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Since the beginning of time we all for some reason have had a kind of existential crisis. It’s inevitable really. You see, human kind has always yearned to know and see beyond what’s in front of us. From going to the moon, to exploring parts of the sea that were probably never meant to be seen. Time and time again we surpass the boundaries. We thought we had. So if we’ve been able to surpass those things, learning more, how come we cant find something that should be —at a glance—simple?
What is the meaning of life? Along with different variations of the question. Eventually all of them lead back to that base one. Yeah once you look more into it you’ll start to get into paradoxes, complicated stuff that we cant even begin comprehend. For the fun of it, ill go on a rant about all of this. Why? Because i want to. Who asked? Probably a lot of people in genral, no one aske ME specifically. But this is my doc so imma do whatever i want with it. First thing. The zero paradox.
Zero is supposed to represent “nothing”, right? Well, if you were just told that, and didnt look into it at all, you’d just accept it and move on without thinking twice. Probably. But, here’s the thing. How can zero represent nothing. Hell- NOTHING. Can represent nothing. Can it? The concept of nothingness itself cant exist because it’d be SOMETHING. It contradicts itself. Weird. Yea. And we kinda just accept that we dont understand stuff like nothingness. But what if something is stopping us from understanding it. Or what if there just- nothing more? Ah, “nothing”…NOTHING CANT EXIST- GODDAMMIT—
What if we are something’s dream? Like idk, i once saw a TikTok comment saying “what if we are a dream of the universe?”. That comment made me really stop and think like…dude…sounds like a possibility. Because- people in dreams dont know they aren’t real, and in a dream. They dont know they’re a creation of something else. So we cant completly rule out that possibility for us. What if we are nothing but another beings dream? Ah- then we’d have to ask ourselves…what is that being. And how did that being come to be. Who is it. Why. WHERE- HOW??? Oh my freaking goodness why is this complicated.
If we are part of something else’s conscious, what even is conscious. How is it made- why does it exist. Where even is it. Because- do we even know what it is? Yeah to us its just..normal..thats what we have, always have had, consciousness. It’s just really there and we dont bat an eye. What are we?
Back to the existential x consciousness talk. What if we are alone inside our head? We can never prove that everything around us is real because we live inside our own head. Our own little world. Everything we’ve known, and will ever known, we see from our conscious.
What if ‘we’ are that being. Sounds like a stretch. But hear me out. What if the reason we cant see beyond, to things such as nothingness, and creation. Is because we are the ones who made it all, in our head. That we cant understand nothingness because theres no more to know. We made it. So uh…idk if you get what im saying. Back to the question, whats the meaning of life? What are we?
Are we nothing?
Is the reason we can't even begin to comprehend the concept of “the unexplainable”, because there's simply nothing to be explained???
IM CONFUSED, and ill probably stay confused tbh.
Bye twin. To calrify, this was just a rant. If it somehow makes sense, uh…well i dunno. It shouldn't.