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" Guys over here!"
Sunoo shouted as he waved from the dining booth over at the members.
" Woah, everything looks so good!" Jake exclaimed, practically watering at the mouth at the sight of the printed food labeled on the hand held menu.
" It does! i'm thinking about getting the #5, what about you jungwon?"
Jay smiled as he turned to face jungwon, who was scanning his eyes across the menu as if he were searching for something.
" O-oh! mhh... i don't know everything looks so good!" Jungwon replied back with a painfully forced smile.
" mhhh you should get the loaded pasta! It has bacon and cheesy garlic bread on the side, your favorite!"
Jungwons body almost twitched at the mention of pasta. He would rather die than eat pasta.
Do you know how much oil, grease, spices, salt and fat are in just a mere plate of pasta?!
Jungwon just barely fought the urge to ask jay that, and instead covered it up with a smile and a slight awkward nod.
"Okay great! anybody else need anything before i place the order?" Jay asked the rest of the members before calling for a waiter to place their order.
"And will that be all?" The waiter asked, as he clipped his notepad to his black apron.
" Nope that's all for now thank you!" Jay replied back, with a soft smile matching the rest of the members cheerful expressions.
Except for one person.
Jungwon.
He wasn't smiling. And if anything, he wanted nothing more than to burst out in tears in that exact moment.
"We should really come out to barbecue restaurants more often! We've been missing out on all of this!" Heeseung exclaimed as he leaned back on his booth seat and opened his phone.
Jungwon leaned against the booth wall with a sigh, and opened his phone aswell.
~ 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝟐,𝟎𝟎𝟎 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐩𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐝𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐥!
It was a notication from his step stracking app.
Only 2k? I could get that right now. But where? Wait.. I have an idea.
Jungwon thought to himself before excusing himself to step outside for some fresh air.
He hadnt noticed it earlier, but apparently he had been biting the inside lf his cheek subconsously. But he was now tasting the metallic, rusty taste of his own blood.
Ah fuck, seriously?
Jungwon had used the sleeve of his dark red sweater sleeve to try and stop the slight bleeding from his mouth, how ironic.
~ 𝟏𝟓,𝟎𝟎𝟎 𝐝𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐥 𝐡𝐢𝐭!
Jungwon's phone buzzed as he got another notification from his steps app. Hitting his goal for the day, jungwon closed his phone and headed back inside, plopping back into his booth seat.
“ Jungwon did you get the new dance practice schedule? Sunghoon tried sending it to you but it wouldnt go through.“
Jungwon nodded, opening his mouth to reply before being cut off.
“ Omg guys, foods here!“ Sunoo exclaimed as the waiter placed the trays of food along the booth table.
The members gasped at the sight of the savory flavored meals placed in front of them.
“ Okay take your pictures now because i can barely wait any longer to dig in.“ Heeseung stated before taking his phone out and snapping a couple pictures himself.
“ Sunoo hyung hurry uppp! my steaks gonna get cold ughhh“ Ni-ki impatiently snarked at sunoo.
“Ugh okay fine im done, you can dig in now.“ Sunoo replied back annoyed, before putting his phone in his side pocket and digging in aswell.
The table radiated with laughter and contentment as everyone was enjoying their meals, except for jungwon.
Of course it was jungwon. The only one who couldnt enjoy, or even taste his meal.
Why did he have to be like this? Why couldnt he just.. eat?
He felt like a puppet being controlled by the one thing he couldnt control.
His mind.
As much as he wanted to eat, he had already hit his limit of 700kcals a day. And eating anything over that would basically be the same as a fuck you letter to all his restricting and hard work he had done the day prior.
But just one bite cant hurt.. Right?
No.
Stop.
Are you even trying at this point? You disgusting pig, just eat it your already fat why try?
“ Jungwon are you okay?“ Sunghoon asked out to jungwon, who was cutting his pasta up while staring at his plate.
Jungwon tore away from his thoughts as he looked up at sunghoons concerned face.
“O-oh yeah! Sorry i just got a bit distracted hah..“ jungwon replied back awkwardly before looking back down at his plate, which was covered in cut up pasta.
Sunghoon brushed it off and continued eating.