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Life is like a note of the endless sounds.

The sound of bird, the sound of wind even the noisiest sounds of the car honking, it all still the sound of life.

Yet shadowmilk didn't feel it.

No he is not deaf, he can still hear clearly as he can hear their little whisper behind his back.

Yes he can hear the anyoning little birds sing every fucking morning, yes he can hear the wind flowing though his face and yes he can hear those asshole bang on the honk button of their car.

What he meant is that he can't feel the life out it. He can't feel anything except for the empty void that has been nesting in his life.

He was born in the wealthiest family, everything that he desires he will always got it. But not because of that he was known for becomes a spoiler Rich brat like the other Rich kid.

No Infact shadowmilk was knowns for his many talents and among them he was known the most was his ability for playing Violin in such a young age.

Back then is was his pride, his joy, his passion.

At first he was happy, why would he not when he has the fame, the wealth and most importantly he has his parents who would always love and support him and he love them dearly.

But that all changes when his father got into an accident when he was about to get home from his work to shadowmilk's 14 birthday.

The accident has cost him his life, since then noting was the same anymore. His mother for getting through his death, she has put herself into working restlessly in the hospital.

As for shadowmilk, he lost his motives for the instrument but yet he still playing, because that's the only thing that keeps his father's memory with him.

He still the best of it, just like a mechanic that has been code with it...no care, feel nor passion with it...not anymore.

He doesn't care what other has to said about it he still the most skilled of them all.

"Do you have competition today dear?"

Shadowmilk was about to leave with his violin until his mother stop him.

"Yes mother..."

"Oh! I know that's you always wins on those...but I still wish you good luck."

"...Thank you mother..... would you be there?"

His mother look guilty as she look down to avoid his eyes.

"Oh... I'm sorry... I... really do wish I can be there but I have a very important-"

"It fine."

Shadowmilk not letting his mother finish her section as he opens the door and leave with his motorcycle.

It always has been like that.

What is the point anyway?

What's the point to play in those competition if his mother weren't there.

And besides he was just going to win if he just stick to same note like always anyway.

So what really the point?

The answer is not there is no point to any of this.

So that why he's here inside the playing ground for children, hiding from his group friends that try to find and drag him in that Damm building where the competition is at.

While he closing his eyes, peacefully minding his own damm business. But ah peaceful was never meant to last long as he can feel the shadow over him.
He opens his eyes to see who dare fucking disturbed his nap as he was greet with the two different beautiful eyes color and a sunny blonde hair.

"Hi!"

"What?"

"You're Shadowmilk aren't you?"

"Yes?...and how did you know that?"

Shadowmilk raise his eyebrows as he sitting up, still staring back at the mystery blonde.

"Well from what I been hearing all around the area I heard a lot shouting for your name, everyone attending for the competition has already been inside the building and you're the only one here so I assume it was you that they tried to find."

"Oh...yeah that's just my friends just let them be."

"What? Aren't you going to meet up with them?"

"Nope."

Shadowmilk lay down, he roll to his side just to avoid the anyoning blond.

"Why?"

"Because I intentionally trying to avoid them."

"Why?"

"Because if they found me they will drag my ass to that Damm competition."

"Oh...but why did you don't want to participate in it?"

"Ugh! You ask too much! If you want to know sooo badly then fine! what's the point of the competition anyway if I was going to always win! So yeah! That's your answer now leave me alone!"

"....how do you know you going to win this time?"

Shadowmilk immediately sit up and look straight into the blonde's face.

"What?"

"How do you know that you are going to win this time around if you haven't participated in it yet?"

Oh! Hahahaha! He must be new here! if not he won't have dare to ask him the most dumbest questions like that!

"Pff!hahaha!"

The blonde raise his eyebrows.

"What so funny?"

"Oh! This is so good! But it can't help it if you're new here but alas let me reintroduce myself to you then! I am the great shadowmilk! Who win 25 time in the grape soda region classic music awards, 15 time the surgary awards and~ 9 time and last year champion of the icycream classic!"

"Oh...and?"

This make him choke.

Is he serious? After all that?

"Hff- excuse me? Haven't you hear what I said?"

"Yes I heard you clearly but that doesn't explain why are you so sure that you were going to win this time when you haven't practiced in it yet."

"Hmp! If you're that much of oblivious then it can't help it. Why is that I much of confidence you ask? Because not only that I win a lot and being the past 10 time champion! But i also very good if not the best of the violin player! Just follow the notes that has already been written then you will be just as good as moi!"

"Huh... follow the notes...you doesn't sound happy when you said that and if you're that good then why stop now? Why give up?"

"Hmp! I don't give up! It just... It boring now always follow the same notes that has written over and over again and you will get your price so what is the point of it anyway."

"Hmm...if that so then why don't you try to mix it?"

"Mix it? Really?"

"Yeah! Mix the notes that has already been written with your own notes!"

"Pff! Do you know how much of disaster it will make to the song ? Like yeah you you can do it in other categories. But with classic music? You are going to make your self a fool."

"Maybe maybe not if you know what you are doing and you really want to try it! Who knows what beautiful melody that they made if it works out!"

"If it works out."

"Oh come on you have to at least try! Be risky for once!"

"Pff! Risky that is gold coming from you Blondy. I thought you were a goody two shoes kinda boy."

"Well I am a goody two shoes but sometimes I do like to pull a few tricks of my sleeve! Like they said don't judge a book by it covers."

"Pff... I thought that you were going to be boring but I guess I judge the book too fast I will give you that."

"Hehe! I am Honor."

They staring at each other for moment until the sound of the bell ringing though around the area. They both know what the bell ringing means as the blonde started to panicking as he grab shadowmilk by his arms and dragging shadowmilk with him.

"Oh no! The competition is going to start! And we're going to be late! Let go!"

"What? Hey! I said I wasn't going to participate! Hey! Listen to me!"

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They run for awhile until they reach to font gate of the building were the competition was at. There they saw 4 figures that waiting for them or should I say waiting for shadowmilk.

"There he is!"

"Fuck....hey guys."

"Don't you hey guys with us! Where have you been?! Do you know that because of you I miss my noon nap!"

"... aren't you going to listen me win the competition?"

"Yes well I can sleep while you at it~ it always a good nap when you play~"

"... As Sugar was saying where have you been?"

"I don't want to talk about it..."

"Ok sure you don't have to tell us but at least answer our fucking text next time you asshole!"

While shadowmilk was getting lecturer by his other friends, the blonde was watching as he can't help but smile at the whole scene, that until a deep voice greet him.

"Pure vanilla?"

Pure vanilla turn around as he see a dark hair guy wearing a black head cap.

"Oh! silence Salt! it been a while! How have you been?"

"I'm fine thank you... are you here for the competition?"

"Yes! lily and the other will be there too but I guess you already know that ha?"

"Yes... Actually after the competition we was going to meet up with Elder fairy... You should join us."

"Oh! I would love to but...umm after the competition I have an appointment with them..."

"Oh...but didn't Lily said you were getting better?"

"Yes well... for the moment...I was lucky enough to convince them to let me participate on this competition..."

"Oh... well I wish for your good luck even though I know you will always do great on them... because you're the most passion pianist I ever met."

Pure vanilla blush.

"Oh! You praise me too much! Lily and elder fairy have been spoil you with my old video aren't they? I am not that good."

Silence Salt just chuckle.

"Hm...I just only speak the truth."

"Hm! Well I should be going we already been late... can you bring Shadowmilk to competition please."

"...if that's what you want then I'll do my best to bring him in."

"Thank you."

Pure vanilla give him a gentle smile as he takes his leave.

Silence Salt wave his goodbye as he finally walk back to his group of friends still lecturing Shadowmilk,while shadowmilk just look anyoning but suddenly he looks around as he try to find someone.

"That's enough we can lecturer him later...he still has this competition to attend to so..."

Silence Salt without anymore words he immediately grap shadowmilk neck collar from behind and dragging him in the building.

"Wa?! Hey! Let go! I can walk you know?!"

The other didn't say anything more as they also agreed with him so they follow him inside ignore shadowmilk's complain.

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Mix it up with your own notes and be risky for once huh? Talk about it without doing it or providing it that it would not be a disaster is a total of false hood word.

Evidence is right in front of him, when they 'mix it up' with their own notes it come with the possibility with your ear being deaf!

Like witches crisp what is that disability of the melody!? Like can he even call it a melody or simply the notes anymore?!

It sounds like someone screaming for their life. At least the only thing good come out of this 'song' is that it woke up spice from his slumber.

"Hold! we even heard enough!"

"You should have considered whenever you're good enough for this competition before you enter it!"

"But worry not you have plenty now because you're eliminated. Please move out to the exit for the next candidate arrive."

Ouch! brutal like always~ he haven't expect them lest from that many years.

Yeah no like logically he can pull it off or even do better than what ever that guy was doing. But then again what is the point in doing it anyway?

"Next up is ah our last champion of icycream Shadowmilk!"

The crowd clapping waiting for his appear and who was him to deny his crowd, he walk out with steady state, poetic figure bow to the crowd as the clap die down he started his performance.

Same notes, same melody like he has always play.

Perfect like (a machine) he was knowing for.

Even though it was pointless with how much he making name for himself.

But when he participated into something he temp to win.

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At the maintenance of the building.

"It was beautiful as always blue~"

"Yeah! You did great! Thank to you i can sleep again after what ever that was before you!"

"I wish to unheard what ever of that 'sound' call..."

"Hm...you did great."

"Yeah yeah yeah~ i know I'm the best! I heard a lot! so can we go know! I don't want those old hag to come to me.

"Fine~ whatever you said blue~"

"I'm hungry though! Let go get lunch together and celebrate this little guy his trophy!"

"Spice! First I'm one point eight meters tall which taller than average male and two this is just a qualifying round! I'm not Crown yet!"

Burning spice just roll his eyes.

"Oh please even so besides sugar and flour you are still the small of us man group!"

"Barely! You guys are just taller than me one or two meters!"

"Anyway we all know you will win eventually blue~ there is no doubt~"

"Yeah yeah yeah! let us go now!"

"Sorry but I'm not going to join you guys this time."

"Oh? It's because you have date with your two lover~ cousin? But I remember you said that it would be diner date~why leave so soon~oh perhaps~"

"Wow I didn't know that you were that much of an eager salty~"

"It not what you two dirty mind think...one of Lily's friends is a pianist and he was going to be in the pianist session today."

This make Sugar light up because she do enjoy the sound of the piano combined with the violin, it makes the most sweetest and beautiful sound of this eathbread.

"Oh~ a pianist~ Is he good~"

Since salt just nob.

"Yes...Lily and Elder show me all of his play and I really like them."

"Oh~ it really rare for you to complement on other cousin~ oh! I really curious now~ let me go with you~"

"Hmm...if you give the complement then he really is good...I will go with you..."

"Yay~"

"Uh guys?! What about our lunch celebration?!"

"Oh come on spice~ we can go eat later~"

"But I'm hungry!!! Come on shadowmilk help me out here! aren't you hungry too?"

"Hm yeah~ but we can eat later~ I really do curious about this pianist of your salt."

"Oh come on!!!"

"You can go eat if you don't want to come with us spice ~"

"Yeah! But it no fun in that!...Ugh! Fine I will come with you guys."

"Awww~ is spicy hate being lonely~"

"Shut up! I will beat you blue!"

"Kkkk"

They walk for a while until they finally reach to the door that hold the pianist competition session. As they enter and salt looking around try to find his two lover, he finally found sitting on the middle area where they left five seat for him and his friends.

"Lily, elder..."

"Oh! you finally made it salt."

"It the violin session done already?"

"Yes...even though shadowmilk was late but with his stade he was able to perform right after he was brought in."

"It that so huh I thought that you were going to do something about it."

"... maybe a little...yes..."

"Ahem!"

The trio cut their conversation as they finally took a notice of the group behind silence Salt.

"...sorry I forgot...is those seats taken?"

"Oh no! You can seat on it, those was for my friends at first but they end up getting the font."

"Thank you my dear~ finally I can put my legs to sleep~"

"Hm..."

"Geez~I didn't know you such a yapper salty."

"Ugh finally do know how awkward it was to standing there while everyone is look at us!"

Elder fairy and white lily just laugh awkwardly as Silence salt let out sigh and take his seat next to white lily, the other follow suit.

"...how was the competition? Am I late?"

"Oh no you're not late Infact he was about to play now."

"Haha be come a fan now are you dear?"

Salt roll his eyes playfully.

"Hm...it was the two of you that are the one that brought me here..."

"Hey now I was just as much as you dear when white lily first brought me here."

"Well excuse me! That I was so proud of my best friend!"

"You're excuse."

"You're excuse."

They both said it as one with the smile in the face,this make white lily pout.

"Hmp! I don't see you guys complain when you two first heard him play."

"Hm perhaps not. I do love his style it very lively with his mix between his own sound if I do said so myself."

Since salt nob agreed as they was going to talk a little more before the sound of the Mc introduction the next candidate.

As the MC introduced a familiar blonde hair that shadowmilk has met a while ago walking out from the red curtain to the piano.

This peak shadowmilk interest.

"Oh~ it that him~ he looks cute~"

"Hm? He looks like a goody two shoes to me!"

"Hm..."

"This is interesting~"

"Oh? You know him blue~"

"Well you can said that~"

Now show me what you said mixy boy~

Vanilla sit in front of the piano, he closed his eyes and take a deep breath. He put his fingers on the piano to feel their smooth keys, he finally press his fingers as he starts to play his own notes,his own sound, his own mix of melody full of life.
As his melody rises though out room everyone was captivated by it beautiful yet elegantly sound.

Full with life and passion.

"Hm~ that melody is so entrances~ you are not wrong when you said he was good cousin~oh! You're smile Mysticy~ "

"Hm...I very pleased with his performance."

"Eh is alright..."

"Alright enough for you to wake up?"

"Shut up salt!"

"..."

So this is what you meant huh?

I see your notes, I hear your melody it full of life and passion...

It disgusted me.

Yet I can't get myself to not be memorized by you.

Your notes, your sound, your song, your melody, your passion.

It tingle me to try something that I thought I it was pointless.

But was it is enough for me to try?

The answer is I do not know...

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Since then it has been about a week as he is now sitting on the edge of the railing on rooftop of his mother hospital.

Thinking, wondering what would it be like if he jumped out of it. Would that finally made his mother stop over work herself and care of him more or he just die without knowing the answer to that...hmm maybe he finally meet up with his father again...

I mean it really not that hard for him to jump, with that all boredom and pointless in his life so why wouldn't he?

He keeps thinking until the sound of the door open furiously as he feels the hands at his stomach and the next thing he knew he has been dragged forcefully down from where he was sitting on.

"Wa?! Hey what's the deal!?"

"Don't jump!"

He knows that voice, that familiar voice that has haunt his mind for the past week. Shadowmilk look behind him as he saw the same sunny blonde hair with the same two different eyes that has talk to him a week ago.

"I wasn't going to..."

"Really? Then why are you sitting on the rail?"

"I need a fest air."

"Oh..."

"Yeah oh now can you let go of me?"

"Oh! Sorry!"

After Vanilla let go they both stay there awkwardly silently for a moment until Vanilla finally spoke.

"Um... Congratulations on making it to the next round! Your performance was very good!"

"Pff it was nothing and how do know about my performance~ I remember your was right after mine~"

"Well they put all the contestants performance on cookietub."

"Hmm oh yeah right...well I guess I should be congar on your performance too then..."

"What? Yo- you saw my performance?"

Pure vanilla eyes light up he look straight up shadowmilk. This make him couldn't help it but find the blonde very adorable as he sightly blush.

"I-ahem! I admit that I have judge the book too soon and um...your performance was very well mix, bold and very lively... I hope to hear you soon on your next round."

"Oh... I'm glad that you like my performance but um... unfortunately I was eliminated."

This shock shadowmilk.

"What!? Why!?"

"Well even though everyone likes my performance but it seems like the judges didn't like my mixing thing up hehe."

He knew it, he knew this would happen, with those old hag and their Sting on their assets on the classic rules.
That he all knew too well, this has also proven his potion of view. But yet even though he knew he was right on their debate before hand, he doesn't fill the thill on it, inset he feels furious as he question why the blonde still smiling as if is was nothing?!

"Why are you still smiling?"

"Hm?"

"Why are you still smiling like it was nothing?! This proves my point on your little risk of mix things!"

Why are you still smiling like that when I was the one that was right!?

"Well you like my performance do you?"

What?

"I-i didn't said that!"

"Well said you hope to see on my next performance so that means that you like it."

That makes shadowmilk blush even harder.

"I-...that is not the point!?"

The blonde giggle.

"You didn't denied~ but yes even though I feel disappointed that I wasn't able to go to the next round but at least I was able to perform and enjoy my time on stage."

"But you..."

"Yes it a competition but I careless if i win or not, all I care is that I was able to show my own song, my own sound, a part of me though the notes that I play for everyone to enjoy! And I happy that you like it too."

With his smile it feels like spring has truly come as he can he can hear his heart breathing every second, for longest time he feels inspired to do something again.

Shadowmilk chuckle as he reaches his hand out.

"Hmp! If said it like that then would you be a dear to show me who you are then?"

shadowmilk charming smile make Pure Vanilla stop for moment before he blush and with his shyly smile he take shadowmilk's hand.

"My name is Pure vanilla."

Pure vanilla ah...no wonder he was so familiar with him.

Shadowmilk finally remember the shy little boy with blonde hair who always shy away from other and hid behind his friends back when he was around.

At first he didn't really think of him as he just see him too boring, too bland Eazy to forget. But now it seems like that boy has been growing and shine brightly as ever.

This will be interesting indeed.

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"Are you sure you wanted me to be your piano partner?"

"Yes I'm sure~ why so shy right now~ I remember you was very confident of yourself."

"Yes! Well I do but we have never been practicing with eachother and you just ask me to be your partner a day ago!"

Oh yeah he did didn't he huh. He had to admit it was very sudden of him after that conversation he has ask him to be his piano partner to his violin.

"Oh yeah my fault~ but don't worry~ I trusts you."

"Yo- you trust me?"

"Yes well I saw how good you all so I trust that you wouldn't mess it up."

"Oh...that is not what I meant!"

Shadowmilk just roll his eyes.

"Oh don't worry just follow my lead."

As the MC call their name, they both walk out fill the whole room with clapping.

"Oh~ there they are~ oh! I can't wait what beautiful sound they will make~"

"Hm...I expect more from them."

"Tell me when they done I'm going to sleep."

"Ugh how disrespectful of you spicy~"

Spice roll his eyes.

"We all know I pefr Wrestling then this so deal with it!"

Silence salt just sigh as he turns to his right where his two lover seat. He looks at lily who was with the green flower them camera on her hand.

"...is your friends not coming today?"

"Sigh...no they can't come because is was so sudden that they can't put the time on going... but they did tell me to film it for them. So that's what I'm doing now."

"Me and lily was lucky that we have Free time this week to able to come and watch them."

"Oh... sorry about shadowmilk though."

"It alright I'm happy that Pure vanilla was able to get another chance to perform..."

"Indeed still I don't know why did they eliminate him."

"Oh! don't mention that again I am still Unger to talk to them."

Her other two lover just laugh they sweating, they know how much of Proctor she is when is come to her friends especially when it comes to Pure Vanilla.

As shadowmilk and Pure Vanilla finally reached to the center of the stage, they both bow to audiences after that Pure vanilla walk back to the piano and let shadowmilk lead their performance.

At first it was going well with shadowmilk steady string of the violin play perfectly like (a machine) always. But after their mid song Pure Vanilla find it very bland and kinda sad...it not like what he used to play so he decided to change it up.

This make Shadowmilk suprise as he doesn't know what Pure Vanilla playing with his keys his notes, he also notice that Pure Vanilla was taking the lead instead of him.

This make Shadowmilk not happy at all because for him he always the one who leads.

So instead of accepting Pure Vanilla's boldness of disobeying his lead, he continues to play the same string like he always do.

With the both of them playing their own beat. Instead of creating a beautiful sound like they meant to be it has created a sound so chaotic it make everyone in the room have to earplugs themselves from it and it even wake up Burning spice.

"This does not sound like sweetness and beautiful like I was image~"

"This...is not what I expected from them..."

"It sounds like they're fighting..."

"Lily stop filming and cover your ear dear."

"Don't worry about me...I have heard worse from Goldy..."

"But still-"

"Ugh that is enough!!! You two woke me up from my slumber by your shitty ass sound!!!"

Burning spice can't take it anymore as he yell at them, which makes their friends surprised because he never yell like this even if the other play that bad.

This apparently does make them both stop as they look at Spice with the everyone in the room the same with them.

Burning Spice has hands on his face to steal his mouth shut by sugar and flour as they look embarrassing because of him, While trio lover look away like they don't know them.

Even though he do them all the favor by stopping those two but it still embarrassing to be everyone looks at weirdly.

Back to the duo they didn't said anything or even continue to play. They just standing there in silence, it like they were on their own world of thought.

He was a fool he should have known this would had happened but yet he still going with just because he wants to try and try he is now look were it get him to.

How foolish of him.

"Shadowmilk..."

"What?"

"I know that is was my fault to not follow your lead like you said and for that I'm sorry...but I can't help myself but feel like it very bland and lifeless so I-"

"So you just want to take control and mess thing up?"

"No! I Just...I didn't mean to... I just wanted to change thing up a little bit for you to feel comfortable enough to let yourself show your own notes."

"My own notes? What do you know about my own notes?"

"...I admit I do not know anything about your own notes because you never show it since then...But what i do know is that you not enjoying yourself when you play those same old notes... excuse for being rude but you play like a machine."

Shadowmilk staring at him for a moment as he seal his thought until he chuckled.

"Hmp? Then tell me Mr. mix it up or not~what should I do now?"

Pure vanilla didn't take offended by his nickname, he just chuckle as he put fingers to the keys.

"If you would then... please play with how your hearts desire not as a machine but as yourself, your passion show me your own notes...and maybe let me lead this time?"

Shadowmilk hesitate for a moment.

"....and? what if it the sound like shit then?"

"If that's so then I will buy you a vanilla Milk shake then."

Shadowmilk raise his eyebrows as he is amused by the blonde.

"Hmp! serious?"

"Well at least we enjoy ourself...so what do you say will you let me take the lead?"

"Hmp...fine I will let you leads this time...but I want blueberry muffins in it if this goes to shit."

"Deal!"

As shadowmilk turn around face the crowded once again and raise his violin waiting for the piano to start.

They both start their performance again, not with the chaotic sound that fill the with head each like before, no this time pure vanilla and Shadowmilk own sound blend in together create a beautiful melody that fill the whole room with calm and enjoyment, it like they feel the sound of the life that spring has brought right before them.

"Ah~ this is what I always wanted to hear~ their passion together is beautiful~"

"Hm...this is what I expected from them."

"Eh this is good... I feel relaxing."

"Hm...they finally worked it out."

"It seems so."

"Oh this is beautiful I can feel the life flow by though their sound..."

The clap has started as they finish their performance, Pure Vanilla rise from his seat and walk towards shadowmilk for their final bow.

Shadowmilk suddenly take his hand as he hold them gently, this make him look up at him as he see that his tease yet gentle and charming smile.

"I guess I don't have those vanilla shake and blueberries then."

Pure vanilla snap out of it as he look away, he can feel his cheek getting hotter.

"I can buy them for you as the congregation for our performance."

"Oh? Then it's a date then~"

Pure vanilla face is now cover with red has he can still feel shadowmilk hand rubbing his hand gently.

"I-i mean..."

"Hehe~I was just teasing with you~oh and are you going to the dance party tonight?"

After the final bow they both walk back to the curtain as they left the Stage for the next candidate.

"The dance party? I didn't know they have one?"

"Well they rent this hotel for one of stage so that afterwards they can use it for the dance party to you know to let them relax a little bit before the quantification round start."

"Oh! That's really nice of them."

"Hm I don't think those hag that nice."

"Oh be nice..."

They was talking to eachother until a a soft but familiar voice that shadowmilk didn't think that he would have heard at this place.

"Shadowmilk..."

"... m-mother?"

Shadowmilk turn around as he shock to see his mother. First milk walk up to him as she give him a hug, he hug her back.

"Congratulations shadowmilk, your performance was beautiful."

"I... What are you doing here? I thought you were busy..."

"Yes well I am but I was able to take a time off from work so that I can be here to watch yow two play."

"It- it that so...hehe oh and mom this is Pure Vanilla my... friend."

"It nice to meet you again miss.Milk."

"Oh it nice to see you again Pure Vanilla I hope that you take your medicine well?"

"Y-yes I'm very well... please don't worry about it."

"Wait you two know eachother?"

Shadowmilk look at his mother and back at Pure Vanilla who is suspicious look nervous.

"Well yes dear he is one of my patients."

"Patients? What's wrong with him?"

"W-well-"

"It was just a flu! Noting important to worry about."

Shadowmilk raise his eyebrows at Pure Vanilla look nervous and his mom notice something as she backing him up.

"Y-yes he uh...got flu very bad so he has to go check up yesterday."

Shadowmilk still suspicious of this but he thinks none of it as he let them slide.

"Oh so that why you were at our hospital yesterday."

"Yes... Wait your hospital?!"

"Yeah it was my mother actually but anyway~ soooo what's your answer~"

"Answer?"

Shadowmilk roll his eyes.

"You know the dance thingy~"

"Oh you are going to the dance? Oh! How lovely~"

"Yeah but not until he agrees to be my dance partner mother."

With the look of anticipation from both of Shadowmilk and his mother. Pure vanilla couldn't help it but find them cute as his laughing with his red cheeks he accepted shadowmilk's invitation.

They talk for a bit before First milk leave to meet up with her friends gathering.

"Oh! I have to go now! I have a gathering party at my friend cream house."

"Oh well then bye mother hope you have a safe trip."

"goodbye miss Milk I wish you a pleasant day."

"goodbye you two I hope you have fun on your dance party~"

They both wave as she left, after a moment they finally take their leave to party room. After they reach the party room shadowmilk open the door for Pure vanilla.

"After you Nilly ~"

"Oh another nickname? But thank you."

"Hehe you have to admit I was very creative on those of I do said so myself."

Pure vanilla just playfully roll his eyes as he walk in with shadowmilk by his side, he look around the room as he admired all those couple that are dancing around the ball room.

"oh!Wow! this Is beautiful..."

"Indeed..."

ShadowMilk turn to Pure Vanilla.

"May I have this dance?"

ShadowMilk asked while looking at pure vanilla, not realizing that his eyes are full of gentleness that he was showing when he gave his hand out to the blonde"

"Oh...I would love to but...I am not really good at dancing."

"It ok I will show you."

His hand still waiting for him as Pure vanilla hesitate at first but he finally put his hand for him to take.

"Just follow my lead like really this time."

This make Pure Vanilla laugh as his cheek are burning up.

"Haha...Ok I will, I promise this time."

They walk out to the dance floor with their hands in each other and step by step shadowmilk lead him though the music.

Their smile never leave their face as they enjoy each moment dancing with eachother, like they are in their own world where everything is faded and only the two of them see eachother from eyes to eyes for who they are.

As they stop dancing, their face was closer then ever lip to lip. Right about they were to kiss shadowmilk feel being watch his eyes look to the right and he saw 7 pair of eyes looking at them.

"Wa!? What are guys doing here?!"

"Do you forget this my hotel blue~but that's not important~ please do continue~ hihi~"

"Hm..."

"Awww!!! it was about to get to fun part!"

"There's no fun!!!"

"... sorry to interrupt."

"I told you we should have come closer."

"Pure Vanilla...I'm glad."

"It not what it looks like Lily!"

They both let go of eachother as their faced was red and purple? And being teased by the other. But they still have fun at the party with their friends and more importantly they enjoy their remaining night with eachother.

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After the party they did get that date as Pure vanilla invited shadowmilk to one of his favorite sweet and cream were they make the best vanilla Milk shake.

As friend of course.

"Hum I got to admit you were right this vanilla Milk shake is the best Milk shake that I have."

"See! I told you so! Not everything small doesn't mean it it not good. Sometimes it a hidden gem."

"Yeah yeah~"

Shadowmilk playfully roll his eyes as he takes the blue berry muffin and diff in the his milk shake.

"What? Ew!"

"What? It good Have you never eat like this?"

"No but it doesn't look nice to eat it."

"Oh! now who is the one Judge the book by it covers huh Nilly~"

"I'm not!"

"Yes you are~ here try it."

Shadowmilk give Pure Vanilla his blue berry muffin that just diff in the milk shake.

"Hm no thank you."

"Oh come Nilly it good~it won't to try a little something new ya know~"

Pure vanilla look at it for moment until he give up a sigh as he take the muffin and take a small bite of it under shadowmilk eager look.

"Soooo~"

"Hm...it good."

"See~ I told you~"

Shadowmilk said with the prideful smile as pure vanilla just roll his eyes as they continue to eat their dessert.

After they done, before Pure Vanilla was about to paid for their dessert, shadowmilk was already paid them with the bepp in his chococard.

"What?! Hey! I was going to pay for us!"

"Well too bad~ you were too slow~"

Pure vanilla wasn't happy about this he can pay for himself and his too. But he can't do nothing under shadowmilk's victory smile, the only thing he can do is pout really.

"Awww what the matter~ is little Nilly mad~ so sorry I will let you pay next time don't worry~"

"You better!"

Shadowmilk just giggles as he opens the door for them to continue their friendship date.

As they walk through some of the store pure vanilla notice something as he left shadowmilk to talk to his own, who is do all the yapping without notice that he has already left his side.

"Huh? Nily?"

After 10 minutes of yapping he finally noticed that something isn't right as look around try to find the blonde. Until he feels someone put something on his head.

"Wa?!"

He looks behind him as he saw Pure Vanilla who is now smiling. Shadowmilk raise his eyebrows as he touch the thing that his nilly has put on him.

"What is this? A black hat? With cat ears?"

Pure vanilla giggle.

"Cute isn't it. I saw it in one of the store and I thought it you would look cute on it and since you didn't let me pay for us like we have agreed so I brought you this as a gift."

Shadowmilk raise his eyebrows in amused.

"Pff really?you do know I don't look anything cute right?"

"What? If you don't like it then I guess-"

"Who said anything about I don't like it! This is mine! You hear me! Mine!!!"

Shadowmilk hold the hat on his head like his life depended on it. This make Pure Vanilla couldn't help it as he find this adorable as he laughed.

"Haha! ok ok I won't take it from you. Let go that Stellar Exhibition that you said about."

"Oh! Oh yeah~ it right here Nilly~"

Shadowmilk take Pure Vanilla's hand, this make him blush a little as he can feel shadowmilk's hand full of callous from all the performance he did with his violin.

"Come on Nilly~ I'm not going to lost you again."

"Ye-yeah."

At the Stellar Exhibition Pure Vanilla was look around as he couldn't help it but feel amazed by it.

"Wao...this is beautiful..."

"I know right?"

"H-how did you know this place?"

"Hm...well my father used to take me to this place when I was a child, he would always tell me a mythical story as he carry me around because I said I like to pretend I was flying haha..."

"It seems like you guys have fun..."

"Yes...yes we do."

They just quietly standing there as they watch all the Star around them slowly move.They enjoy this moment as they wish the time would stop as their hands tangled.

Shadowmilk pull his gaze always from view before him as he look at Pure Vanilla.

Something was there in those gaze yet they were left unknown.

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As Days goes by they were getting closer each time they practice with eachother for shadowmilk 's qualifications round.

Who's barely make it because of their stun, but lucky for him because he was their all time favorite champion so they let it slide.At qualification round he can either have a piano partner or he can play solo.

Now usually he would prefer solo but he decided to try again with proper practice this Time, that and also admittedly he enjoys spending time with the blonde.

"How about this tune?"

Shadowmilk ask as he play a tune for Pure Vanilla.

"Oh! Yes! That would sound great with this!"

*Knock knock*

They stop practicing as they look towards the door were the knocking at.

"Hey~ I know that you two are busy practicing and stuff~"

"But you need to take a rest..."

"Yeah! So we brought you two lunch!"

"Hm... white Lily said I have to ensure you eat Vanilla."

"Of course she did..."

"Kkk she being mother to you aren't she~ little Nilly~ow!"

Pure vanilla just kick Shadowmilk foot, he roll his eyes.

"Stop calling me that and don't said that like you don't have at least one of your friends being mother of the group."

"Well~ sometimes Myticy sometimes Salty."

Shadowmilk was rubbing his foot suddenly he feels a aurora , he slowly looks at them as he see Mystic flour with her eyes wide open this make him sweat.

"...."

"...."

"...."

"...ok! how about Let us go somewhere to eat shall we?"

"Yes~ l-let go I am very hungry~"

"Yeah! And I am starving!"

"Hm..."

"Aha ok."

"...."

After that they started on their practices again as the the weekend when by. That day has come, the day where both of them practicing so hard for. Yet Pure Vanilla was no were to be seen.

"I'm sorry the phone number that you call didn't answer, please call next time or leave the mess-"

No matter how many call shadowmilk has he never answered.

He started to get worry and panic because the show was about to begin and his friends had already at the seat audience so there is no one here to help him find the blonde.

"Where's he?! Why didn't he answered the Damm phone !? Is-is he serious leaving me to perform alone when we literally has been practicing together?! No! There is no way he would do that to me! right?"

Shadowmilk counties to panicking until the MC start introduction his name.

"And now! the next candidate is your favorite Violin~ shadowmilk!!!"

Shadowmilk snap out of his thoughts as he try to calm himself before ready to walk out.

"Ok! Ok deep breath! It gonna be fine! I used to play solo before so it doesn't matter that he's not coming! Yeah...it doesn't matter if our practice was a waste! I can still perform alone! I'm still the best! Just... play like I used to be then it will be fine..."

He said that yet the question was still there,the pain in his heart, the disappointed in his eyes , the rage burning in his body, upset that he is but the show must go on.

He walk out the stage alone with those clap around the room, he bow to crowd as he raises his violin and start his performance.

In the crowd there's question raise among his friends group.

"Hm?Why did he walk out alone?"

"Yeah! I thought that they were doing duo?"

"That is weird~ is something happens?"

Elder fairy and silence Salt look at each other, the worry and corner has cover all over their face as if they know something wasn't right.

He was performing like his old usuals self, steady in every string, grounded on his shoulder, perfect like he was meant to be. Like what happened doesn't affect him at all nope...

Yet those feelings didn't left him.

Disappointed, hurt, pain, rage all of it never left him as he uses those feelings to pull those string. Aggressive yet beautifully balance with each time he pull.

Angry as he is, question why did he not come, but in that moment something was there too, something different.

Grief

He grief for their time together as he wished for him to be here one the stage with him...

...and he grief for his father to why he left him, he wanted him to be here, to see how far he has grown...

shadowmilk let it all out, he let all of his emotions for the first time, carries his way though out his performance.

By the time he was done everyone immediately stand clapping for his beautiful performance. But he doesn't care, all that he care now is to know where the blonde was.

He bow to the crowd as he left the stage still ringing of their claps. Behind those curtains was his friends waiting with a worry face.

"What?"

"Shadowmilk we have something to said...it about Pure Vanilla."

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At the hospital were Pure Vanilla was laying on the bed, around him is his friends.

"Goodness me Vanilla, you scared me to death!"

Darkcacao nob, he hold Pure Vanilla hand gently.

"When we heard white Lily said you was at hospital, we immediately turn around..."

"Yeah! We was in the same car and was about to drive to the competition!"

"Yeah! When hear about it we try to find a free time so we can watch you perform! My dear treasure~"

"Oh! I'm sorry it come to be this way...but thank you all for putting your Free time to support me! maybe next time..."

"Next time..."

All of them goes silence after this, his friends knew something but they didn't have a heart to out right his words or they couldn't even bear to think about it.
They stay like that for a while until the door to his room open with the full force.

"Shadowmilk?"

They all look at shadowmilk who is now with the blank face and his heavy breathing from the running.

White lily snap out of it first as she try to get her friends out side.

"Ok guys let go out and buy some lunch for vanilla shall we?"

"What?! We haven't talk enough yet!?"

"Oh come Goldy! I'm sure Vanilla is starving right now! So let's us go!"

"Ugh! Fine!"

"...."

After they left, the air was tense shadowmilk didn't said anything, he just look at Pure Vanilla with the same blank face. This make Pure Vanilla look nervous.

"...h-hi-"

"What happens?"

"O-oh it was nothing-"

"Nothing?! If it was nothing then why are you here huh?!"

Shadowmilk with his sharp eyes fill with worry and rage starring at Pure Vanilla like he dare him to lie at his face.

"I-i faint."

Half lie.

"When was about to leave I feel light headed and next thing I knew it was already dark, luckily that White lily was supposed to be there to drive me..."

Shadowmilk knew there are more to his story about this 'faint' of his. But he decided to not pressure him if he's not ready to talk.

Shadowmilk close his eyes as he taking a deep breath to calm himself. He opens his eyes again look at Pure Vanilla, this time with the gentleness in them.

"Are you...ok?"

"Yes... I'm fine... h-how was the competition?"

"It was fine... wish you can be there with me though."

Pure vanilla look down to his hand.

"I'm sorry."

Shadowmilk walk to where Darkcacao used to sit at, he take the seat and lean on Pure vanilla's lap as he gently take the blonde hand and rubbing them softly .

"It fine...at least you are ok...we can try another time..."

"...yeah.... another time..."

They take this moment of peace enjoying their time together with eachother in their lives, without knowing what lie ahead .

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"Why didn't you tell him?"

After their visit, Pure Vanilla decide to go on walk to get some fest air with White lily by his side.

"I...I don't want him to see me like that."

"He's going to find out eventually..."

"Ha....I know..."

They was walking on the silence hallway until some children run by, one of them got trip, white lily saw that as she immediately run to that child to help. Pure vanilla was about to walk to them then suddenly.

*Thub*

White lily after ensure the child was ok as they give her their thanks, she smile and looks at them ran though the hallway with their innocent laugh. She heard a thub behind her, she looks behind her as she saw Pure Vanilla was kneeling down with his legs under it.

White lily gasp as she immediately rush over to him.

"Pure Vanilla are you ok? What happens?"

"I-i'm ok...I just t-trip that all..."

He give her a smile as he try to stand up...but nothing works.

"Pure vanilla...here take my hand...let me hel-"

"No! I-i'm fine! J-just give m-me a moment."

He try and try again he can't stand up nothing working as he can't feel his legs. He was getting frustrated as he starting to pouch his legs trying to make them work again.

White lily saw that, she immediately launch in try to stop him from hurting himself.

"Pure vanilla stop!"

"Why! why! wouldn't it move! I was fine just a minute ago! So why!?*sob* Why can't I feel my legs..."

Her heart ache, she pull him into her embrace. She can feel that he was shaking, that his tear start to roll down on to her shoulder as he cling into her for his dear life.

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"How's it that they haven't let you go yet? Are you sure this is just a faint?"

It has been a week since then, if it was just a simple faint for working too hard (like his excuse) or just a flu then he would have been released by now. Something is going on ,he did ask his mother about it but she look Nervous as she look away, avoiding his gaze...she said that is patients privacy and he should wait for him to tell him himself.

He can't get answer from the blonde too because when ever he try to bring it up he would always makes excuse and change the subject like right now.

"O-oh! W-well... they said that they need me here to do more checks up! Um... aren't you just said about something with Sugar?"

Hmm suspicious...and yet he can't refused the gossip too.

He knows him too well huh?

"Oh! Yeah about Sugar~ I think that she has a crush~"

Pure vanilla take a moment to relief before he gets suprise.

"Oh! Really?"

"Yes~ and I think is one the friends of your~ I think is holo? Holi?"

Pure vanilla just roll his eyes as he correct him.

"Is HollyBerry."

"Oh yeah hollo Holli is the same. But anyway like I said sugar like her." "And how did you know that?" "Well that because she literally call me right after meeting her in one of our visit a few days ago. since then she won't stop talking about and guess who the victim to her rambling about her crush." "You?" "Yeah! Me could you believe it..." Pure vanilla just watch shadowmilk yap with a gentle yet longing smile. Suddenly he feels something not right. He started to feel his chest tightness , his mind become burry. No!...No!...Not now.... Not right...infront of him.... please... Shadowmilk still talking until he noticed the unusual silence form the blonde, he looks back at Pure Vanilla and saw his hand hold his chest as he breathing hardly like he was struggle for air. He start panic as he rush over to him. "Pure vanilla?! What wrong!? Are you ok!?" Pure vanilla didn't or can't said anything as he grasping for air. "Pure vanilla!? Shit! Wait for me ok!? I will call the nurse!"

He was about to run out but Pure Vanilla suddenly hold on to shadowmilk's shirt with the pleadings eyes.

"Ha....Shadowmilk...ha...d-don't...ha...leave..."

Shadowmilk stop a little, he hold Pure vanilla cheek to conform him.

"It ok! I just gonna find some help! I will be back I promise! I won't leave you! You gonna be fine! Ok?"

Pure vanilla sightly nob and let go, shadowmilk Immediately rush out try to call for the nurse. The nurses rush in as they try to help and maintain his breathing until the doctor arrives.

Shadowmilk who was kick out of the room shaking and panicking out side as he watched all horror right though the door him.

It reminds him of that day, where his father got sent into the hospital after the car crash. It was like this full of people try to maintain his life, his mother has to rush in to try to help, but it was not enough he still die.

He witnessed It all, the chaotic, the panic,the pain... that why he rarely visit his mother at hospital.

Now it happens again! He can't! He can't take this! He can't lose him! He feels so useless...

First milk rush to scene as she saw her son in panic.

"Shadowmilk?! W-what happen?!"

"I-i don't know?w-we were just talking and then H-he sudden... He was just fine a moment ago!"

"Shadowmilk please calm down."

Shadowmilk launch to her, knees on floor as clung to her outfit. He look at her with his pleading teary eyes, his voice was shaking.

"M-mom... p-please m-om... please s-save him... please..."

"...I will try my best dear."

Shadowmilk nob as he let go, no time to waste she immediately rush into the room where Pure vanilla was at.

After 2 or 3 hours? he don't know anyone, all he know right now, is that his mother come out with the tire face and a sigh.

"He is stable now..."

"Stable? What do you mean stable?! He said that it was just only a faint and that he was fine?!"

"Shadowmilk..."

First milk look at him with a sad face, then he realized something.

"T-this...was not just a faint it's?"

First milk look away, this confirm shadowmilk suspicious, his voice was shaking.

".... m-mother... p-please...tell me the Truth... Please..."

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After for sometime Pure Vanilla finally waking up, still tired and burry mind, he look out side the window and it already been evening as the sky started to change it beautiful color, with bird flying to their home.

How beautiful it is to see them like this...

He staring at them for a while until he heard the door open, he move his head slightly to where the door was at, there he saw Shadowmilk with his blank face.

Pure Vanilla is nervous, he is trying to make up an excuse for that as he put on his smile to greet him.

"Hey...um... sorry about earlier...I bet it was scary to witness that huh...but don't worry it was just an unexpecteing-"

"Do not lie to me..."

Shadowmilk cut his words, he can feel the rage in those words, the room was getting more tense.

"I already know everything..."

Pure vanilla surprise as his eyes wide open.

"Y-you...knew?"

"Why? Why didn't you tell me?...it is because I am not that important to you?"

"No! It not like that!"

"Then what?! Over and over, excuse and excuse, I still waiting for you to tell me the truth! Yet! You never did! Did you know how scary it was to see you like that...like... I was gonna lose you! Why didn't tell me that this wasn't a normal sickness?! are you so selfish!"

"...Selfish?"

The room suddenly change.

"I-i am selfish!? That's rich coming from you shadowmilk!"

"What-"

"How can I be selfish when you at that rooftop was thinking about throwing away your life?!"

This make Shadowmilk stumble.

Pure vanilla finally snap.

"I-i wasn't-"

"Save it! I know that look! The look in your eyes like nothing mather...how can you said that! when you didn't even though about what would happen to those around you when you die?!"

"..."

Pure vanilla was now shaking as his eyes are tearing up.

"I...I was jealous of you, that you have all the time to see this beautiful world around you . I wish... that I can have that too... when I saw you at the rooftop I was in rage...how it's that i want to live, to see this beautiful world when you just want to throw that way! How unfair...I-I want to live too..."

"...I... I'm sorry... I wasn't mean it like that-"

"...Please...*sob*...just...leave..."

Shadowmilk didn't want to leave him but he knows they both need time for themself before they said something they will regret.

"I...I will visit you tomorrow..."

Pure vanilla didn't look at him as he takes the last glance at the blonde before he left.

Shadowmilk was sitting at the hospital garden with his hand on his face not to know what to do, how can he fix this...Ugh his head each not much like his heart right now.

He continues this... yearning? until his feel someone sitting next to him. He look and he saw his mother.

"are...you ok dear?"

Shadowmilk sigh.

"I don't know...i-i just don't know what to do anymore..."

"...I don't know what happened that cost you two to fight...and I am not a good adviser...but just give yourself some time and think before you two start again..."

"...but...I'm scare...I don't want to lose him mother...like what happens with... father..."

First milk look down, she hold his hand gently.

"...If you keep scaring then you might miss out."

"..."

"Doctor Milk! A patient in room 1240 need you!"

"I'm coming!"

First Milk give her son a kiss on the forehead before she take her leave.

Shadowmilk was left alone with his thoughts again thinking about his mother words. But not for long as White lily sudden appear right next to him. He was startled.

"Wa?! Where did you come from?! And how long did you had you been sitting there."

"...it doesn't matter..."

"Uh it does! You startle me! I thought it was a ghost-"

"Did you and Pure Vanilla fight?"

"I...yea..."

"You angry?"

"...a little when he hide it from me..."

"Hm...he always does that...not wanting to become a burden to everyone...so he hide it as much as he can and let himself stuffer alone.

"...Why did he always did that?"

"...even though we don't see it often... but Pure vanilla has a very high alter ego...not waiting to see as weak or to be look pity at...that why he hide it from you."

"... He is an idiot... even though we just meet a few months ago. He would know by now that I would never look at him like that..."

"Hpm...He does doesn't he..."

They took a silence for a moment.

"How uh... How do you guys cope with this..."

"...at first we did not... Infact we did have a cold fight for a while... until we realize were just wast our time, so we finally accepted... even though it was hard...at least we was able to spend and enjoy the rest of our time being together..."

"Oh..."

"You love him don't you?"

Shadowmilk stumble suprise by this as his face turn more darker blue almost purples.

"Hff-I-I w-what?!"

"Hmp...I thought so... He like jelly bearry by the way."

White lily smile, she stands up and start walking away not before leaving him with her final words

"You should be bold for once... before you let yourself regret for not trying."

"..."

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At the next day when Pure Vanilla was looking out side silently. He heard the door open, he looks and saw Shadowmilk walk in right next to his bed and suddenly he hop down out of sight. This make the blonde raise his eyebrows as question by his strange actions.

"...shadowmilk what are you doing?"

Shadowmilk didn't answer inset a bunny puppet with a dark blue and mix of golden robe suddenly a pier.

"Hi there! My name is Founty!"

"Hmp...Founty? Really?"

Even though Pure Vanilla still upset about yesterday but he can't lie that he was amused by whatever he was doing. He find the name was kinda ridiculous, though this might have made Founty feel offended judge by his actions on the puppet.

"Hey! It very rude of you to laugh at someone's name! Where's your manner!"

Pure vanilla giggles.

"Haha! Sorry... it just you are weird..."

"Aren't everyone? Now then! This is not what I come here for."

Pure vanilla title his Head with a smile as he play along.

"Oh? Then what brings you here Founty?"

"Well...I have heard that you and Shadowmilk have a fight yesterday...so I came here as his peacekeeper to bring you his apology gift."

After Founty finish it sentence shadowmilk other hand a Pier to set his favorite jelly bearry right next to Founty and leave.

Founty hold it with two small hands and slide it to Pure Vanilla.

"Please take this sweetest jelly bearry bag as his apology gift."

"Hmm...if you make it two I will consider about it."

Hear this Founty slowly goes down and right back up with another bag of jelly bearry.

"Hmm~ not enough."

Founty goes down again and back up this time with two more bags of jelly as it look at him like pleading.

"Do you forgive him now?"

"Hmm~ I will forgive him if he apologized to me himself with more jelly bearry."

Shadowmilk immediately pop up as he point as pure vanilla face with an angry sightly embarrassing.

"Hey! Stop being sassy Nilly! And no I'm not going to give you more then 5 bags of jelly bearry! White lily and my mother has already on my ass for giving you this much."

Pure vanilla finally burst out of laugh. Shadowmilk seeing this his face start to softly. After the blonde done laughing shadowmilk apologized.

"...I'm sorry for calling you selfish."

Pure vanilla look at him smile gently.

"It fine...I forgive you...and I sorry for all those words that I have said to you."

"It ok...I deserve it anyway."

Pure vanilla hold his hand gently as shadowmilk grap on to it tightly.

"No you not...but sightly yes."

Shadowmilk grasp.

"Hey!"

They both look at each other and giggle as their still holding eachother tightly.

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After that shadowmilk would always visit, sometime with all of his friends, sometimes with his violin and sometimes with the sneaky bags of jelly bearry.

He want to make his most time with him...

At to right now shadowmilk visit him after getting though the last round before the finale.

"Geez aren't you feel stuffy when laying here all day?"

"No... not really there's a window."

"That is not what I mean hmm..."

Shadowmilk put his hand to his chin as he was thinking about something. Then suddenly he light up as he walk to where Pure Vanilla was at, with out a warning he lift Pure Vanilla up with the princess style.

This make the blonde blushes in confuse.

"W-what? What are you doing?"

Shadowmilk just give him a smug as he carry him to the wheelchair.

Pure vanilla legs has been weaker by days but with medical health practice and his friends was there to help him, he was able walk again but not as much as it used to be.

"H-hey! Where are we going."

"Relax nilly~ I'm just curing that stuffy out of you~ so just trust me and hold on tight ok."

"Oh...o-ok wait what do you mean hold on tight-woa!"

After hearing his confirmation and not letting him finish his sentence shadowmilk with a smirk, immediately push the wheelchair with his full speed out of the room and running through the hall which has cost a minor chaotic.

"S-shadowmilk! W-what are you d-doing!!!"

"Curing your stuffy of course!"

"T-this is not the right way!ah!"

"I didn't hear a slowdown!"

Everyone see this as they panic try to move out the way for them.

"What?!"

"Hey!"

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!"

"Hey! You are not allowed to run in the hospital!"

"You don't get to tell me what to do bye~"

"I'm sorry about him!"

First Milk was talking to the other Doctors at the hall way then suddenly her son run by.

"Hey mom!"

"Hi dear- what?! What the meaning of this shadowmilk? Shadowmilk!"

"Talk to you later mom!"

"Hi Miss Milk! I'm sorry about him!"

They said hi and Left leaving her confused as she try to explain about this with the other Doctors.

When They finally reached for their destination which is the hospital garden. Shadowmilk slow down as he take his breath from all that running.

Pure vanilla stay silent though which makes shadowmilk a little nervous.

Did he running too fast?Did he scare him?Did he pass the line?

All those questions has run through his head. When he was about to apologize, suddenly Pure Vanilla Brust out of laugh.

"Hahaha!"

"H-hey are you ok nilly?"

"Hahaha! Yes hm I'm fine...it just that that was very fun."

"See~I told you that I would cure your stuffy~"

Pure vanilla just roll his eyes in amused.

"Yes you did I admitted that...but next time warning me first will you?"

ShadowMilk glaze gentle at him.

"Next time..."

Pure vanilla look around him as he enjoys every moment of it, the view, the flowers, the air, the sky and him...

"I have seen the garden though the window but seeing them in person really make different."

"Hm...can you walk?"

"I think so...i can try."

"Then."

Shadowmilk hold out his hand just like what he does at that party.

"Can I have this Horner to have this dance with you?"

Pure vanilla surprise by this, he can feel his eyes start to watering as he remembers the memory of those dance that they have.

"A-are you sure? I-i'm not like I used to be so I can step on your feet or even stumble..."

Shadowmilk were not wavering by this,he still smile gently, he still hold out his hand waiting for him to take.

"I am sure."

Pure vanilla finally take his hand, he uses it to stand up from the cold of the Iron wheelchair, as they took their bow to eachother and start dancing.

It was nothing like before, there are no fancy room nor a fancy chandelier only pleats flowers flowing by the wind, there is no music yet they still dance with each step harmony together.

Even when there are stumble there always a hand to catch him. Noting can ruining this beautiful moment with eachother hands by hands, step by step they dance away their worry.

It like the world around them has disappear and that only them was eachother world.

He did get scroll by his mother by the way.

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Months goes by as the sky dripping it last of snow before the air of spring come by.

Pure vanilla is still there staring at the window, next to him is shadowmilk working on his performance for the spring final.

"Have you ever touch the snow with your bare hands?"

"Uh yeahh~ like when I was a child me and the other would have a snow fight. Still does by the way because it funny to see spice rage."

"Oh...then how does it feel?"

Shadowmilk raise his eyebrows.

"Uh it cold and freezing you get fiez Burn if you hold it too long. What's with the weird question today Nilly?"

"Oh it nothing is just that...I had been inside so long that I miss that feeling."

Pure vanilla look down were his hand were at. Suddenly a blue hand held them.

"Then let go out side."

"Really?"

Shadowmilk turn around and knees down back to his bed.

"Yeah...why not come on climb up to my back."

"Oh! You shouldn't do that I can take the wheelchair."

"Nope~ Don't feel like It~ Come on Nilly my knees are getting tired here~"

"Fine if you insist."

Pure vanilla know can't talk Shadowmilk out of this so he gave in and climb up to his back.

"Good boy~ now let go!"

Pure vanilla holding his hand out to feel the drop of the dripping snow as his eyes wondering back to where they were at now. The same rooftop, the same spot, the same place where they met for the second time.

It brings him nostalgic.

Shadowmilk didn't say anything but just walk silently.

"Let go to the benches there."

Shadowmilk giggles.

"Ohhh~ bosses now aren't we Nilly~ but fine as you wish pookie bear~"

After they sit down, they stay silence, hands grap on to eachother just watching and enjoy this moment together.

"Shadowmilk...w-what would you do if...if I'm not here anymore."

Shadowmilk immediately turn to him with a shock and sightly panic face.

"W-what are you saying nilly? D-don't said it like that...y-you can't..."

Pure vanilla just look down with a small smile.

"...I'm just joking with you...I still want to live and... be with you."

Shadowmilk feel kinda? Relief as he take a deep breath yet his voice still shaking.

"N-Nilly! You little gnats! D-don't joking with something like that! You nearly gave me a heart attack!"

"Haha... sorry."

"Just don't do that again...but to answer your questions I would have follow you AND don't talk me out of this because you are not gonna win Nilly...so if you don't wanted it for me to be like that, then you should continue to live...and I...do also wanted to be with you."

Pure vanilla gave out a hum as he close his eyes, he lean his head on to shadowmilk's shoulder.

"I will..."

You said that yet it was all just a lie.

At that time he should have know something wasn't right, he should have known...

Because right after that night his Heath suddenly goes bad as his heart fail. The nurses rush in desperately trying to save his life yet the miracle not always happens as he pass away in the age of 24.

Shadowmilk at that time was at the sweet & love store to buy his favorite bags jelly bearry for him. When he about to leave he suddenly got a call from his mother crying.

At that moment he knew something wasn't right as he left the bags on the ground and driveway with the full speed.

At the hospital with their friends crying on the side the bed. As his dripping teary eyes saw the one he that love the most was now lying lifeless on the same bed.

Yet even so he is still beautiful like the day they first meet.

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At the funeral all of the other who knew and love him was there to send him on for his final rest.

Their friends was worry about shadowmilk,his hair was a mess, his eyes was blackened from all the tear and sleepless nights, he didn't talk to anyone since then not even his to own mother.

After the funeral white Lily goes out and find him sitting alone on hard a sugary benches. White lily slowly approach him, silently take her seat next to him.

"... are you well?"

"..."

White lily just sigh.

"...I'm not very good at conform someone when I, myself also in the same stage as you are shadowmilk."

"..."

White lily sudden take out something.

"But...I have to give you this is a letter from Pure Vanilla himself to you...he it write before he..."

Shadowmilk immediately launch into taking it from white lily.

Tingly gripping it for his dear life.

"... please do read and...I hope you well..."

White lily stand up she take her one last glance at him before taking her leave.

Shadowmilk sit there for a while still gripping on the letter. After a moment he finally gathered his courage to open the letter.

" Dear shadowmilk.

If you read this letter that means that I'm not a live anymore and that I have lie that...we would be together...and I'm sorry for that.

Sorry that I lie, sorry that my knowing my dead will cost you great pain.

At first I wasn't mean to...approaches you like that, to be in your walk in your life.

When I was a child I was very shy (still is though) shy to everyone, shy to even my friends and most of all shy to even walk out of the curtain to perform.

That until I watch you play, you was so confident not scared of anything, perform with all of joy and passion in every string that you pull.

You are the star of the show.

Your passion inspired more then anything, to be confident with myself, to perform with my joy, my passion as I step my step out of the curtain to my first stage performance.

You never leave my mind.

As I watch you every performance how confident you are yet...also lonely...

Even with all the conference in my performance though out the year, yet I still find myself a lack of confidence when it comes to approaching you.

So I never did, I thought just watching you from apar would be enough.

But when I learn that I don't have anymore time to left when the my illness can be worse at anytime.

Even though at first I can't accept it, it was unfair because I still want to live and still want to see the world goes around me, I want to be hopeful for the future.

But after I finally realized that sitting there being depressed and blaming on the unfairness is a total a waste.

So I decides break out from it, break out from of my shyness and be bold for once, be risky for once.

I want to do things that I always wanted so that I can leave without any regret.

Like going on the road coster, doing the bunge jump, flying down on Air plain and finally be bold enough to approach you.

Fate was on my side when I saw you at the play ground sleeping peacefully.

And from there our performance together, our dance , our stellar exhibition is will always be my most precious memories as you bring me so much joy to my short lively hood.

Even though I satisfied with everything but I can't help it but still selfishly want a another performers with you since our last one didn't happen.

But none the less thank you for inspiring me, thank you for allowing me to be in your life, thank you for the happiest moments of my life and thanks you for being there with me by my side.

Shadowmilk cookie I love you.

I want to said this to you all long but I guess I'm still that shy kid huh?

Please live on."

Shadowmilk let his tears flowing down his face as he crying holding the letter tightly.

"Y-you...fool..."

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"Are you sure you want to do this dear?"

"Yes mother."

After first Milk done with his tie she pull away as she looks at his vest one last time before he goes on stage.

The vest was beautiful combination of black blue and white Gold design and made by shadowmilk himself before the spring final.

"Well then... good luck dear..."

Shadowmilk give her bright smile.

"Thank you mother...I love you."

First Milk eyes wide open as she was shock because he rarely said something like. This make her feel warm inside, she give him back her smile.

"I love you too shadowmilk."

Shadowmilk take a deep breath and start walking out with confident and pride he was known for, he face the crowds , he give his bow as he raised his the violin to his shoulder.

He lower his eyes as start his performance. Not like before aggressive in rage or a heartless machine, no this time it was gentle like a flowing feather swing in the wind, like a Bird sing is love song for it other half.

I have a lot of words that I been wanted to tell you. But back then I was a coward. I was afraid that if I tell you I would lose what we have then. I thought that if I didn't said anything it would go away. Yet It didn't and I left with regret of my decision.

If I haven't been such a coward, so afraid of losing and be bold for once like you said I would have tell you that...

I love you.

You are my shining light that shines through my darkest live.

Thank you for being in my life.

Thank you for the happiest moments of my life.

I'm sorry for not telling you this sooner.

So please wherever where you are, please listen my notes, my song, my melody.

Let it hold and tell the love that I have for you.

Ah...

You're here aren't you?

I can feel your beautiful kind smile looking at me from behind.

Yet I will not look back.

I will counties my life.

I will keep moving forward.

With you forever in my memory.

Till the day we meet again.

My Dear Nilly.

You're the notes to my forever endless song.

The end.