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My ego and self-worth was tied solely to my powers... so without those, what am I? I don't deserve any of this. I should have been left to rot right where my powers were stripped of me. I don't want to have to live in a world where day after day my mistakes pressure me- it's unbearable. I know I fucked up and I can't do anything to fix that anymore... not without my powers... But I'm never getting those back, am I? Not without returning to who I was... and I can't. Not under any circumstances. I guess, in a way, this is punishment maybe? Living with the guilt of all the people I hurt... maybe I was wrong. Maybe I do deserve this. I deserve Fred or Xara's fate more than they do... I'm a fucking monster.