minute she felt safe.. mostly from her own thoughts she fell asleep in his arms. He tried not to move too much while tried to get a little more comfortable so he could sleep too.