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It Only Hurts At First

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Nutmeg Tiger, and the difficulties of adapting to her master’s new ways.

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It’s a little stupid, in retrospect, how everything begins to unravel. Centuries ago, if you had asked Nutmeg Tiger to imagine what might happen if Burning Spice ever chose to stop ruling through fear—if he simply stepped back and allowed the wild spices to exist without constant terror—she would have rejected the idea outright. To take it a step further, she would have defended him. Defended the system. Defended herself, by extension.

Because if Burning Spice was wrong, then so was she. Nutmeg Tiger had long ago externalized her sense of worth onto him. Burning Spice didn’t merely rule; he validated the logic she lived by. In his presence, her ideology had felt both correct and inevitable: usefulness determines value. Strength determines purpose. Weakness deserves neither sympathy nor space.

Burning Spice was the axis that locked her identity into place. Everything about her—her discipline, her cruelty, her pride—made sense when measured against him. He embodied the system she believed in, the most extreme and perfect version of it.

But now he has decided to use his strength for something else. Not for domination. Not for destruction. Something… closer to mercy.

Nutmeg Tiger cannot decide if it is genuine or if she has simply failed to understand him all these years. The possibility that he might be acting in good faith sits in her mind like a splinter she cannot remove.

Because if Burning Spice no longer values destruction—where does that leave her?

Nutmeg Tiger tells herself she is not sentimental. Her loyalty has always been practical for her circumstances. But regardless, she would still like to know if he values her. Not as a weapon. Not as something to unleash during war. Her.

For years she believed she was strong because she could stand beside him. Because she could endure the same air, the same expectations, the same ruthless standard that broke others. Standing beside the strongest meant she must be strong as well. It was simple. Her identity had been built around that assumption. There is no room for it now.

Her mind drifts, unhelpfully, to the day she thought he might have died. The battle with Golden Cheese. No—thought is the wrong word. Nutmeg Tiger hadn’t truly believed it. She couldn’t have. Burning Spice dying like that would have been absurd. Impossible.

But the idea had still flickered across her mind. A brief, treacherous thought. Maybe the more accurate truth is that she simply hadn’t wanted to believe it.

She still remembers clawing through the collapsed stone of the Spice Temple, tearing apart chunks of concrete with her bare hands. The dust had filled her lungs. Her palms had split open against the rubble.

And when she finally found him—when she saw that he was still there—she had laughed hysterically as her entire body shook.

Nutmeg Tiger feels sick remembering it. Even now, her body reacts before her mind can catch up. Her stomach sinks heavily, twisting in a way she dislikes. She keeps her face still but the sensation in her chest is harder to ignore.

Something unpleasant is forming in the space where her certainty used to be. And she hates not having a name for it.

The horizon burns with that same dusty orange she has seen for centuries. Nothing here has changed. The same ruins. The same bitter air. The same tribes scattered across the wastes.

And yet everything feels misaligned.

She curls her claws slightly into the soil, grounding herself in something tangible.

Well,” a voice says lightly behind her, “I didn’t realize brooding in the wasteland was part of a general’s duties.

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail swishes briefly before the rest of her reacts.

She does not startle, but the shift in her posture is sharp and immediate. Her head turns just enough to bring the newcomer into view.

Standing a few paces away, as though she has always belonged there, is Mozzarella.

Her pale hair spills down her back, catching the rust-colored light of the Spice Wastes. Bare feet rest casually against the scorched ground, entirely unbothered by the heat. The golden bell in her hand swings once with a soft chime as she stops.

Then she tilts her head slightly at Nutmeg Tiger.

“How unusual,” she continues, voice almost pleasantly curious. “The great general of the Spice Swarm sitting alone and staring into the void.”

Nutmeg Tiger does not rise.

“You are far from the Golden Cheese Kingdom,” she replies flatly.

Mozzarella smiles faintly.

“Observation skills intact. Good.”

She takes a few slow steps forward, the movement unhurried, almost lazy. The Spice Wastes are hostile to most visitors, but she carries herself like someone strolling through a garden.

Nutmeg Tiger watches her with narrowed eyes. She should find this irritating.

Mozzarella is an outsider. A strategist from another kingdom. A creature of calculations and games who treats the world like an elaborate puzzle. Under normal circumstances, Nutmeg Tiger would have dismissed her entirely.

And yet this is not the first time Mozzarella has appeared beside her like this—uninvited, unbothered, talking as if their conversations are inevitable.

Somehow, against all logic, Nutmeg Tiger has grown accustomed to it. That realization unsettles her more than Mozzarella’s presence ever could.

Nutmeg Tiger watches her with barely disguised annoyance.

“I did not invite you.”

Mozzarella lifts one shoulder.

“Oh, I know.”

Another step. The bell rings again with a delicate metallic note.

“But you looked interesting.”

The word lands strangely.

Nutmeg Tiger has been called many things in her life—ruthless, terrifying, loyal, unstoppable. Interesting is not one of them.

Mozzarella stops beside a half-buried stone pillar and leans against it, glancing toward the horizon as if they were both simply watching the sunset.

For several seconds, neither of them speaks.

Then Mozzarella hums thoughtfully.

“So,” she says. “Is this about him?”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail lashes once behind her, “I do not know what you mean.”

Mozzarella’s turquoise eyes flick sideways toward her, “You’re terrible at lying.”

The statement is delivered with no accusation. If anything, it sounds mildly impressed.

Nutmeg Tiger’s jaw tightens as Mozzarella twirls the bell idly between her fingers.

“Let me guess,” she continues conversationally. “Your terrifying overlord stops conquering the world, decides to try something new, and now the entire philosophical structure of your identity is collapsing.”

Nutmeg Tiger finally speaks, unable to defend herself, “You… presume much.”

“Mm.”

Mozzarella does not look remotely discouraged.

“Usually when someone sits in a wasteland staring at nothing, it’s not for anything simple.” She glances back at Nutmeg Tiger, smiling.

Nutmeg Tiger’s eyes narrow further, “You speak carelessly.”

Mozzarella’s grin widens, “I’m just making observations, Tiger.”

She pushes herself off the pillar and walks a slow circle around the general, examining her the way she might study a machine.

Nutmeg Tiger allows it only because she knows Mozzarella is not a physical threat. Not the obvious kind.

“You built your entire identity around him,” Mozzarella says casually. “That happens a lot with powerful leaders. People like having a fixed point to orbit.”

Her gaze drifts toward the distant ruins of the Spice Temple.

“But then he does something you never accounted for.” She taps the bell lightly against her palm. “And now nothing you believed about the world quite lines up anymore.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s claws press deeper into the dirt.

“Am I correct?” Mozzarella presses, playfully.

“He has not changed.”

Mozzarella raises an eyebrow, “Oh?

“He is still strong.”

“That wasn’t the question.” Mozzarella crouches down nearby, elbows resting loosely on her knees. For the first time, her voice softens slightly, “The question is whether strength still means what you thought it did.”

Nutmeg Tiger does not answer. That is exactly the question she has been avoiding.

Mozzarella studies her quietly. Then she smiles again—smaller this time, thoughtful.

“You know,” she says, “this is why I like unpredictable outcomes.”

Nutmeg Tiger finally looks at her directly. Mozzarella’s eyes gleam faintly in the fading light.

“They force people to become something new.”

The bell chimes once more in her hand.

“And I do love seeing what comes next.”

Mozzarella’s smile returns slowly, like a creature remembering it has claws as the wind drags dust through the broken pillars of the Spice Wastes. Nutmeg Tiger watches her in silence.

“…Who sent you?”

Mozzarella’s bell swings gently from her fingers. The question seems to amuse her.

“Well,” she says lightly, “technically speaking?”

She tilts her head.

“Your old enemy.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail stills. The stillness is deliberate. She does not allow herself the luxury of reacting too quickly.

An enemy can provoke. An enemy can lie. An enemy can test for weakness. But an enemy who enjoys observation is something much more complicated. Mozzarella is not here to threaten her. If she were, she would not be speaking so casually.

She is here to watch.

“Yes,” Mozzarella continues, almost pleasantly. “The Big Cheese herself.”

The words settle scarily.

“Golden Cheese Cookie is… curious.”

Nutmeg Tiger rises, “You come into the Spice Wastes,” she says evenly, “on the orders of a thief.”

Mozzarella hums thoughtfully.

“Strong word.”

“You know exactly what she stole.”

The answer comes automatically. For years that truth has required no explanation. Among the Wild Spices, the theft of the Soul Jam is not merely an act of war—it is an insult to the natural order. Strength should belong to the strongest.

That is how the world works. That is how the world must work.

Mozzarella grins, “Mm. Yes. The glowing triangle.” 

A chime comes from her bell, and Nutmeg Tiger can tell Mozzarella is playing tricks with her. She knows the value of the Soul Jam.

“Very dramatic object.”

Nutmeg Tiger studies her carefully.

There is no tension in Mozzarella’s posture. No defensive readiness. No preparation for combat.

Which means this conversation is not about provocation but rather information.

“If she seeks another confrontation,” Nutmeg Tiger says, voice sharpening slightly, “she will not find mercy here.”

“Oh, relax.”

Mozzarella waves a hand.

“If the Golden Cheese Kingdom wanted war, we wouldn’t send me.”

She smiles again.

“We’d send someone… bolder.” The bell spins between her fingers, “This is something else.”

Nutmeg Tiger waits.

Mozzarella studies her with the same patient curiosity one might reserve for a puzzle whose pieces have begun shifting.

“You see,” she says thoughtfully, “my queen has noticed something… unusual.”

Her gaze drifts toward the distant ruins of the Spice Temple.

“The wasteland is quieter.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s jaw tightens. The observation is correct, objectively. It has been quieter.

The Spice Swarm still moves when she commands it. Tribes still fight and fracture as they always have. But the larger storms—the ones that once followed in the wake of Burning Spice—have slowed.

She has noticed it. She simply has not allowed herself to name it.

“And your overlord,” Mozzarella continues mildly, “hasn’t burned down anything important in quite a while.”

The words land softly as Nutmeg Tiger’s claws press deeper into the soil.

Strength is not measured by frequency. A force does not become weaker because it waits. She knows this.

Yet hearing the pattern spoken aloud irritates something beneath her ribs.

Mozzarella finally looks back at her, “So she asked me to take a little trip.”

The bell in her hand rings.

“Observe the situation.” Her turquoise eyes gleam faintly, “And report whether the great Burning Spice Cookie has truly decided to become… reasonable.”

Nutmeg Tiger answers immediately.

“He has not.”

Mozzarella lifts an eyebrow.

Hmmmm?

“He is still the strongest being in this wasteland.”

That part is not merely belief. It is a fact. Strength does not disappear because enemies wish it would.

Mozzarella nods slowly, “Yes. You mentioned.”

She leans back against the pillar again.

“That wasn’t the question.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail lashes once. The motion betrays irritation before she can suppress it.

Mozzarella notices. Of course she does. People like Mozzarella survive by noticing small fractures.

“You know what my queen finds interesting?” she says lightly.

“She defeated him once.”

The statement is delivered with the same calm curiosity as the rest. But this one is sharper.

The battle with Golden Cheese Cookie flashes briefly through Nutmeg Tiger’s mind—heat, collapsing stone, the impossible moment where the tide of power shifted.

She had refused to accept it then. She refuses to accept it now. Victory can be temporary. Fate cannot.

Mozzarella tilts her head,  “And yet the person most disturbed by his recent behavior…”

Her gaze slides back to Nutmeg Tiger.

“…is you.”

The accusation hangs quietly between them.

Nutmeg Tiger’s chest tightens. She dislikes that reaction. It feels… imprecise. She has never struggled to categorize her own emotions before. Anger is simple. Loyalty is simple. Duty is simple. This sensation is none of those.

For most of her existence, Nutmeg Tiger has lived within a clean structure. Burning Spice stands at the top. His will becomes action. Her claws carry that will outward across the wastes. There has never been ambiguity in this arrangement.

Now there is, and ambiguity is far more unsettling than any enemy.

Mozzarella smiles faintly, “Oh, don’t look so offended.” She pushes off the pillar, “Think about it from our perspective.”

She begins pacing slowly through the dust.

“For centuries the Spice Wastes were very predictable.”

Her fingers spin the bell idly, again.

“Burning Spice destroys things, you enforce his will, the tribes tremble. Everyone understands the rules.”

Nutmeg Tiger listens despite herself. 

Structure. Mozzarella is describing structure. Hierarchy, and predictability. The very systems that make survival possible in a world that otherwise devours the weak.

Nutmeg Tiger has always respected strength because strength creates order. The weak scatter; the strong impose shape on chaos. Burning Spice’s brutality is not a flaw of the system—it is the system. Through him the wasteland gained a center, a gravity that everything else must orbit. She has built her identity around that gravity.

Mozzarella stops in front of her again.

“But now the rules have changed.” Her voice lowers slightly, “And the person most invested in those rules surviving…”

Her smile sharpens.

“…isn’t him.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail spikes up almost imperceptibly.

The statement irritates her because it contains a dangerous kind of logic. She has always believed that she follows strength. But if strength itself chooses a different path—What does that make her? 

The thought presses against a deeper, quieter fear she refuses to name. 

If Burning Spice ceases to be the force that shaped the Spice Wastes, then everything she has spent centuries perfecting—every hunt, every campaign, every demonstration of loyalty—was built for a world that no longer exists.

Mozzarella studies her carefully before she sighs softly.

“You see why I had to come check? When something inevitable stops behaving inevitably…” Mozzarella begins, “It means the game board just changed.”

Nutmeg Tiger stares at her.

Game board. That is how Mozzarella sees the world. Not as hierarchy nor as destiny, but as a series of shifting probabilities.

Nutmeg Tiger finds the concept deeply unpleasant.

In a game, pieces can change sides. In a game, victory belongs not to the strongest but to the cleverest. In a game, loyalty is a tactic rather than a truth. And Nutmeg Tiger has never been a piece. She is the claw that enforces the board itself.

“And I like knowing which pieces are about to move,” Mozzarella finishes.

Silence stretches between them. The horizon burns orange behind the ruined pillars.

The wind pushes dust through the broken stone, carrying the dry scent of the Spice Wastes. Nutmeg Tiger breathes it in slowly.

This land was conquered through violence and certainty. Through fire and claws and the belief that nothing could ever truly oppose the one who ruled it.

That belief has guided her every step. And yet recently, when she watches Burning Spice, she sees hesitation where there should be destruction. Silence where there should be command. Something has shifted. And she does not know if she is meant to stop it—or survive it.

Finally, Nutmeg Tiger speaks.

“…And what does your queen intend to do with this information?”

Mozzarella smiles, “Oh.”

She lifts the bell slightly. The chime rings clear through the wasteland.

“That depends entirely on what your overlord does next.” Her gaze lingers on Nutmeg Tiger. “And on what you do.”

Nutmeg Tiger says nothing. Because for the first time in a very long time—She is not entirely certain.

The bell’s chime fades slowly into the wind. For a moment, neither of them moves.

Nutmeg Tiger lets the silence stretch deliberately. Silence has always been useful. It forces others to fill the space, and most creatures eventually reveal something careless when they do.

Mozzarella, however, seems perfectly comfortable letting the quiet linger. She watches the horizon with mild interest, as if the dust storms creeping across the wastes were part of a show arranged for her personal entertainment.

Nutmeg Tiger studies her from the corner of her eye.

Silence has always been one of Nutmeg Tiger’s most reliable instruments of control. In the Spice Wastes, conversation is rarely neutral; it is negotiation, challenge, or submission. Those who speak too quickly reveal uncertainty. Those who speak too much reveal weakness. Nutmeg learned long ago that restraint forces the other party to expose themselves first. It is the same principle as hunting: stillness makes prey restless. Most creatures fear empty space in conversation because it leaves them alone with their own thoughts. Eventually they rush to fill it, and when they do, the mask slips. 

Nutmeg Tiger has built entire interrogations on that principle. The technique mirrors the hierarchy she believes governs the world—pressure applied carefully, patiently, until something beneath it cracks. 

But Mozzarella does not crack.

She simply stands there, content to watch the wind sweep dust across the broken stones. That, more than anything, irritates Nutmeg Tiger.

“You speak of pieces moving,” she says at last. “But you have not answered the question.”

Mozzarella glances back at her, “Oh?”

“What does Golden Cheese intend to do.”

Mozzarella smiles faintly, “That depends,” she says lightly, “on whether anything here actually changes. Empires don’t usually transform overnight, you know. Most of the time they pretend nothing is different until the structure collapses on top of them.”

The wind picks up briefly, carrying dry grit across the broken stones.

Nutmeg Tiger does not appreciate the implication.

“The structure of the Spice Wastes has not collapsed.”

Mozzarella hums, “No?” Her gaze drifts toward the distant dunes where scattered fires from tribal camps burn faintly in the twilight, “That’s interesting,” she murmurs.

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail flicks once.

The reaction is small, but deliberate control follows it immediately. Nutmeg Tiger is accustomed to suppressing reactions before they become visible. In the wastes, leadership depends on certainty, or at least the appearance of it. Hesitation is a scent that spreads quickly through a hierarchy. If a leader doubts, those beneath them begin to question. Questioning leads to testing. Testing leads to fracture. 

Nutmeg Tiger has spent centuries preventing those fractures before they form. Her authority was never simply granted; it was constantly reinforced through precision—quick judgments, immediate responses, and ruthless consequences. Her presence functioned as an extension of Burning Spice’s inevitability. As long as she moved with absolute conviction, the illusion of permanence held.

Which is why Mozzarella’s comment bothers her. Not because it is entirely correct. But because it is close enough to force consideration.

Mozzarella gestures vaguely toward the horizon.

“Because from what I can see, your tribes have been… restless.”

Restless is one way to describe it. In the past few weeks, more disputes have erupted between the tribes than usual. Patrols have reported skirmishes along territory lines that once remained quiet under the threat of Burning Spice’s attention.

Nothing serious. Nothing she cannot control. But the pattern exists.

Patterns are something Nutmeg notices instinctively. Survival in the Spice Wastes requires reading the smallest shifts in behavior: a tribe moving their camps too early in the season, a patrol delaying its response by a few hours, a rival leader testing a border that used to remain untouched. None of these actions mean rebellion on their own. But together they suggest a change in the atmosphere of fear that once defined the wasteland. When Burning Spice stood openly as the apex of destruction, that fear was absolute. Tribes did not merely obey; they organized themselves around the certainty that resistance was pointless. 

Nutmeg Tiger’s role was simply to enforce that certainty. Now the system still exists, but its foundation has become less visible. The rules remain, yet the force behind them feels… distant. She has compensated by tightening control—more patrols, harsher responses, quicker suppression of disputes. Control has always been her method of stabilizing uncertainty.

Mozzarella watches her expression carefully.

“See?” she says softly. “That pause right there.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s claws tighten slightly against the dirt.

“You hesitate.”

“I considered your statement.”

“That’s the same thing.”

Mozzarella twirls the bell lazily.

“You used to answer immediately.”

The comment irritates Nutmeg more than it should.

She rises to her full height, dust falling from her tiger haunches as she shifts her weight, “The tribes still answer when I call them.”

Mozzarella tilts her head, “Oh, I’m sure they do.” her voice carries an almost playful sympathy, “But fear is a delicate system.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s eyes narrow.

Mozzarella continues as though explaining something mildly academic.

“When a ruler enforces it consistently, everyone behaves. Very efficient and predictable. But the moment that ruler stops reinforcing it… everyone starts wondering if the rules still apply.”

Nutmeg Tiger goes silent again.

The silence this time is different.

Because Mozzarella has touched something uncomfortably precise.

Nutmeg Tiger has always understood fear not as cruelty but as infrastructure. In her worldview, hierarchy is the natural state of survival: the strong command, the weak obey, and stability emerges from that clarity. Fear is simply the mechanism that prevents the system from dissolving. When everyone knows where they stand, the world becomes predictable. Predictability is safety. Nutmeg does not see herself as a tyrant within that structure; she sees herself as a stabilizing force. 

Without enforcement, chaos spreads quickly across the wasteland. Tribes fight (more than usual at least), borders collapse, resources are seized violently instead of distributed through dominance. Strength, when organized through hierarchy, prevents that spiral. Burning Spice represented the purest expression of that philosophy. His existence proved that the apex of strength was real. Serving beneath him meant participating in the natural order of survival.

But Mozzarella is suggesting something else. That the apex may no longer be enforcing the order Nutmeg continues to maintain.

Mozzarella studies her for a long moment before smiling again.

“You know what fascinates me?”

Nutmeg Tiger does not ask.

Mozzarella answers anyway.

“You’re still enforcing the old rules.” she gestures vaguely at the wasteland around them, “The intimidation. The hierarchy. The expectation that the strong dominate the weak. But your master doesn’t seem particularly interested in doing that anymore.”

The wind shifts again as dust drifts through the broken pillars.

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail curls behind her, slow and deliberate.

“He has not renounced strength.”

Mozzarella lifts a finger.

“Ah. See, that’s the part I like.” Her grin widens slightly. “You’re answering a different question.”

Mozzarella rocks back on her heels, entirely unbothered.

“I’m just curious.” Her eyes gleam faintly. “If Burning Spice no longer intends to rule through destruction…”

She tilts her head slightly.

“…why are you still doing it for him?”

The question lands harder than Nutmeg Tiger expects.

Her first instinct is to reject it immediately. The structure of the wasteland exists because strength enforces it. Without strength there is chaos.

But something about the way Mozzarella phrases the question twists uncomfortably in her mind.

Because the question was not about strength.

It was about purpose.

Nutmeg Tiger’s claws dig deeper into the dirt.

For most of her existence, purpose has never been something she needed to examine directly. Her identity formed within a structure where usefulness defined worth. If she enforced the will of the strongest force in existence, then her place was secure. Service became meaning. Loyalty became identity. That structure allowed her to avoid a far more unsettling question—what she would be without it. 

Nutmeg Tiger never had to define herself independently because her role was perfectly clear: the enforcer, the general, the extension of Burning Spice’s inevitable destruction. The closer she aligned herself with that force, the more permanent her own existence felt. If destruction was destiny, then serving it made her part of destiny as well.

Now Mozzarella is suggesting that the force she aligned with may no longer be moving in the same direction. That possibility creates a thin fracture in the foundation of her certainty.

Nutmeg Tiger’s gaze snaps toward Mozzarella, “The wasteland requires order.”

Mozzarella nods thoughtfully, “Yes. I agree.” Her tone is almost pleasant. “Order is very useful. But that still doesn’t answer the question.”

Nutmeg Tiger meets her gaze.

Mozzarella smiles faintly.

“If he no longer wants to rule this place through fear…” she says softly, “…why do you?”

For several seconds the only sound is the wind moving through broken stone.

Something unpleasant stirs beneath Nutmeg Tiger’s ribs.

For centuries the answer to questions like this has been simple. Burning Spice stands above all. His will shapes the world. Her role is to enforce that shape.

But recently—

She stops the thought before it finishes forming.

That instinctive refusal is itself revealing. Nutmeg Tiger’s mind has always operated through rigid psychological defenses designed to protect her identity. When faced with contradictions that threaten the structure of her beliefs, she does not analyze them openly. She suppresses them, redirects them, or reframes them within the system she already understands. 

Accepting that Burning Spice might be changing would force her to reconsider the purpose behind centuries of devotion and brutality. That is not simply a strategic adjustment—it would require re-examining the entire ideology that shaped her existence. Her mind reacts the way a fortress reacts to invasion: the gates close immediately. Denial is not weakness to her. It is survival.

Mozzarella watches her very carefully.

Then, to Nutmeg Tiger’s irritation, she laughs softly.

“Oh, don’t look so alarmed.” She straightens and brushes dust from her dress. “I’m not criticizing you.”

Mozzarella’s smile sharpens slightly.

“I’m just trying to figure out which way you’re going to move.”

“I am not a piece on your board.”

Mozzarella grins, “No,” she says, “you’re something much more interesting.”

She tilts her head once again.

“A piece that doesn’t know what game it’s playing anymore.”

Nutmeg Tiger does not respond immediately, Because for the first time in a very long time, she cannot dismiss the possibility that Mozzarella might be observing something real. Not a collapse—not yet. The tribes still answer when she calls. The hierarchy still stands. The wasteland still recognizes strength.

But the certainty that once defined it all feels… thinner. And Nutmeg Tiger has built her entire identity on the belief that certainty cannot break.

The bell’s last chime fades into the wind.

A piece that doesn’t know what game it’s playing anymore.

Nutmeg Tiger hesitates to answer once more.

In the wasteland, talk flows cheaply—spilled out by the anxious, the proud, and the foolish alike. The tribes of the Spicelands can rarely bear an unanswered moment. They rush to fill it with excuses, boasting, or truths they should have kept buried.

Mozzarella does none of those things. She simply waits.

That alone tells Nutmeg Tiger something important: This one is not easily baited.

Nutmeg Tiger exhales slowly through her nose and straightens. Her tiger haunches shift in the dust, muscles rolling beneath striped fur as she turns more fully toward the strange envoy.

“You are very interested,” she says at last, voice low and controlled, “in how this wasteland is ruled.”

Mozzarella tilts her head, amused, “I find systems fascinating.”

“That suggests intent.” Nutmeg Tiger’s eyes narrow slightly, “Kingdoms do not send envoys into hostile lands to satisfy curiosity.”

“Oh, I didn’t say curiosity was the only reason.”

Nutmeg Tiger studies her. There it is again—that deliberate looseness. Mozzarella speaks like someone tossing pieces onto a board without revealing which ones matter.

A tactic.

Nutmeg Tiger recognizes it because she has used it herself.

For centuries, intimidation has been her preferred instrument. Fear forces obedience quickly, efficiently. But intimidation is not the only tool of control. Confusion, uncertainty, and shifting expectations can destabilize opponents just as effectively.

Mozzarella is doing exactly that.

Which means the envoy is not merely observing, but rather testing.

Nutmeg Tiger takes one slow step forward, claws pressing faint impressions into the dust, “You speak as though rule is a theory,” 

Mozzarella smiles faintly, “Isn’t it?”

“No.”

The word lands flat and final.

“Rule,” Nutmeg Tiger continues, “is the difference between tribes killing each other… and tribes obeying.”

Her gaze drifts briefly across the distant wasteland. Scattered fires flicker on the horizon. Small tribal encampments, barely visible through the haze of sand and distance.

Once, those tribes would have torn each other apart over scraps. Once, chaos ruled the Spice Wastes.

Then Burning Spice arrived.

Nutmeg Tiger remembers that time with perfect clarity.

She remembers the first time she saw his new form—power like a living storm, destruction so overwhelming that resistance ceased to be an option. The tribes learned very quickly that the strongest force in the wasteland was no longer themselves.

Fear brought order. It always does.

Mozzarella watches her carefully, “You believe fear is stability,” 

“I believe fear works.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail curls slowly behind her.

“You criticize it as fragile.”

Mozzarella shrugs lightly, “It is.”

“Yet it has controlled this wasteland for centuries.”

“Yes,” she says as her turquoise eyes sharpen slightly, “because the one enforcing it never hesitated.”

The wind whistles through a broken pillar nearby.

Mozzarella’s gaze lingers on her a moment longer before she continues, “That’s the interesting part, you know. Your system only functions now if its center remains constant.”

The bell tilts between Mozzarella’s fingers.

“If that center changes…” The soft chime rings out, “…the structure becomes unstable.”

Nutmeg Tiger restrains herself from responding like she has been this entire conversation. She has built her entire sense of order around the belief that strength is not merely useful but structurally necessary. In her worldview, hierarchy is not a social arrangement — it is the natural architecture of survival. Something must stand at the top, something must enforce, and everything beneath must align or be crushed. 

Fear is simply the most efficient language in that system. It cuts through hesitation, eliminates ambiguity, and keeps the weak from testing limits they cannot survive. To Nutmeg Tiger, this is clarity. The wasteland they stand in — fractured, wind-scoured, merciless — only reinforces that conviction. 

Soft systems collapse here. Only hard lines endure.

Yet the flaw Mozzarella is circling is one Nutmeg Tiger herself refuses to examine directly. Her loyalty to the apex of that hierarchy, to the figure who once embodied absolute inevitability, is not merely strategic allegiance. It is the foundation of her identity. Nutmeg has always understood her place in the structure as both servant and weapon: the enforcer of the will that sits above her. That arrangement gave her certainty.

If the strongest force dictates the order of the world, then aligning with that force removes doubt. Her strength becomes proof of the system’s validity. Her obedience becomes righteousness. 

She never needed to question the morality of destruction because destruction itself was framed as purification — a ruthless but necessary correction of weakness.

Mozzarella’s observation, however, presses against the one place Nutmeg Tiger’s certainty is brittle. Systems built around inevitability cannot easily survive the possibility of change. 

Nutmeg Tiger has always believed the center of power to be constant, immovable, beyond erosion. It was the axis around which her discipline rotated. But the moment that axis wavers, the entire psychological sc affolding begins to tremble. Nutmeg Tiger cannot allow that tremor to fully register in her mind. To do so would mean confronting the possibility that the strength she aligned herself with might not be absolute — and if that were true, then the meaning she derived from serving it would fracture as well.

Outwardly, none of this shows. Her posture remains rigid, her expression carved into that familiar mask of controlled severity. 

Nutmeg Tiger has mastered the art of converting internal disturbance into outward dominance. When doubt threatens to surface, she does not retreat inward; she tightens the hierarchy around her. Her voice sharpens. Her commands become harsher. Weakness — especially in others — becomes something she hunts almost reflexively, as though eliminating it externally will prevent it from appearing internally. It is a psychological discipline as much as a military one.

And yet, somewhere beneath that armor, Mozzarella’s words land. Not as agreement, not as surrender — but as a small, unwelcome fracture in the certainty Nutmeg has always treated as law. She understands systems. She understands power. And because of that understanding, she also knows that a structure built on a single, immovable center cannot tolerate the slightest shift without consequence. It is precisely why she has always guarded that center so fiercely.

For Nutmeg Tiger, stability has never meant peace. It has meant permanence. And permanence is something she refuses — absolutely, violently — to imagine losing.

Mozzarella watches her expression with quiet fascination. Then she asks, almost gently, “Tell me something.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s gaze snaps back to her.

“You completed this system for him, didn’t you?”

Once again, Nutmeg Tiger does not answer. Mozzarella continues anyway.

“Fear. Obedience. Disputes settled by intimidation instead of war,” She gestures loosely toward the wasteland. “You turned chaos into hierarchy.”

The compliment is almost sincere. Which makes it suspicious. 

Nutmeg Tiger’s mouth presses into a thin line, weirdly enough, her face begins to flush as well.

“You analyze rulers as though they are puzzles,” she mumbles.

Mozzarella grins. “They usually are.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail flicks once.

“Then answer something simpler.”

Mozzarella raises an eyebrow.

“Oh?”

“If fear is fragile…”

Nutmeg Tiger’s voice lowers slightly.

“…what replaces it?”

Mozzarella does not answer immediately.

For the first time since the conversation began, she seems to consider the question seriously.

Then she says,

“Trust.”

Nutmeg Tiger stares at her.

The word feels absurd in the dry air of the wasteland.

Trust.

A concept so fragile it barely survives beyond the borders of soft kingdoms and fertile lands. In the Spice Wastes, trust is a liability. Trust invites weakness and opportunism.

The tribes trust nothing. That is why they survive.

Nutmeg Tiger lets the silence stretch deliberately before responding.

“You speak like someone who has never ruled a wasteland.”

Mozzarella laughs softly, “That’s fair.”

She twirls the bell once.

“But Golden Cheese Kingdom works rather well.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s eyes narrow, “It works because your queen is powerful.”

Mozzarella doesn’t deny it, “Yes.”

Then she adds quietly,

“But she does not rule through fear.”

Nutmeg Tiger studies her, “Every ruler uses fear.”

“Some just use less of it,” Mozzarella smiles.

The wind shifts again, stirring loose sand across the temple floor. 

Nutmeg Tiger considers the statement. Less fear—not none. Interesting.

Her mind begins quietly assembling the implications the way it would analyze a battlefield.

Golden Cheese’s system relies on something else to maintain order—loyalty, shared prosperity, ideology, tradition. Some structure that encourages obedience without constant intimidation.

Such systems can be powerful. But they are slower. Less efficient. More complicated.

Which makes Nutmeg Tiger suspicious of Mozzarella’s presence here.

Her gaze sharpens.

“You are not here merely to observe.”

Mozzarella’s smile widens slightly, “No?”

“You study this wasteland too closely.”

Nutmeg Tiger takes another step forward, towering over the envoy now.

“You analyze its weaknesses.”

Her crimson eyes lock onto Mozzarella’s.

“That suggests you intend to influence it.”

Mozzarella’s bell chimes softly as she lifts it again and for a moment, she says nothing.

Then she meets Nutmeg Tiger’s gaze with open amusement, “Well,” she says lightly, “that depends.”

The wind pauses, as if listening.

Mozzarella tilts her head.

“On whether the wasteland is willing to change.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s claws press deeper into the dust.

Change.

Another irritating word.

For centuries the Spice Wastes have remained constant. Strength dominates weakness. Tribes compete for territory. Order exists only because something stronger forces it into place.

It is not a pleasant system. But it is predictable. And predictability is power.

Nutmeg Tiger studies Mozzarella very carefully.

“You are attempting something,” she says slowly.

Mozzarella does not deny it.

Her smile softens into something more thoughtful.

“I’m observing possibilities.”

Nutmeg Tiger’s tail curls again.

“You are searching for instability.”

Mozzarella laughs quietly.

“I wouldn’t need to search very hard.”

The implication hangs heavily between them.

Nutmeg Tiger’s gaze drifts once more toward the distant fires scattered across the wasteland. 

The tribes are restless. She knows that. She has seen the subtle shifts—more disputes, more challenges, more testing of old boundaries. For centuries those tensions never escalated.

Because everyone knew what would happen if they did. Burning Spice would notice. And destruction of their own tribes would follow.

But now—

Nutmeg Tiger pushes the thought aside again.

She turns back toward Mozzarella, “You believe this system will collapse.”

Mozzarella shrugs lightly, “Eventually.”

“And you hope to accelerate that.”

“I didn’t say that.” Mozzarella’s eyes gleam.

Nutmeg Tiger studies her for a long moment before speaking, “You are trying to determine whether I will allow it.”

Mozzarella’s smile grows sharper, “Now you’re getting interesting.”

The bell swings gently between them.

Two strategists standing in the dust of a broken temple. Each waiting to see which piece the other will move next.