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Hi there,
Please don't find this creepy but I've noticed that we take the same bus every morning and I finally have the courage to start the conversation.
So, my number is on the back of this piece of paper, if you ever want to get a drink with me.
The girl who missed a stair because she was looking at you.
Unknown number 7:14pm
Your note made me laugh. And if you're able to make me laugh with a fall and a note I guess you deserve that drink. I'll be waiting for you in the bus tomorrow morning.
Unknown number 7:15pm
Oh and I'm Alex by the way.
Unknow number 8:02pm
I knew my amazing falling skills would make you say yes. Perfect, I'll try not to fall this time I promise. Wouldn't want to embarrass you. See you tomorrow Alex by the way :)
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Alex Morgan 11:34pm
I had a really good time tonight, thank you for everything. Although you owe me a new pair of jean, I don't think that stain is going anywhere…
Tobin Heath 11:41pm
I had a really nice time with you too. I'm so sorry about that again… Maybe I can redeem myself by giving you a new one ? Tomorrow night? A movie after?
Tobin Heath 11:41pm
I'll even buy popcorn.
Alex Morgan 11:49pm
How can a girl say no to popcorn? See you tomorrow Tobin.
Tobin Heath 11:50pm
Good night Alex :)
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Tobin Heath 10:21pm
I didn't understand anything.
Alex Morgan 10:32pm
Well, you didn't really look at the screen so I can't say that I'm surprised by your statement.
Tobin Heath 10:39pm
It's not my fault if you're beautiful.
Alex Morgan 10:45pm
Sleep tight you little charmer.
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Alex Morgan 9:17am
Hey! Are you okay? You weren't in the bus this morning so I'm worrying a little…
Tobin Heath 10:43am
Hi! I'm fine don't worry, I just overslept… You're cute when you worry about me.
Alex Morgan 10:58am
I'm just being a good friend.
Tobin Heath 11:02am.
Friend…?
Alex Morgan 11:35am
Well that's what I am right? ;)
Tobin Heath 11:38am
For now.
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Tobin 9:57pm
Hehehe.
Alex 10:01pm
…
Tobin 10:08pm
I didn't know friends kissed each other.
Alex 10:11pm
Shut up.
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Tobin 6:31am
Good morning beautiful. Can't wait to see you in the bus and have my morning kiss :)
Alex 6:45am
Who said you were getting one?
Tobin 6:48am
Let's be honest for a second: you've been thinking about it since last night.
Alex 6:50am
I hate when you're right.
Tobin 6:52am
It's okay, I've only thought about you too. Leaving the apartment right now or I'll be late. See you in a bit beautiful.
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Alex my Princess 2:24pm
Don't you think it's a little bit early for me to meet your mom?
Tobin <3 2:31pm
Stop worrying babe it's going to be just fine.
Tobin <3 2:31pm
'Alex my Princess'? Really? When did you put that lol?
Alex my Princess 2:35pm
But what if she doesn't like me?
Don't even dare to change it. I'm dead serious!
Tobin <3 2:36pm
She's going to love you, believe me. If it can reassure you; you just need to tell her that you love Stevie Wonder and you'll become her best friend just like that.
I won't, I won't… Don't attack me.
Alex my Princess 2:40pm
And now I have Stevie Wonder stuck in my head…
Alex my Princess 2:41pm
Isn't sheee prettyyyy
Truly the aaaangeeeel beeest
Tobin <3 2:46pm
Boyyy I'm sooo haaaappyyyy
We have been heaaaaveeeeen blessed
Alex my Princess 2:51pm
Oh yeah sing for me baby.
Tobin <3 2:52pm
Dork.
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Tobin <3 8:19pm
Told you she'd love you.
Alex my Princess 8:26pm
Don't text me when she's next to us, it's rude.
Alex my Princess 8:29pm
Stop looking at me like that. I know you're up to something but it stops right now.
Alex my Princess 8:30pm
Tobin…
Tobin <3 8:33pm
My fingers are so deep in you and my name is on your lips like a prayer. You're begging me for release but you're up for a loooooooong night.
Alex my Princess 8:38pm
You're sleeping at yours tonight. Alone.
Tobin <3 8:46pm
Your face worthed the risk…
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Tobin <3 4:06am
I'm not good with words. I'm really not. And I don't like making long declarations, with beautiful sentences and big words that people don't normally use. But I've been thinking all night and I came to the conclusion that I wouldn't mind doing it for you. I'm a coward for doing this with a text but I don't know how I'm supposed to say it directly to you… You have this effect on me. You know, making me fall in buses, making me lose my voice and my composure. The fun part is that I don't even mind. I'd gladly lose my voice, my words and more everyday if it meant that I could stay with you. I know you think it's cheesy but it's true. I'd abandon everything for you Al.
Tobin <3 4:12am
What I'm trying to say is… You know… Shit I can't even write it because I'm scared of your reaction. Scared that you'll think that I'm going too fast because I know you don't want to cut any corners. Scared that you won't feel the same. Scared that you'll think that I'm lying and I don't mean it. Yet God knows that I mean it. Boy I believe in every single one of these words with my entire being.
Tobin <3 4:18am
You know, the three words that lovers say to each other sometimes? Yeah? Well forgive me for wanting to say them to you.
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Alex my Princess 8:39 a m
My love you're clumsy. This awkwardness I cherish it. I cherish it because it's you, and I love all of you. I know I told you I didn't want to become attached to you too fast. I was scared, because, as you know, somebody hurt me in the past and I didn't want a repetition of this part of my life. After that heartbreak I promised myself that I wouldn't fall again, because everything is lost before even beginning. I managed to convince myself. Until that day when I found a piece of paper in my purse. From then you've rocked my world and my arguments. Maybe everything is already lost for us, maybe we're doomed to head to a disaster. But let's do it together. Say those words to me. Please.
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Alex my Princess 9:27am
You forgot your keys here dumbass.
Tobin <3 9:30am
It's a spare.
Alex my Princess 9:35am
Why did you leave a spare here?
Tobin <3 9:38am
Happy second anniversary?
Alex my Princess 9:40am
What?
Alex my Princess 9:42am
Holy shit… Are you doing what I think you're doing?
Tobin <3 9:44am
Maybe…?
Alex my Princess 9:46am
You little piece of crap. That's why you left so quickly this morning.
Tobin <3 9:50am
I just want to give you the time to think about it ok? Really think about it. I'll pick you up at 7 tonight and you'll tell me. Have a good day love <3
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Alex my Princess 11:07am
You know I made my choice from the moment I understood right?
Tobin <3 11:09am
Maybe but I want to let you think.
Alex my Princess 11:13am
I love you.
Tobin <3 11:14am
Noooooooo you just spoiled me your answer :(
Alex my Princess 11:16am
I didn't say anything!
Tobin <3 11:18am
Like you need to…
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Tobin <3 11:54am
Oh I love you too by the way.
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My Love 4:27pm
Tobs we're not buying a dog.
Toby Bear 4:29pm
But whyyyyyyyyy? :(
My Love 4:35pm
Come on we already live together. Do you think I need to look after another child?
Toby Bear 4:40pm
You're mean.
Toby Bear 4:41pm
I'm pouting. Just so you know.
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My Love 6:52pm
I booked our flights for New Jersey.
Toby Bear 6:55pm
Awesome! I can't wait for Christmas. Are you home?
My Love 6:58pm
Yeah why?
Toby Bear 7:01pm
Can you look in the fridge and tell me if we need anything?
My Love 7:06pm
We're good, but can you buy some wine please?
Toby Bear 7:09pm
Anything for my baby girl. I'll look for a gift for my sisters while I'm at it.
My Love 7:12pm
Okay, but make it quick. I miss you.
Toby Bear 7:13pm
<3
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My Love 8:09am
Where were you last night? Why didn't you answer any of my calls?
Toby Bear 8:15am
I was with Amy. I told you yesterday that I was sleeping at hers. She's having a rough time so she needs me.
My Love 8:18am
Yeah ok.
Toby Bear 8:22am
I don't tell you anything when you go out with your friends. Please, learn to trust me Alex.
My Love 8:25am
I trust you.
Toby Bear 8:26am
Good.
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My Love 10:43pm
Are you serious? After three years you tell me you want to take an apartment just for you?
Toby Bear 10:45pm
I need some time on my own.
My Love 10:47pm
You're unbelievable.
Toby Bear 10:49pm
Come one Alex face the truth. Our relationship has been rocky for months now. We don't laugh or talk like we use to do. Hell we haven't made love in weeks. We need to take care of our problems otherwise everything will end up in a mess. Neither of us want that.
My Love 10:52pm
And moving out is the solution to our problems? Fuck I don't follow you Tobin.
Toby Bear 10:54pm
I think it is. We need to learn how to love each other again. I mean I still love you, I think I always will. But we've lost something. I don't know if it's passion, complicity, but something is missing. Luckily for us we have the most important thing: love. That's why I still believe in us. We just need to find that spark again.
My Love 10:56pm
What if we don't find it again? What if we never become us again?
Toby Bear 10:59pm
We will.
My Love 10:59pm
How can you be so sure?
Toby Bear 11:01pm
You're the love of my life Alex. Nothing will ever change that.
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Toby Bear 3:09pm
What do you mean I won't have any news while you're gone?
My Love 3:12pm
I need some time to think. Think about us, but mostly about me. So I need you to leave me alone for a bit.
Toby Bear 3:15pm
Alex you're going to Europe. I'll want to know if everything is going well. You can't have me hanging for three weeks.
My Love 3:16pm
I'll ask Jeri to keep you updated. But please don't talk to me. I need it.
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My Love 0:05am
Tobin… I'm not questioning you or your feelings but.. When I see you my heart doesn't speed up anymore. I think I've lost my feelings, and I don't have the force or the desire to find them again.
Toby Bear 0:09am
How can you say that? You don't stop loving overnight.
My Love 0:11am
What do you want me to say?
Toby Bear 0:12am
Loving you is the only thing I know. It's the only thing precious in my life. I can't believe you when you say you've lost your feelings. I just can't Alex. We'll discuss when you get back.
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My Love 10:46am
It's over. We've tried, we've fought, but it's over. I thought I could find my feelings again, but I can't. I'm sorry, but we're done. There won't be laughs, jokes or love anymore. There won't be an us anymore. No more I love yous. I don't know how to love you anymore. We'll be facing life alone for now on. I know it's scary, but it's the best thing to do. I'll be alone but I'm taking every memory of us with me, it's my treasure. I cherish every moment with you and I'll do it for the rest of my life. I don't have any regret, what we had was beautiful and made me grow. Unfortunately it stops now, there isn't another solution. It's over but I loved you so much. It's over because I loved you. But it's over.
Tobin Heath 11:33am
Our bus ride ends here. I'll always love you but I won't fight anymore. I'm letting you go. Forgive me for not being able to be enough. You and me it was dream and now I need to wake up. Thank you for the ride Alex. I wish you the best in this world.
Alex Morgan 11:34am
Goodbye Tobin.