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Castiel woke to the low, steady growl of a car engine beneath the floorboards.
The sound vibrated faintly through the apartment — a mechanical heartbeat he had long ago learned to measure mornings by. Somewhere beyond it lingered the smell of coffee and butter, warm and sweet, drifting up the stairwell and into his room. It softened the ache of consciousness, turning the act of waking into something almost tolerable.
Almost.
He remained on his back, eyes fixed on the pale crack in the ceiling that he had once convinced himself resembled a coastline. If he squinted hard enough, he could pretend it was an island — remote, unreachable, a place where people did not schedule 8 a.m. classes.
Was there truly a need to get up?
Yes. Unfortunately.
There was the lecture on Romantic poetry waiting for a room of students who alternated between brilliance and indifference, followed by five meetings concerning research projects that seemed to multiply each semester like particularly aggressive fungi. Important, technically. Necessary, professionally. Exhausting, spiritually.
Outside, the city was already awake. Tires hissed against damp asphalt, horns protested existence, and two distant voices negotiated blame in creative profanity. The first drops of rain tapped softly against the window, releasing that earthy scent that always made him want to stay exactly where he was.
Castiel exhaled.
Temptation, he thought. If the devil existed, surely it manifested as light rain on a weekday morning.
He turned his head toward the nightstand. The clock glowed in unmerciful red numbers.
Defeated, he sat up.
The floor was cold. He slipped his feet into his ridiculous bee-pattern slippers — a gift he still suspected was ironic — and pulled his yellow robe tighter around himself before shuffling toward the kitchen, consciousness arriving only in fragments.
Dean had already been there.
The evidence was unmistakable.
A plate rested on the counter, stacked with pancakes slightly collapsed in the middle but still heroic in intent. A mug waited beside a thermos, steam barely clinging to its rim. And, most importantly, a note — folded once, written with the kind of hurried confidence only Dean possessed.
“Morning, sleeping beauty.
Had to start work early today, but I left some coffee and pancakes for you.
I hope they’re still eatable when you wake up :)”
Castiel snorted softly.
It was barely past seven. Dean, however, operated on a scale where reasonable human sleep was categorized as a moral failure. To him, dawn was late and mornings began whenever engines did.
Castiel poured the coffee and tasted it. Still warm. Strong. Perfect.
He sat, cutting into a pancake. Even cold, it was good — Dean cooked the way some people apologized: excessively and with conviction. There was comfort in the ritual, in knowing that every morning contained this quiet act of care disguised as sarcasm.
For a moment, the day felt negotiable.
–
The shower restored something resembling humanity. Steam filled the small bathroom while rain strengthened outside, drumming steadily now against the window. Castiel shaved with slow precision, as if careful movements might delay time itself, then dressed in dark slacks and a soft gray sweater that tried, unsuccessfully, to make him look less tired than he was.
His satchel waited near the door, already packed with lecture notes, annotated poems, and three different pens — because experience had taught him that any given pen would fail exactly when he needed authority.
He hesitated before leaving, glancing once more at the empty plate.
Gratitude, he had learned, should be delivered while still warm.
–
The stairwell smelled faintly of motor oil as he descended. The closer he got to the ground floor, the louder the mechanical symphony became — metal clinks, compressed air, a radio losing a battle against static.
The garage door stood half open to the gray morning. Rain painted the street in reflective streaks, and inside the shop Dean leaned over the open hood of a car, sleeves rolled, hands already darkened with grease.
“Morning,” Castiel called.
Dean didn’t look up immediately. “If this is about the pancakes, I plead innocence. The stove acted alone.”
“They were acceptable,” Castiel said.
Dean straightened, wiping his hands on a rag, eyebrows lifting. “Acceptable? I woke up at six for those.”
“I am expressing gratitude in academic terms.”
“That explains why it sounded like criticism.”
Castiel allowed a small smile. “Thank you, Dean.”
There — simple, sincere.
Dean studied him for a second, then nodded once, satisfied. “Go educate the youth. Try not to destroy their hope entirely.”
“No promises.”
A horn sounded from the street; a bus stopping at the corner. Time resumed its authority.
Castiel adjusted the strap of his satchel and stepped back into the rain-cooled air. The city smelled like wet concrete and distant coffee shops, and despite himself, he felt awake now — anchored by routine, by conversation, by small domestic mercies.
The university awaited, along with poetry, obligation, and the peculiar privilege of explaining feelings for a living.
He headed toward the bus stop, morning fully begun.