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She says, ' I will give you freedom.'
But she's the one to take it away.
She says, 'I'll give you chance if you ask me. '
But she's the quickest to say NO when I ask for it.
She says, 'I'll respect your space.'
But she's the one to invade it.
And now if I keep things secret from her, she says I'm a ruined child.
She doesn't trust me anymore. She never fully believes me. So how am I supposed to trust her?
They say, 'Don't ever lie to your mom. ' But how am I supposed to do that when she doesn't even accept my truth?
She goes through my chats, to find out nothing. She says, it's taking care. She speaks ill about my friends though she knows little about them. And then she hopes that I'll respect her.
She says, 'you are an ungrateful child.' because I don't let her control my life. I am grateful enough but not in a way she will realize.
She says, 'respect people.' but she's the one who tell me, 'you'll be a mother of three kids if you were married right now ' or she'll say, 'I don't believe you because you won't be able to hold back (sexually) much longer.'
She says these to insult me. Maybe she considers it Respect? Well, hearing those words as a girl who is at the doorstep of being an adult, that hurts.
She says, 'you can share everything with me.' but how am I supposed to do that when I know I will only get negativity?
I'm getting older, struggling with studies, career plan, with people and even with my identity. That's why I made my own world to escape this reality. I'm a human. I'm not escaping my duties, just making some time for myself. But she doesn't want it. That's why she constantly tries to find it out though she knows I don't want to let her know.
She says,' you want to leave home and get a job in a far away city because you don't want to live with us.'
But has she ever tried to think why I don't want to do a job in my hometown. Not because I want to escape my duties towards her, because I want freedom, I want to live as I like for once, to he who I am, not what they want me to be.
She says that I don't love her. But she doesn't even know how many nights I spent crying just because I imagined a future without her.