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Sebastian enters Kimi's room without knocking, the door hitting the wall with a thud. It makes Kimi jump and rip out his headphones, looking at the younger teen from his bed. "Seb? What the fuck?"
"Mrs Raikkonen said I could come straight up." Sebastian explains, looking sheepish. "I am in so much trouble I need your help!"
Concern floods Kimi at the sound of panic in Sebastian's voice and he gently pats the bed. "Of course, tell me what's wrong?"
Sebastian moves over and all but flops onto the bed. "It's Hanna, I don't know what to get her for valentines day."
Kimi visibly deflates, not that Sebastian even notices. "Oh?"
Sebastian looks at him like a wounded puppy. "I don't know what she would like, flowers? Chocolate? A cute stuffed animal?"
Kimi privately thinks it reveals a lot about Sebastian that he doesn't know what Hanna likes, but he keeps that thought to himself. "Why don't you ask her?"
"And ruin the surprise? Are you mad?" Sebastian huffs softly, looking at the ceiling. "Why did I even think of asking you, you don't even like girls."
The words make Kimi flinch and Sebastian's expression turns guilty. "I didn't mean it like that, its just…how can I know what to get you but not my girlfriend?"
Because you like me and you don't even know. Kimi's traitorous thoughts whisper and he tries to push them aside. "Because I'm your friend."
"Best friend." Sebastian corrects, giving a deep sigh. "I'm so fucked."
"No you're not," Kimi gently flicks his forehead. "You are being melodramatic."
"I am not." Sebastian pouts, pushing his hand away. "I just want our first valentines day to be perfect."
Kimi is silent for a moment, wondering what he could say. Then he decides for the truth. "Seb, listen, I think you are worrying too much. Hanna would love anything you give her, I promise. Because she is lucky to have you. You're kind, funny and so loving. If she cannot see that she hit the jackpot having you to love her then its her loss." He bites his lip. "If the worst happens, just know someone out there will love and cherish you."
Sebastian meets Kimi's gaze and for a moment it's like the world shrinks to just the two of them. It's almost as if he wants to say something more and Kimi holds his breath in anticipation, has he finally gotten through to him? But then the younger teen blinks and ruins the moment. "You're right, Hanna will love whatever I give her. Thanks, Kimi."
Kimi gives him a small smile, feeling as if his heart is being crushed in his chest.
"Shit, I'd better go. I need to go to the store and buy a gift for Hanna, thanks Kimi I owe you one!"
"No problem." Kimi murmurs, trying to hide his sadness as Sebastian gets up and heads to the bedroom door.
"Hey, wanna grab some ice cream tomorrow? I hear they're doing a special on your favourite?" Sebastian asks, tilting his head.
"Nah, not really. I'm not feeling it, you should ask Hanna instead if she'd want to." Kimi looks up, trying to look encouraging.
"I could, but it feels like we don't see each other anymore," Sebastian says quietly, ducking his head, "I miss you."
Kimi tries to ignore how his heart flips in his chest. "I miss you too, but you've got Hanna now. You don't need me."
"That's not true! I will always need you." Sebastian's voice is soft and genuine, "you're my best friend."
And that's all I'll ever be. Kimi's mind supplies and it makes it hard to look Sebastian in the eyes.
"So no to the ice cream?" Sebastian asks quietly, voice sad.
"Not this time." Kimi says quietly. "Go before the store closes."
There's a pause, before Sebastian whispers a quiet goodbye and shuts the door.
As soon as he hears his footsteps heading down the stairs, Kimi quietly takes out the painting of Sebastian that he had spent hours on. It was meant to be his valentines day present for him. He had had it all planned out, he would gift him the painting and ask him out. Now it was a terrible fucking idea.
Kimi roughly shoves the painting under his bed and rests his head in his hands as his tears start to fall.
He was so fucking stupid. How could he have ever believed things could be different?
His heart is left shattered.
Outside the Raikkonen household, Sebastian silently rubs his chest, wondering why he feels like he's just lost something precious. Maybe he has and this was karma coming for him.
For once his brain isn't full of Hanna, it's full of Kimi.
Isn't that a little fucked up? He has stronger feelings for his best friend than for his girlfriend. Then again, he's always placed Kimi higher in his heart than anyone else. No one came close to him.
It should make him realise why exactly he feels this way, but he is young and stupid and doesn't fully grasp the feelings flowing though him.
Maybe when he is older, he will finally understand. But right now he's a silly teenager with a fixed understanding of what love is. For him Hanna is who he should love, not Kimi.
So he leaves Kimi's house, unaware of the broken heart he leaves behind and the one inside his chest that is beginning to crack.