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lying in a half-nightmare delirium, Pickles wakes up from being pushed in the shoulder. Opening his eyes he was slightly frightened, thinking that he had started tactile hallucinations, but seeing the figure in front of him, Pickles realized that Toki was standing before him.
– uhhhh Toki... why don’t you sleep?– asked Pickles, sleepily, after which he looked at the electronic clock – it’s 3 am now... what do you need?– Pickles' voice was sleepy and hoarse, cuz he smoked a lot before going to bed.
–I could nots fall asleeps... I was havings nightmares– Toki’s voice sounded tender and sleepy in the same time. He felt embarrassed for disturbing Pickles' dream.
–what? again nightmare with Magnus and ehh... you know...
– yes.– Toki said, interrupting Pickles a little, he didn’t even want to bring this topic up, especially out loud. even though a year has passed since his kidnapping, and he is gradually recovering, he is still not himself.
–Can I'ms sleeps with yous?
–go ahead– said Pickles, folding the blanket beside him, showing by gesture that Toki can lie down. – just don't wiggling around like you usually do.
–Okay!– said Toki happily, laying down next to Pickles, putting Teddy bear near to hum
After a couple of minutes, none of the guys fell asleep, they both looked in silence at the ceiling, then on the walls to the sides, anywhere but each other. and suddenly Toki decided to break this silence:
–Pickle– whispered Toki, attracting the attention of drummer
–What doode?
–you ams... not's disgusts by the way I turns ups?
–whhhaaa?– not understandably asked Pickles
– Well... I was so cools, was such a cools guitars player. ands Now? now I ams acting likes an 8-year-old dumb kid.
Toki was talking to himself with a huge annoyance, he was upset that his mind had just erased everything because of the tragic experience in his life. Pickles threw a surprised look at Toki, who kept thinking and staring at the ceiling.
– I dunno Toki... I mean... you’re recovering, don’t you remember how you were right after we saved you?– Pickles spoke with a nervous smile, trying to lift Toki’s mood by letting him know that everything is going well – y'know... you're getting better.. way smarter uhh.. as rough as it sounds...
Pickles was silent, waiting for Toki to react. After a few seconds of silence, and Toki’s reflection, he grinned slightly, and even chuckled.
– yes... maybes you ams right Pickle.
Toki looked at Pickles in response, and they met gazes. It was not usual in such a setting to look in the eyes of a half-naked guy. so unusual that even awkward. pickles noticed this awkwardness, which made him laugh.
– come on doode– said Pickles with a grin, patting Toki on the shoulder. –all right... so good night.
He said softly, and turned to the other side, and closed his eyes to fall asleep.
Toki even somehow touched the soft tone of Pickles, his care, and his acceptance of Toki as he is at the moment. from the surge of emotion, Toki gently hugged Pickles from his back; he did not squeeze that much, just a soft, loving embrace. Pickles accepted the hug calmly, though he was embarrassed by the unexpected act from Toki.
so they slept in the hug all night.