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I couldn't serve our connection even if I wanted to. Without you who am I exactly? Who are you without me? In a way we doomed each other to being no one but the other’s piece. I despise you but long for the love we had before. I have disdain for my thoughts involving you, do I love torturing myself for my own amusement or do I miss you? I'm too afraid to figure out the answer…
The truth would be too much for me to acknowledge. You have already poisoned my mind with your presence. Why did I choose to love you in the first place, why couldn't I have chosen someone else… There wasn't anyone else I wanted, the only one that I craved was you…
You have dammed me to this feeling of yearning and hatred. If it weren't for you I would've been able to escape this hell. Though in a way it's freeing I get to not hide behind an act, No one can push their expectations onto me anymore… I was lying to myself and I was lying to you, how ironic that we both deceive one another.
Freedom comes at a price I will forever hate you to the point I cannot let go or move on which still ties me to you. I will never be able to speak for myself, It speaks for me. Some days I wish I never met you others, I would've wanted to run away with you and get married to you. I was so naive to think that we could have escaped our respective fates… why do I still yearn for you two time…