Work Text:
If he's being honest Slack very much snuck up on him. One second he was just some guy he was on a server or two with to someone who Speedy finds himself thinking about at all hours of the day. It’s honestly a little fucked just how often Slack is on his mind these days – not that Speedy is doing much to stop it.
When Slack does enter his brain at, one might call, inappropriate times Speedy actually allows himself to linger on the thoughts, even lets his own brian linger on the man when he’s doing chores or any kind of mindless activity. Because well, as stupid as it sounds, it is 2026. And despite what it seems Speedy does know what someone making him feel like this means and pushing it down this time just feels almost childish, like if this is still happening in his 30s it’s probably worth not repressing anymore. He can have a crush on a guy. This can be real.
But the thought process doesn’t stop there; two big ones come out of Speedy accepting those feelings as a truth. One: if he’s accepting that what he feels for Slack doesn’t qualify as platonic then he probably has to accept that in the past he has had feelings for other men – some who are still very important people in his life. And two: does he want to actually do something about this crush?
Slack is single and Speedy is pretty sure he has mentioned being bi – or at least implied it. And yeah, he doesn’t live in LA but in the scheme of things that doesn’t seem like a reason to not at least try. Which is probably the scariest thought Speedy has had in a long fucking time – and it’s exhilarating.