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I stand there not knowing what to say, I've dreamed of this moment so many times. Now that I am here, I can’t tell him now, I need more time. He’s talking again, I need to listen and focus.
“What?”
“I said do you like me?”
“Um-”
“And don’t give me a bullshit answer, or avoid the question like you always do Hanbin”
“Hao please don’t do this, I don’t know wa-”
“JUST TELL ME”
“Fine yes, I like you, are you happy now? It hurts and I cry everyday knowing I can’t love you just because what we are. Knowing I could ruin your life you worked so hard for-”
Hao kisses me and I don’t know what to do but I kiss him back. I know I shouldn't, I should top but I can’t stop. I pulled away from him.
“Hao we shouldn’t”
“I want to”
“No, Hao we can’t”
I turn to walk away and see Ricky my face gets red at his shocked face.
“How long”
“Hanbin”
“Fuck”
I run past Ricky, not wanting to deal with it. I hear Hao and Ricky calling my name as I run. I don’t know where I'm running to but anywhere is better than here. I know I should go back Hao is going to kill me when I go back. That’s future me problem for now, I just keep running.