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“ I need bro DEAD ”
Today was a usual day — usual week. Whatever it is... SO4 couldn't believe their eyes at what they saw.
So4 let out a sigh—a sound heavy with the weight of their own inherent brokenneess—and cast a longing glance toward Sx2. To their horror of their deep nightmares, Sx2 was already watching, biting their lips with a playful smirk before throwing a wink to So4 ... It landed harder than it should have.
So4 gulped, shivering — like love could kill, if unsure— shaking their head, feeling the drowsiness flowing into their head ... But from what?
Then they mumbled.
“You don’t get it… no one really does.”
So4's eyes narrowed. Before shutting it down — like their stained heart.
“It’s just… me. I always make it heavier than it should be...”
They spoke to themselves, yet loud enough to be heard.
A brief moment passed by.
Sx2's felt a ache in his chest, seeing someone like this—especially his beloved So4. Feeling saddened this much? Was just too much.
His tone softened, leaning in, feeling the mud covered grass stain his palms—just to feel closer to So4.
“So4..”
Sx2's eyes were filled with hope, care... Something just—special. That So4 couldn't understand why it made them feel this way... Or feel lighter than usual.
Sx2's hand reached out towards So4, cupping their face, rubbing his fingers—leaving a dirt of mud against So4's cheek—affectionately as So4's eyes—pupils shaking—widened for a moment, like their body was getting shocked then frozen.
So4's voice trembled—Stuck. Wanting to say something. Before Sx2 brushed his finger against So4's lips.
“Hmwhatare—"
So4 muffled as they locked eyes with Sx2. Who was smirking—in such gentle way... So close. As he leaned in.
And couldn't help but shyly lean against the tree's harden surface—like Sx2's touch will abandon them at the end. They gulped.
⟨« If I lean into this, I’ll get hurt... Why does he still choose me... and why does it feel... warm. »⟩
Thinking to themselves as their head felt lighter, eyes softening, gazing towards the lake, avoiding the warm longing.
“I’m fine. Just leave it...”
As they blurted out, in a tone ever so quiet.
Sx2's grip didn't budge as he sighed.
So4's heart immediately froze. Thinking to themselves
⟨« Did...he... already have... enough of me? I... Of course. i always make it worse... I am so stupid. »⟩
They frowned, eyelashes fluttering—almost too ashamed to even express this—Before Sx2 moved, directly infront of So4's point of view.
Sx2 mumbled, eyes softening.
“So4... Please, it is okay.”
So4 eyes's were clouding up, not even daring to face Sx2.
“It- is never~... never...okay.”
They said wobbly as a tear escaped, leaving a salty trail that just kept deepening. So4 curled up, making sure Sx2 wouldn't see their sadden state, and won't leave....
Sx2's eyes softened, his brow tensed, reaching out as he placed his hand ontop of So4's knee.
“Cold...”
Making Sx2's heart ache even more. While So4 just.... Couldn't.
“Just leave me alone... Like everyone... no one ever understood my feelings.. i doubt you can...”
They said,
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