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Ever since Suho had fallen into a coma, Sieun has hardly been himself. He was still quiet, and he was still mostly the same, but anyone who knew him well would know that something was wrong. But the only person who knew him well enough to be able to tell was Suho, and he was in a coma for most of that time. All he wanted was to be able to buy dinner for him again. As much as it annoyed him, he couldn’t help but love it. He loved feeling cared for. He loved the feeling of having friends.
But was Suho just a friend? Sieun had never had a proper friend before, so how was he supposed to know if getting butterflies and wanting to cuddle with your best friend was normal? He pushed it down. He pushed it down as far as he could, but that wasn't very far. And when he had found out that Suho woke up, it was impossible for him to push it down anymore. He couldn't deny his feelings for Suho. He had never had feelings for anyone before, so he didn't have much to compare it to, but he knew how much he loved Suho. He just didn't want to admit it.
The second he saw Suho in the yard, he couldn’t help but smile. He couldn’t help but cry. He held back every force in his body that was telling him to run up and hug him. Because all he wanted to do was look at the boy, his hair long and messy. Wearing Sieun’s jacket, (author here, i still don't know how he got it) he looked so handsome. Sieun could do nothing but just breathe it in.
And now that Suho is awake, and has regained enough muscle to walk, Sieun’s face has started glowing. He starts sleeping better, and he no longer needs the vitamins that Jun-tae had given him to help him sleep. All he needs is to fall asleep next to Suho.
"Sieun, could I stay for the night?" It was so normal for him to stay over, that he didn't need to ask, but he did anyway.
Sieun nodded, trying and failing to hide his happiness from showing through in his eyes. He was good at communicating with his eyes. Suho is used to it, and he can catch even the slightest change of expression on Sieun before Sieun can catch it himself. And this time, he caught it. He smiled at Sieun, blushing a little at the fact he was so happy to share a bed. Of course though, Sieun always reacts this way, yet it never fails to catch Suho off guard. Because how could the boy who hated physical touch, now be so affectionate? He stops asking questions and allows himself to be happy with the new Sieun.
Sieun nods at the normalised request, and even though he has spare bedding for Suho to use, they both prefer falling asleep with their arms wrapped around each other.
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Suho has never been one to deny his feelings, however, after hearing about Sieun's reaction when finding out he woke up from his coma, it made his heart skip a beat with love. He didn't like it. But oh yes he did. He loved Sieun, and as much as he tried to deny it, he couldn't.
Sieun gets changed into his pyjamas and brushes his teeth before going to his desk and finishing up some homework. Suho does the same, and makes himself comfortable on Sieun's bed to watch him as he finishes his homework.
"Sieun-ah, I'm lonely, are you almost done?' He says, teasing him, not expecting a response more than a few words before he turns back to his papers. But instead Sieun puts his pen down, and walks over to his bed. Suho is shocked yet satisfied at this response, so he doesn't protest.
Sieun shuffles close to Suho, and Suho wraps his arm around Sieun's shoulder, letting Sieun rub circles into his palm and rest his head on Suho.
They sit like this for a while, nobody saying a word. The only sound that leaves either of them is Suho occasionally admiring how cute Sieun looks, and their soft breaths leaving them.
Neither of them want to break away, but both of them start to feel more and more tired.
"Let's sleep now, hm?" Suho says softly, breaking the oh so beautiful silence.
Sieun just looks up at him with wide eyes, not letting go of Suho's hand. Suho can't help but admire him. He holds back every force in himself which is pushing for him to kiss him, because Sieun just looks so beautiful.
"Can I..?" He failed to hold it in, the words just spill out of Suho's mouth. He tries to recover but now that he's started, he can't stop. "Can I kiss you?" He asks softly, staring right back into Sieun's widening eyes.
Suho puts his hand on the side of Sieun's face, combing his fingers softly through his silky hair. Sieun leans in slightly. Suho knew that Sieun wouldn't verbally respond, but he hopes that this is his way of saying yes.
Suho slowly leans in, giving Sieun time to back out, but he doesn't. Their lips press together, and they separate for a moment before Suho goes back in, catching Sieuns bottom lip between his own. He uses the hand that he had wrapped around Sieuns shoulder to pull Sieuns face in with both of his hands. They separate and stare into each other's eyes before slowly lying down, Suho on top of Sieun. Sieun looks up at Suho, love filling his heart and making it ache and crack into two.
"I love you Sieun-ah" This makes both of their hearts ache.
Suho doesn't need a verbal response to know that Sieun feels the same, and Sieun knows this, but he gives one anyway.
"I love you too." Suho can't take it. He smiles down at him before leaving kisses all over his face and neck, reconnecting with his lips when he's done.
Their kisses slowly become messier, Suho experimenting, his tongue making contact with Sieuns. He kisses Sieuns bottom lip, slow yet messy. Sieun lets out a little involuntary noise every time Suho's tongue peeks through his lips, and it makes Suho squirm.
Suho separates from him and stares down at Sieun, studying his facial expression and giving it a name in his mental library of Sieun facial expressions. Love. He names it love. And Suho knows he has a similar expression on his face. He doesn't care. How could he care about anything other than the boy in front of him, his usually dry lips now glossy with saliva, and the corners of his mouth curling downward slightly into his gorgeous upside down smile. Suho loved that. He loved his smile. He's been seeing it quite a bit since he woke up.
Suho turns over to lay next to him, pulling him into the tightest hug he can offer. Sieun buries his head into Suho's chest and falls asleep exactly how he would most nights with him. Suho combing through his hair, whispering about how cute he looks, and waking up after Suho and seeing him smile at him and whisper good morning.
This is how he wanted things to stay. He wanted this for the rest of his life. But for now, Sieun will settle for being with Suho again after everything that happened, and he'll be grateful that Suho is even still alive, and that he's able to bury his face into his chest almost every night. He'll be happy with that for now.