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To Sylvie. You almost definitely won’t see this but i need to write down what im thinking, i miss you. Yes i know i see you everyday at school ,break and lunch, i see you after school when you wait for your mum at my house for 30 min. I also see you when we hang out with our friends on weekends wether thats the BBB or our school friends but in most of these instances im never alone with you anymore. It’s never just me and my best friend, and its stupid i know because in every way i am still your best friend i know that but i still can’t shake the feeling of jealousy. I think im jealous of Tom. Tom is your first boyfriend so of course he’s a novelty but actually he isn’t because he’s also now one of my best friends and you two are more than just your ‘first boyfriend’ which oh my god i’m so happy for you. Tom is a great friend and an even better boyfriend, he genuinely loves you and he isn’t afraid to tell us and i love seeing people love who i love. You and Tom are inseparable, you walk together in school you’ll always be in the same team in board games, you lie next to each other on the bed or the coach. You hang out alone a lot nowadays and i think im jealous, no not of you with Tom but of Tom being with you all the time, Tom gets to have you so much you’ve become his best friend and his yours and in simple terms i feel un-needed i guess. It’s so selfish of me to say, that i want to be with just you alone more, it feels rude to say out loud which is why i won’t, ever. Sylvie, you are my best friend and i know you used to think maybe i replaced you with Sienna after Mia, but oh jeez you were so wrong because every time i get a few minutes alone with you im laughing and i always have a smile on my face because you make me so happy and i need you. i really need you Sylv i need my best friend not just toms girlfriend. i’m sorry you won’t ever understand this,me, how it is ment but i miss you so so much i’ve become: jealous, selfish, rude and wrong to try and get you to feel the same. But i know you don’t see it like that and tom doesn’t replace me really, especially to you, but Sylvie i feel like im losing you please come back ❤️